I saw Cuttlefish post some remarks, and I also saw a fanfic author of Cuttlefish's post remarks after losing their composure, so here I am posting mine (?)
First of all, rest assured, my emotions were not that intense. After Cuttlefish dropped the shocking setting in Volume 5 that "Circle of Inevitability was written by Adam," my most intense emotions had already exploded—why then? Because I had just come back to the fandom.
Yes, I had already lost my composure once during the Closing Remarks for Volume 2. Later, because I was writing fanfiction and the Demoness romance stuff at the end of Volume 5 was such a huge deal, I went back to read it again. And the moment I came back...
After that, my mindset was actually relatively steady. The chapter that stirred me up the most was called "Giant's Shoulders." I think those few chapters were one of Cuttlefish's unusually strong bursts of writing. They were so blood-pumping that they successfully ignited my emotions!
The only problem was that my emotions were directed at him, at Lumian's... Yes, he made me absolutely furious.
Later on, friends in the reader group might know that most of the time, I was just Watching the Fun. The most recent intense emotional outburst was the ending's "God Loves the World"... I did not object to Adam dying. I objected to Adam dying after the war, and to Lumian being the one to do it. Especially since, at roughly the same time, there was also the matter of a decades-long truce followed by a second war. Those two things stacked together made me lose my composure a little (...)
But considering that the big breakdown was already over, the ending's impact on me was actually not too bad. You could say it