Stay away from me.
This wasn't a joke. Everyone was afraid of me, or respected me, but very few people saw me as an ordinary person.
Juanjuan included... She'd grown up. No matter what, she wasn't the child she used to be anymore.
Her worldview... I thought it hadn't gone too far off track, at least.
So, to Juanjuan, I was also a little unfamiliar now that I ruled over Chang'an.
That... was the reason I least wanted to stay here.
Whether it was Ning Jing, Juanjuan, Bai Chi... everyone I knew seemed a little unfamiliar around me.
Because our status wasn't equal.
I held their lives in my hands.
With a single word, I could let them live or die.
Whether it was Hao Zhong, Ling Yun, or even Juanjuan... in this base, I had absolute power. Absolute,
not relative.
No one would disobey my orders. They didn't have the ability to.
And that was where the sense of unfamiliarity came from.
To be friends, people had to be on equal footing.
But as the person at the very top of the pyramid, I would never have anyone by my side whose status was equal to mine.
Lying in bed, I thought about the past five years. Honestly... I wasn't happy at all.
Although I'd saved two hundred thousand people, and Chang'an City's population had already surpassed two hundred and fifty thousand, I'd succeeded in...
becoming a hero. I'd protected so many people and helped Chang'an develop in peace.
But I didn't feel happy at all. I was even less happy than I'd been back home, living with Juanjuan and Grandpa Zhao and Grandma Zhao.
My strength and influence had grown, but, on the contrary, I'd lost the happiness I'd once felt.
Lying on my stomach, my chest felt