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"Actually, deep down I'm no different from ordinary women, maybe even a bit more overly emotional. Every day I just wonder whether the person I care about cares about me just a bit more, whether he notices when I'm throwing a tantrum, whether he'll obediently listen to me and take my boring, idle nonsense to heart. So, only by staying by Young Master's side can I be utterly useless and fret over these useless little matters like a good-for-nothing."

Could she not be a good-for-nothing by his side? Did she have to be useful by his side? She fundamentally never perceived how he gradually shifted his attitude toward her. Behind those probes lay his unsure anxiety; behind that appreciation, she was far from merely useful to him; those feelings represented him wanting to find the most special place to put her, allowing her to stay by his side for a long, long time.

Yet he never thought that this kind of specialness wasn't what she wanted. Were her demands high? She merely wanted to boldly be a good-for-nothing. Were her demands difficult? She merely didn't want to be this good-for-nothing by his side.

"Is this the good-for-nothing you want to be? Staying by Xiaojing's side? Fretting overly emotionally over useless little matters? Do you think Zhen has the magnanimity to grant you your wish, is that it?"

Just how boring could those useless little matters be, how charming would she look when whispering sweet nothings, how lazy and pestering would she be when acting willful, how wonderful would the taste of willingness be—if she had the guts, she should let him see it...

Ah, she forgot, she had long since proclaimed that she had no guts, that she compromised easily, and that as long as he gave an order, she