Today was like a bolt from the blue. Some time ago, my mom was diagnosed with a thyroid tumor and underwent surgery. Today, when she went back for a follow-up, the hospital informed us that cancer cells had been found in the tumor they removed. We just didn't know whether the cancer cells had spread elsewhere.
She still had to undergo more tests!
It was as if my head had exploded. I was thrown into chaos, stunned senseless, completely dazed. I'd always felt that things like cancer were so far away from me, but then, all of a sudden, it was here. I panicked. Everything fell apart!
All of a sudden, death felt so close!
Right now, I had no state of mind at all, no feelings left. I was a complete mess myself, yet I still had to do my best to comfort my mom. She'd always kept everything bottled up inside, carrying enormous pressure. When I saw her silently wiping away tears by herself beside the sofa, for the first time, I felt that she had grown old. My heart hurt more than I could say.
Even though I kept comforting myself and comforting my mom, telling her this kind of cancer was nothing, nothing at all, that it wouldn't kill her, I was still terrified!
Right now, all I could hope was that the cancer cells had already been cut out and hadn't spread!
Guo Jingming once said that he worked so hard to make money because, when the time came, he wanted to use money to buy his parents new blood, to buy them new lives!
For the first time ever, I felt such an intense resonance with those words! And once again, there was that overwhelming feeling of helplessness. I couldn't do anything—not even comfort