Wu Haishan gently stroked her hair and sighed helplessly, "Yani, when your sister looked down on me, I swore at that time that I would make you live a good life with my own hands.
I want to give you and our children a bright future, give you the best life, and impress your sister. But later I learned that the reality is far crueler than I imagined. "
"In the past six months, I have been under too much pressure, and my temper has become worse and worse. Sometimes I will speak out in a hurry, but please believe me, I really don't mean it."
"Actually, the more this happens, the more I hate myself, my incompetence, my inability to give you the best life, and the more I make you suffer so much with me."
"You said that I always drink and always come back so late. In fact, it's just because I feel too uncomfortable and don't want to come back and vent my anger on you. I want to leave all my troubles outside. Unfortunately, I didn't do it completely, and I still hurt you."
Wu Haishan spoke so affectionately and touchingly that his eyes were red and the corners of his eyes were wet with tears.
When he first came here, he was indeed full of hope and enthusiasm. He believed that with his academic qualifications and abilities, he would be able to make a career here soon, so when his parents, younger siblings wanted to stay together, he did not object.
After his marriage to Su Ya Ni was hindered and her sister objected, his self-esteem was indeed hurt, but this did not make him negative, but instead inspired him to work hard to climb up.
It was after he failed to find a job again and again that he had no choice but to join his current factory. After entering the factory, he was ostracized and ridiculed. The accumulation of repeated blows made him finally recognize the cruel reality.
He did hate his incompetence time and time again, and he did worry about Su Ya Ni. He didn't want to show his bad side in front of her, so he tried to go home as late as possible.
But later, after meeting Zhuzhu, he suddenly didn't want to persist like this anymore. He wanted to take a simpler shortcut. He wanted to succeed too much and was too eager to succeed.
He wants to live a good life with his parents who have worked hard all his life, and he wants his younger brothers and sisters to live a good life with him. He also wants Su Xiaomei, the woman who looked down on him at the beginning, to take a good look at it. She was blind in the first place.
Su Ya Ni didn't expect him to cry and was a little overwhelmed, "Haishan... I... I don't blame you."
Wu Haishan wiped the corners of his eyes and hugged her into his arms. "But the more you don't blame me and the better you treat me, the more guilty I feel. I feel that I am not a human being. How could I get angry at you when you are pregnant and talk nonsense to hurt you?"
"And... and I also did something that even I can't forgive myself. I... the ring I gave you was a fake. I carefully selected it in a boutique."
"I wanted to be with you so much, I wanted to marry you so much, and I wanted to give you a beautiful wedding. I wanted you to marry me happily like other girls. What other girls have, I also want you to have..."
Wu Haishan suddenly hit himself on the head with his fist, as if a trapped animal was struggling, his eyes were moist, and he kept blaming himself.
"But it's useless for me. I can't do it. I can only ridiculously secretly run around the city's boutiques to pick out a cheap ring for you that I think is beautiful and special, but in fact can't cover it up."