Chapter 34: Come back
Her decision to confess had been an impulse after waking from her lunchtime nap that day. Its origins were complicated: a trace of rebellion against her mother's condescending, imperious manner at home, a pang of sadness Chen Lingshan had suddenly felt when her father mockingly called himself "old" after school that day, and, more than that, a feeling that if she could keep Su Can by her side, she would have more of that inexplicable support and sense of security.
In fact, after Chen Lingshan learned that Su Can had once had a crush on her, she connected him with the little boy who had always watched her from a distance in the old trading company's courtyard. As those two images overlapped, her heart had taken a jolt. A little tenderness and a little panic intertwined, forming an indescribable, complicated emotion that set her heart trembling.
Although she had rejected Su Can's confession just as she had rejected other people's, afterward she discovered that her usual way of quickly letting such things fade did not work with him.
After the exercises between the second and third periods, she would deliberately hang back with Li Weimei, sometimes perhaps just to catch an occasional glimpse of Su Can moving slowly through the crowd.
In PE, seeing the sweat-soaked back of Su Can's shirt actually left her heart fluttering faintly, a little dazed.
Even in class, when Su Can was often called on for looking indolent and answered every question fluently, her impression of him deepened little by little. Revisiting her childhood memories of Su Can, she found that the boy who had played with a puppy really did have something of Li Xiaoyao from Chinese Paladin or Yang Guo from The Legend of the Condor Heroes about him: