I just hate getting pointlessly involved with boring and troublesome things.
Although simply refusing would let me avoid the trouble that followed, the act of "refusing" itself was troublesome.
Because whenever a "yes" and "no" option appeared before you, even if you already had an answer in mind, even if you did not need to think at all and only had to "confirm your choice," merely completing that act of "confirming your choice" still consumed your energy.
It was like those pop-up ads online. Even if you immediately clicked them away without a second thought, you would still find them annoying.
In my view, for someone with no expectations of romance, suitors were pop-up ads that had run into real life.
What was worse, they could not be dealt with simply and brutally by moving a mouse and clicking the X.
In short, they were annoying. You know what I mean?
It wasn't that I was bad at rejecting people. I simply found anything I wasn't interested in, yet which had gone out of its way to intrude into my world, annoying. Do you understand now?"
After finishing, Bai Lan buried his face in his lunchbox and quickly devoured a third of its contents in just a few bites.
Watching Bai Lan try so hard to explain himself, Ichinose thought for a moment, then nodded and said, "Okay, Bai, I think I completely understand now!"
"Do you really understand?" Bai Lan asked uncertainly as he looked at the nodding Ichinose.
Ichinose continued nodding.
However, Bai Lan still felt uneasy, worried that her "understanding" might not be the same as the "understanding" he wanted.
*Is Ichinose just humoring me? Does "understand" here mean something like "Yeah, yeah, yeah"? Or is she deliberately twisting my meaning by exploiting loopholes in my words,