Seeing Teacher Lu, Lu Xin and No. 8, who had woken up at some point with annoyed expressions on their faces, suddenly fell into silence.
They saw Teacher Lu's guilt and inner torture.
But they stood at two different angles, neither understood nor could they understand.
Children in the orphanage are divided into three types:
One type is those who died and were resurrected, like No. 8. They all maintain different attitudes and feelings towards Lu Xin, who killed them in the first place. The other type is people who have died. They are no longer conscious, but there are still people who feel sorry for them.
There is another kind of deer...
She survived, but she became disabled. The person who once ran so fast could no longer run.
Logically speaking, she is the most painful one...
That's why No. 8 found her because she was the most suitable person for the lawsuit.
However, now she thinks that she is the sinner.
Moreover, is this emotion true?
"I..."
Teacher Lu also struggled to speak, mustered up the courage, and looked at Lu Xin.
It seemed difficult for her to look directly into Lu Xin's eyes.
Moreover, Lu Xin actually saw only a little fear in her eyes, but more guilt and sadness.
"I actually knew this all along..."
She whispered, but she didn't say what she knew.
As if trying to sort out his chaotic thoughts, he slowly looked up at No. 8 and said, "You are right to seek justice for the children in the orphanage. They really shouldn't be forgotten like this, but you shouldn't be looking for Lu Xin..."
"Really, because the escape plan was originally proposed by me..."
She answered with some difficulty, "If it weren't for me, how could the escape fail, and how could things like this happen?"
"..."
Listening to her words, Lu Xin and No. 8 fell into deep silence.
This answer did not surprise them.
They naturally knew who came up with the escape plan, because they were all involved.
However, in the face of Teacher Lu's deep self-blame, even No. 8 could not show his approval. When Teacher Lu said these words, he could not help but shake his head. Although he did not think of how to refute these words, he did not agree with them at all.
If the escape plan fails, is the person who proposed the escape plan guilty?
Of course this is not right.
No one can question such a person...
"No, there are many things you don't know..."
When Lu Xin and No. 8 both showed subconscious denial attitudes, Teacher Lu shook his head vigorously, stopped the two people from speaking, and whispered, "Things are not as simple as you think. I should really be responsible for all this..."
"At that time, I was just a person stealing food everywhere in the chaotic city..."
"I have no idea when I'm going to starve to death."
"That, that orphanage is like a nightmare to you, but to me, it is like heaven."
"Only there can I have a full meal, and even eat chocolates that are so sweet that I could never even imagine before. I can even sit in the classroom, read, write, and wear clean clothes like those children from rich families..."
"..."
During Teacher Lu's narration, Lu Xin and No. 8 both remained silent.
Her words seemed to bring the memories of that time before them, making people involuntarily immersed in them.
"You said, with such a good life, what else could I be dissatisfied with at that time..."
Teacher Lu spoke slowly, his voice trembling slightly. "I don't know why I said that at first. I... I am with you, and I know that this is the best life, but I always deliberately tell you about the life outside. I seem to be showing off, telling you how big the outside world is and how free it is..."
When she said this, she couldn't help but her voice deepened slightly.
After a long time, she spoke in a low voice, "I had no idea at the time what kind of desire my meaningless show off represented in the eyes of those children who were clean on the surface but secretly endured various experiments almost every day..."
"Later, an escape plan emerged..."
"I was the one who accurately proposed this escape plan."
As she spoke, she couldn't help but shake her head subconsciously. "But actually, the person who really wants to escape is not me."
"I don't need to conduct experiments in the first place, so why would I want to escape?"
"Long before I brought it up, or in other words, long before I started to show off those meaningless lies, there were already many older children in the orphanage who had thought of it. I just discovered their thoughts and was the first to bring them up..."
"I even saw the pinholes and knife wounds on your bodies, and I felt like a little hero for leading you out."
"..."
Lu Xin and No. 8 listened to her story with confused looks on their faces.
Even they had almost forgotten what happened before their escape plan actually came to fruition.
At that time, everything seemed to be natural and logical.
Too many children feel pain due to the torture of endless experiments.
And as they grow up day by day, they gradually realize their own strength.
Although because of their young age, they have not yet developed the idea of really resisting those adults.
But the idea of escape became more and more clear in my heart.
They want to leave this orphanage and escape this eternal torture and experiment.
All of this happened as if it was destined.
Who will remember exactly how this idea came up and how it was confirmed...
Teacher Lu actually remembers...
She actually remembered it so clearly, as if she hadn't forgotten anything.
