Ch. 381What Do You Want?
Chapter Summary: “What Do You Want?”
Key Plot Points and Events
- Illya confronts Hōraisan Shiki, blaming him for killing her father, Kiritsugu Emiya. She angrily insists that Kiritsugu was the best father in the world and refuses to accept any justification for his death.
- Shiki acknowledges that killing is wrong and openly admits that he killed Kiritsugu in Fuyuki City. Rather than excuse his actions, he uses his Rainbow Mystic Eyes to bring Illya into a Mental World.
- The Mental World recreates Fuyuki City during the Fourth Holy Grail War. Shiki explains that he intends to show Illya what happened during the war and what her life might have become in a Parallel World where he had never intervened.
- Shiki assures Illya that he will not kill her. Because the Mental World prevents lies, she senses that his words are sincere, despite her hatred of him.
- He clarifies that his purpose is not to make her abandon her desire for revenge. Instead, he wants her to understand Kiritsugu’s choices, witness the consequences of the Holy Grail War, and see the cruel future she might otherwise have endured.
- Illya reaffirms that she will eventually avenge Kiritsugu. Shiki accepts her promise and says he will face her revenge whenever it comes, but warns her not to involve anyone else.
- Shiki prepares to show her an account of the Fourth Holy Grail War, combining his own observations with information from Kirei/Kaineth-related sources, Irisviel, Justitia, and other witnesses. The chapter ends as the Mental World begins recreating Einzbern Castle, where Kiritsugu’s story started nearly ten years earlier.
Character Developments
- Illya: Demonstrates a strong moral understanding despite her young age. She recognizes that killing is wrong but believes her love for Kiritsugu makes vengeance necessary. Her hatred remains firm, yet she becomes curious about the truth of her father’s past and agrees to watch Shiki’s account.
- Shiki: Shows unusual honesty and restraint. He neither denies responsibility for Kiritsugu’s death nor attempts to morally justify it. His decision to educate Illya suggests concern for her emotional future, Irisviel’s relationship with her, and the possibility that Illya might otherwise grow into a lonely, revenge-driven person.
- Kiritsugu: Although absent from the present events, he is portrayed as morally complex: capable of compassion toward ordinary people but willing to sacrifice individuals when he believes it will save a greater number. His past has deeply shaped Illya and remains the central source of conflict.
- Irisviel and Justitia: Their concern for Illya is implied. Shiki believes Illya’s pursuit of revenge could permanently damage her relationship with her mother, motivating his intervention.
- Hisau Maiya: Mentioned as Kiritsugu’s former assistant and lover, who recovered his body and returned his ashes to Einzbern Castle. Shiki also reflects on her uncertain fate and hopes she finds her child.
Significant Themes
- Moral responsibility: The chapter rejects easy excuses for violence. Shiki admits that killing is wrong even while accepting that he killed Kiritsugu.
- Understanding versus forgiveness: Shiki does not demand that Illya forgive him or abandon revenge. He only wants her to understand her father and the consequences of his actions.
- The burden of idealism: Kiritsugu’s belief in sacrificing the few to save the many is presented as both heroic and deeply cruel, leaving him isolated and tormented.
- Truth and perspective: The Mental World removes the possibility of deception, emphasizing the value of seeing events directly rather than relying on incomplete explanations.
- Parental love and grief: Illya’s devotion to Kiritsugu shapes her identity, while Shiki hopes she can understand him without being consumed by hatred.
- Parallel worlds and fate: Shiki uses his knowledge of Parallel Worlds to reveal an alternate outcome of the Holy Grail War and suggest how different choices could have changed Illya’s life.
Character Interactions
- Illya and Shiki: Their exchange is confrontational but gradually becomes more respectful. Illya treats Shiki as her enemy, while Shiki speaks to her seriously and even crouches to meet her at eye level. She remains hostile but recognizes his sincerity.
- Illya and Kiritsugu: Though Kiritsugu is not physically present, Illya’s defense of him reveals intense love, loyalty, and grief. She idealizes him while remaining unaware of the full moral complexity of his life.
- Shiki and Irisviel: Their relationship is indirect but important. Shiki’s concern for Irisviel’s bond with Illya influences his decision to reveal the truth rather than simply leave Illya to her hatred.
- Shiki and Kiritsugu: Shiki sees Kiritsugu as a flawed but comparatively humane Magus—someone capable of considering civilians yet still willing to commit terrible acts for his ideals. He intends to present Kiritsugu’s actions honestly rather than condemn or excuse him.