As for the possibility of falling asleep there after a while, it must be because he hasn't slept well these days and is too tired.
After entering the room, he originally wanted to go straight to the familiar big bed.
But by some strange coincidence, I opened the bedside table.
When he saw a brown leather diary inside, he hesitated and quietly took it out.
'I just want to get to know her, not peek. '
After staring for ten full minutes, Huo Sihan finally stretched out his sinful hand and opened the brown leather cover.
Lines of beautiful words come into view...
[June 6th: I got married today. Looking at the red book in my hand, I couldn't believe it.
It was very quiet around me. I sat on the bed, very nervous, but thinking about my mother in the hospital, I gained courage again.]
[June 13th: The Su family lied to me. They said it was just a normal marriage, but I had a vague feeling that something was wrong.]
[June 20th: Mom is very angry today because she knows that I married Huo Family just to get the Su family to pay for her treatment.]
[June 26th: On the twentieth day of the Huo Family, he came back, but he was still very cold and didn't even say a word to me.
I finally confirmed the suspicion in my mind that this was an unconsensual marriage.
But now that the situation is over, I can only move forward. My mother is still in the hospital.]
[July 3: I thought about it for a whole week and decided to try to save this marriage, even though it didn't start well.]
[July 8th: I think my previous thoughts were too naive.]
[July 20th: Forget it, let's do it. At least my mother can survive. Living is the most important thing.]
[August 10: My second uncle called today.
I finally realized how embarrassing my situation was at the Huo Family.
I'm in a bad mood. Maybe I should drink something sweet so that I won't feel so bitter.]
[August 29: First Uncle called today.
When my father died in a car accident, I knew the world was dark.
Today I finally know how cruel the human heart can be.]
[October 1st: The streets are very lively, but I feel that they are far away from me. Sometimes, I really want to find a place without people and live alone without having to face the complicated human heart.]
[December 5th: Today is my birthday, but I am not happy at all. It can even be said that I am in a terrible mood.
This world is so dirty, I sometimes think, I might as well leave, but I still have my mother.]
Looking at those words that contained a hint of helplessness about life and disappointment in the world, Huo Sihan felt as if his heart had been pricked by a needle.
It hurts.
It hurt like never before.
The scene of her little person, lying on the hospital bed with a pale face, flashed through his mind.
I imagine that I am such a little person, but when no one knows, I am alone and strong facing all the injustice.
Faced with the indifference and neglect that he had brought to him, he was obviously very sad, but he still pretended to be strong and greeted others with a smile. Regret instantly overwhelmed him like a rolling wave.
Although he didn't like her much before, he really didn't hate her.
He was just used to not getting too close to anyone and not giving anyone a chance to hurt him.
Unexpectedly, his instinctive avoidance caused great harm to her.
If... if he could give her a little more care at that time, even if he just said one more word...
Maybe, maybe she won't be so difficult or sad.
However... there is no if.
Gently covering the diary and putting it back to its original place, Huo Sihan got dressed and lay down on the European-style bed.
The familiar smell surrounded him again.