Perhaps, she did use lies to describe the beauty of the outside world to children because of their subtle competitiveness. Perhaps, she did feel like a hero because she could save these suffering children and escape from this sea of suffering...
But can these be considered errors?
"Later, the escape plan was finalized among a group of children."
Teacher Lu seemed to be breathing for a long time before speaking slowly, "But the Beginning wanted to escape. It was not so many people at all. It was the older children who decided to escape, and they did not want to take the younger children with them. Because they are young and ignorant, it is almost impossible to escape from the heavily guarded orphanage with them..."
"But..."
Her voice trembled as she spoke with difficulty, "But I stopped them."
"I am very talented, I am really very talented, I really feel that at that time, I was the smartest among you..."
"I want them to take everyone with them and run away, so they can look like heroes."
"In addition to these children, I even, I even insisted on bringing Lu Xin... bring No. 9 with me."
"..."
This is the first time she calls Lu Xin "No. 9".
When she said these two words, she raised her head slightly, with indescribable remorse and fear in her eyes.
"Those older children actually don't plan to take you with them, because they are afraid of you..."
Teacher Lu explained to Lu Xin with some difficulty, "In the eyes of many people, you are more fearful than the orphanage..."
Lu Xin listened to these words in silence, and then nodded slightly.
Naturally, he also remembered what happened in the orphanage. The more sensible and older people are, the more afraid they are of themselves.
Therefore, it was ordinary people like Teacher Lu and children like San Xiaozhi who got close to him.
And I... I don't seem to be close to anyone.
The world at that time, in my eyes, was filled with only curiosity and estrangement.
"But I insisted they take you."
Teacher Lu said slowly, his eyes full of guilt.
"But it's not because of anything noble, really..."
She seemed to muster the most courage to say these words: "I had to take you with me at that time because I knew that the older children were afraid of you. I have a good relationship with you, so I took you with me so that the older children would listen to me. I..."
"I even asked you in front of them if you would really take us away and if you would listen to me..."
"When you agreed with a smile, but the older children didn't dare to answer, I didn't know how happy I was..."
"They finally didn't dare to abandon us. They didn't even dare to say that they wanted to give up their escape plan..."
"..."
No. 8's eyes gradually became confused.
Teacher Lu's words seemed to be just telling something that they had known for a long time.
However, as a person involved in what she said now, the more he listened, the more confused he became...
Lu Xin also fell silent. He sat quietly in the dim office. His whole state was very strange.
"You all know what happened next..."
Teacher Lu gently touched his face and whispered, "No one has ever blamed me."
"Everyone looked at me, full of apologies and sympathy, as if I was the one who was hurt the most..."
"But..."
There was a cry in her voice, "I am sorry for everyone..."
"All of this was originally caused by me. Your pain was caused by me. The deaths of all the children were also caused by me. Everything you were burdened was caused by me. I was the one who released the monster in your heart. I was the one who messed up everything."
"For all these years, I am still the one who has not dared to tell you the truth..."
"..."
She looked at Lu Xin, with tears streaming down her face. The countdown rolled rapidly and returned to zero in an instant. "I'm sorry, No. 9..."
"Actually, I have always known what you are like..."
"I have known it for so many years, but I have never dared to admit it..."
"Because as long as I admit it, it means that what happened back then was really messed up by me..."
"So I have always been unwilling to admit it. I have always stubbornly believed that you were a gentle child in the orphanage..."
"But now, I can't deceive myself anymore..."
"..."
"Is that so?"
Lu Xin Listening to Teacher Lu's words, endless confusion emerged in his heart.
An extremely complex emotion suddenly appeared in his heart. He felt very sad and painful.
Something that I had been holding onto seemed to be broken in an instant.
I have been working hard, living my life desperately, and trying hard to convey to others that I am normal and getting better.
He thought he acted very well and deceived everyone. The most important thing is that he deceived her.
It was precisely in order to deceive her that he didn't want to say anything even though he knew she had misunderstood.
Only then would he admit in front of her that something was wrong with him and work hard to cure himself.
But it wasn't until this moment that he understood.
It turns out that my efforts are useless, and I have been performing a clumsy and ridiculous performance.
Boom!
At the same moment, there was a sudden violent tremor outside the teaching building. The whole city seemed to be shaking. The next moment, the screams of the crowd were heard in the distance. Everyone looked up in horror and saw a pair of eyes in the sky, red and blood-colored. The eyes were so close to Qinggang, hanging in the sky, looking at Qinggang City coldly.
Hanging in the sky together with Crimson Moon, it looks like three wheels of Crimson Moon appeared.