Requesting a chapter off and a few words.
It wasn't because I was taking time off for Qixi. Honestly, I could have finished writing in the morning and afternoon, then spent the evening with my wife and Little Afatty.
But the updates have been delayed these past two days. The truth is, I've been in a pretty bad state, forcing myself to write... Then I started having trouble sleeping the day before yesterday. Today, after writing half a chapter and finding it unsatisfactory, I deleted the whole thing. I tried to take a nap to reset, but I couldn't fall asleep at all.
Writer's block is one reason. And for some reason, I keep feeling that what I write is terrible. I'm extremely dissatisfied with it. Compared with my previous creative state, it's like night and day.
The writing of Cells is somewhat different from my previous books. I want to introduce more elements, higher-level conflicts, and deeper layers of the indescribable, but right now I feel a little drained.
I had envisioned many things for this arc. I planned to use the Great Expedition to unveil the beginning of a world-shaking event. There's too much to consider if I want to create that epic feeling, but now it feels like there's too much piled up in my head, all turned into a muddled mess.
It feels like I've already taken a lot of time off this month. Nothing like this ever happened when I was writing before, so even asking for leave today comes with a sense of guilt... After all, not every reader has someone to celebrate the holiday with. But I really can't write today. I want to sleep for a while, until my mind clears and some fresh ideas emerge.
I'm truly sorry.
If you fellow