Ch. 86Chapter 86
Chapter 86 Summary
Key plot points and events
- After Christmas, An Xiang’s cancer rapidly worsens. Chemotherapy fails, the cancer spreads to her stomach, and the hospital issues a critical-condition notice.
- Near death, An Xiang asks Pei Yizhou to take her outside into the snow. He brings her to the frozen lake and summons the children.
- An Xiang calmly discusses her wishes: Pei Yizhou should care for Momo, her death should not be publicly announced, her body should be placed in a crystal urn, her remaining money should be divided between Momo and charity, and Pei Yizhou should erase his memories of her.
- Pei Yizhou refuses the idea of forgetting her, saying that as long as he remembers her, she remains alive.
- An Xiang says farewell to the children, then speaks privately with An Zimo. She tells him to live on and reassures him that she loves him.
- An Xiang dies peacefully in the wheelchair beneath the winter sky. Pei Yizhou witnesses her soul light disappear and covers her body with his coat.
- An Zimo collapses in grief, experiencing physical pain despite normally being unable to feel pain. He fears that he, too, has a terminal illness and loses consciousness.
- While An Zimo is unconscious for several days, An Xiang is buried in a crystal urn at the Pei Family cemetery. Her funeral is private, and her belongings are sealed away.
- After waking, An Zimo withdraws completely. He repeatedly listens to An Xiang’s voice messages and watches videos she made for every stage of his life.
- One final video reveals An Xiang’s message of love and asks Momo to care for himself and his family. He quietly responds that he loves her too.
- An Zimo later remembers never having taken a photograph with his mother. He cuts and pastes separate pictures of them together, finding temporary comfort in the image.
- His grief worsens through nightmares in which An Xiang is helpless and abused. Believing that she still needs his protection, An Zimo begins contemplating suicide.
Character developments
- An Xiang: Faces death with remarkable calm and dignity. Her final concern is not herself but Momo’s future, Pei Yizhou’s loneliness, and how her remaining wealth can help others. Her final smile reassures her son and reflects her gratitude for the life she gained through the system and for having Momo.
- Pei Yizhou: Remains devoted to An Xiang throughout her illness, sacrificing sleep and caring for her constantly. He accepts all her requests except forgetting her, revealing his determination to preserve her memory. Her death leaves him emotionally devastated.
- An Zimo: His emotional defenses collapse after An Xiang’s death. He begins to understand the depth of his mother’s love only after losing her, and his grief manifests as physical pain, withdrawal, obsessive replaying of memories, and suicidal thoughts.
- The children: Pei Chen and the twins sense the seriousness of the farewell and react with suppressed or open grief.
Significant themes
- Love and memory: An Xiang sees forgetting as a way to escape the pain of loss, while Pei Yizhou believes remembering keeps the dead alive.
- Parental love and sacrifice: An Xiang’s final thoughts center on protecting and preparing Momo rather than prolonging her own life.
- Grief and delayed emotional awakening: An Zimo only fully recognizes his love for his mother after her death, making his grief especially overwhelming.
- Life, death, and seasons: An Xiang loves spring but dies in winter, symbolizing the end of warmth and renewal for the surviving family.
- The need for connection: An Zimo’s inability to feel physical pain contrasts with the emotional pain caused by losing his mother, showing that grief forces him to confront feelings he previously could not understand.
Character interactions
- An Xiang and Pei Yizhou share a final, intimate conversation in which she repeatedly calls his name, gives him instructions for after her death, and touches his face as if memorizing him. He responds with unwavering acceptance and devotion.
- An Xiang and An Zimo have their final mother-son exchange. She comforts him, tells him not to be sad, and urges him to continue living; he finally hears and understands how deeply she cares for him.
- Pei Yizhou tries to support An Zimo after the death, urging him to cry and arranging psychological help, but An Zimo remains emotionally shut down.
- An Zimo’s memories, recordings, and handmade photograph become his primary connection to An Xiang, while his nightmares eventually distort that love into a desperate belief that he must die to protect her.