It was another nightmare. Gu Nian'an leaned wearily against the man who had just woken.
Those endless nightmares seemed to hold him trapped beneath their shadow.
No matter what, he could not escape.
Could time and love erase the pain? Gu Nian'an did not know the answer. He simply gazed at the moon outside the window in a daze.
I'm so tired...
If I hadn't lost my memories after "transmigrating into a book," or if there hadn't been love beside me after I came to my senses...
Maybe...
Maybe I would have given up long ago.
Gu Nian'an closed his eyes tiredly and curled into the man's arms.
Fu Xiuyuan remained silent, merely gathering him close and stroking his back over and over.
Gu Nian'an felt the man's body heat reaching him through that warm embrace. Through countless nights of nightmares, that warmth and love had been his only support.
Even if it was for Fu Xiuyuan, for this love that had been so hard to come by.
He wanted to keep holding on.
The moonlight outside still fell over Gu Nian'an. The young man's eyes were tightly shut, his brow marked by sorrow and pain he could not conceal, as though they would never disappear.
Fu Xiuyuan's expression was unreadable. All he could do was kiss the space between his brows again and again, trying to soothe him, yet seeming to soothe himself as well.
He understood that some wounds could not easily be erased by time. They would only be sealed deep within a person's heart until they finally came pouring out.
That was why he worried about Gu Nian'an's emotions at every moment. He feared that one day, the young man really would leave him.
He was despicable and selfish. He had used every means he could