Sorry, No Update Today, Explanation Inside

Well, what can I say today? I suddenly remembered something from the past that makes my heart ache. How should I put it? It's like the heart-wrenching pain of a breakup. But I'm not actually breaking up with anyone. My heart is just clenching with discomfort, and after writing a hundred or so words, my mind just goes blank.

Even this little explanation I'm typing now, I've been pondering for ages, thinking and thinking for a long time just to write a single sentence, and I barely managed to do it. I don't even feel like reading it over.

It feels like I'm making up excuses, but I really don't know how to explain it. In any case, there's nothing I can do. I'm already prepared to be told off... to be seen as committing some indescribably terrible act. The words are on the tip of my tongue, but I just don't know what to say. I don't know what's wrong with me. Anyway, I'm sorry.

I don't know what to say again. I can forget what I wanted to say in the last second. I'm hopeless.

Tomorrow, when my mind recovers, I'll update and explain what I wanted to say now! I really don't know what to say.