[Seeing so many people say she was self-cucking, I figured they must understand Ye Qingxian as a person. Here's a complete monologue from her, and you'll understand her completely.]
Lately, Ye Qingxian had been a little troubled.
It was probably because Little Ye Qingxian's situation had left her frazzled.
At one point, she'd even thought about giving up entirely.
They were both her, after all. What difference did it make which one kept up a relationship with Junior Sister?
Besides, Little Ye Qingxian's favorability was higher now.
But she wasn't willing to accept that.
This involved the very core of a person's values.
To accept one person, you had to accept all of them.
And acceptance went both ways.
So, to her, being accepted meant letting someone else accept every part of her, too.
Only then could it be a relationship between two mutually accepting senior and junior sisters.
Yes, she was straight.
She kept insisting she was straight, mostly because Junior Sister said she was straight. She explained it that way so Junior Sister wouldn't feel repulsed by her.
Back to the point.
Ye Qingxian could tell that Junior Sister had started to feel a little fond of Qing Ye, and was gradually accepting Qing Ye as a person.
Sometimes, she even wondered if she should just use Qing Ye as her main body.
Whether she was Ye Qingxian or Qing Ye made no difference to her, in essence.
Back to her core values.
Ye Qingxian couldn't accept this.
It was the same principle as not knowing the whole picture.
What difference was there between keeping most of her story secret and getting along with someone else?
Wasn't that basically just a kind of fraud?
That was why she kept using Ye Qingxian, her true self, to try to