Couldn't Handle It Today, Taking Leave

I had insomnia last night, and Baidu lately had made me think about a lot of things. When I had a headache today, I took blood pressure medication, and two hours later I started feeling dizzy.

This showed that my recent headaches might not necessarily be a blood pressure issue.

Although I didn't want to admit that it might be a psychological issue—staying up late, stress, overthinking, and other things.

I used to have a very good temper. Even if my mother pointed at me and scolded me for hours, I wouldn't get angry. Now, a single sentence makes me complain loudly.

But when I reflected on it today, I realized that my mind had been very clear at the time. Mentally, I had been very calm and hadn't actually been angry.

Even the emotional anger was only a matter of my voice being louder. Maybe it was just my body's instinctive way of releasing stress!

I used to relieve stress by watching comedies and playing games, but games hadn't been doing much lately.

Insomnia, vivid dreams, too little sleep, irritability (emotionally irritable while my mind stays clear; I don't know whether that counts as irritability either).

The worst part was that as long as I thought about something a little more complicated or experienced emotional fluctuations, I got a headache.

And whenever I tried to sleep, my mind started uncontrollably—even unconsciously—thinking about things I couldn't make sense of myself. It became extremely chaotic, my head started hurting, and I couldn't sleep.

After reflecting on it, I realized that it seemed my illnesses this year weren't due to bad luck, but rather my past sleep schedule. Since I rarely got sick for years, my physical problems had all erupted at once.

I'm taking leave today because that blood pressure medication