To put it cold-bloodedly, he doesn't care about this, even if it means his own life.
It's as if he was born a monster without any feeling. He doesn't know why he wants to live and what's the benefit of living.
He just lives his life naturally and doesn't want to compete with others at all.
Before he was sixteen, everyone thought he was stupid and mediocre. In fact, it was just that he didn't bother to play little tricks with them that had no lethality.
All this changed when he had a nightmare one night when he was more than fifteen years old.
In the dream, he felt like he had fallen into a huge black vortex, spinning constantly inside. His eyes were dark, and his legs could not touch the ground. At the same time, a woman's ruthless words kept echoing in his ears.
After waking up from the dream, he only remembered the sentence "In my heart, you are nothing". He could not remember the other words, but he could clearly feel the feeling of being abandoned, which was as painful as having his heart ripped out.
It made him wonder if he would die like this.
This was the first time that he had experienced violent mood swings like others, and it was also the first time that he had felt a strong emotion.
It doesn't matter if it's love, hate, or resentment.
For the first time in his life, he felt that he was actually the same as everyone else.
Life suddenly became different, as if a different color suddenly crossed the gray-white scroll.
Although he felt so uncomfortable after waking up from the dream, he felt as if he had found a treasure and was ecstatic.
I thought it was just a dream, nothing strange. After all, everyone dreams.
However, he has been deeply attracted by it since then, and he will have this dream almost whenever he falls asleep.
At first, he was very happy, and every time he went to bed, he fell asleep with an attitude like a pilgrim.
But as time went by, his body was obviously affected, and his personality became extremely irritable.
Later, he didn't dare to fall asleep easily, at least he didn't dare to let himself fall into deep sleep. As time passed, he began to have sleep disorders.
The more he cannot sleep well, the more irritable he becomes, and the more irritable he is, the less well he sleeps. This becomes an endless cycle.
Those in the family who came to trouble him or made him unhappy were all killed by him quietly using various methods.
And he, for no reason, became the leader of the Cen Family generation.
His so-called father was sent to Africa by him, and as for his bunch of mistresses, he packed them up and threw them out of the family.
His grandpa, who had always been aloof, didn't know how to cultivate his mind and nature even when he was old. He was in a bad mood and couldn't control his emotions. His blood pressure increased and he suffered a cerebral hemorrhage. In the end, he was tortured to death.
Well, people have to admit defeat when they get old. No matter how hard you try, can you survive the years?
His young grandson did nothing and died of old age.
Dreaming as soon as I fell asleep caused severe migraines and sleep disorders. This situation lasted for twelve years. I tried all scientific methods, but to no avail.
His sister suggested finding an eminent monk from the temple to show him, so he returned to China.
Of course, he didn't believe in any eminent monks. He was just bored and wanted to walk around and inspect domestic subsidiaries.
On the second day after returning to China, before he had time to find the eminent monk, he met her.
There are many small alleys in Haishi, extending in all directions, like a spider web, and he got lost.
I walked around an old neighborhood for a long time, but didn't get out.