I've been struggling with insomnia lately. A lot of the time, I'm clearly exhausted, but the longer I lie there, the harder it is to fall asleep, and even when I do, my sleep is full of dreams.
Last night, I lay in bed with my eyes closed and stayed awake all the way until nine in the morning, lying there "full of energy"!
Thinking that I hadn't had breakfast in ages, I ordered some delivery and ate breakfast, then lay down again. At first, I felt sleepy and tried hard to relax and hold on to that feeling. Yep, I gradually perked right back up.
I nearly spat out a mouthful of blood, goddammit.
Then again, if you asked whether I was really exhausted or incredibly sleepy, that didn't seem quite right either. But whenever I needed to use my brain, my head just buzzed, and I couldn't write anything.
Maybe I've been thinking too much about how to wrap up the book and putting myself under too much pressure? But I've been so laid-back about this book that it shouldn't be happening.
Anyway, tonight I'm going to fall asleep before eleven!