Du Yuwei's words left me baffled.
I asked her what she meant by what she had just said.
But she said no more.
Still, I thought our fates were completely different to begin with.
Her family had been murdered when she was little, and Lü Zhengxian had taken her for himself. Her life had been miserable, and she was pitiful. That was a fact.
Although I hadn't grown up with a complete family, and my mother had abandoned me when I was very young, I had a good father and a grandfather who doted on me. By comparison, my fate had been far better than Du Yuwei's.
But now, after everything I had been through, I felt pretty miserable too.
"You said that if I helped you find your child, you'd tell me who really killed Fang Man."
I asked impatiently, "Can you tell me who that person is now?"
Du Yuwei said, "The same person who hired Lü Zhengxian and Li Xiumei to murder my whole family back then."
I said I knew. I had already read that in the diary.
"I want to know that person's identity. I want to know who he is."
"You wouldn't want to know who he is."
Du Yuwei contradicted me. "Some answers are cruel. Knowing them won't do you any good."
I shook my head. "Nothing could be crueler than Fang Man being murdered. We weren't married, but I still have a responsibility and a duty to avenge her. I have to know who that person is. I'm going to stab him to death myself."
Du Yuwei said, "Aren't you afraid of going to prison?"
I looked outside and stayed silent for a long time. "I am. But even if I'm afraid, I still have to stab him to death. Otherwise, I'm