"I know, but what can I do...Shen Zhiyi, I came so late"
The street lights were dim, and moths were spinning under the lights and clinging to the bulbs. Chi Ye looked at Shen Zhiyi with such sad eyes that his legs were so weak that he couldn't stand leaning on Shen Zhiyi.
His head rested on his shoulders, and his hands weakly grasped Shen Zhiyi's arms. His heart was squeezed tightly. It hurt so much. It hurt so much.
What if I see it, know it, and understand it? If I comfort her and hold her, can these hurts be offset?
Can a complete Shen Zhiyi stand in front of him?
"Shen Zhiyi, did you feel a hundred times more painful than I do now? If you had..."
His voice stopped, his heart was numb from pain, and his fingers could not be straightened, and they were spasming slightly.
"You won't stand in front of me today." These words were soft and soft, and Shen Zhiyi could clearly feel the hot tears coming from his body, one drop after another, hitting her, forcing an exit.
[It hurts]
Shen Zhiyi I don't know why my eyes are blurry, and tears are falling silently. She is silent and silent. When you look at her, you don't know whether she is crying or being blown by the wind.
Her emotional ups and downs have never been big, but just watching her can make you cry.
Chi Ye panicked and held her in his arms, his voice was weak, and he asked helplessly
"It hurts, Shen Zhiyi, Shen Zhiyi"
Shen Zhiyi's hands were holding Chi Ye's clothes tightly, and her hands were turning white and purple. She couldn't breathe.
Chi Ye quickly calmed her down, "Shen Zhiyi, don't be afraid, look at me, look at me"
She stared blankly into the distance with her eyes open. Chi Ye covered her eyes, picked her up, buried her face in his chest, and quickly took her home.
Shen Zhiyi was obviously in a state of emotion again. After Chi Ye took the person home, he hugged the person and stayed there quietly.
The travel plan was interrupted in a sudden and unexpected way. It seemed that all Chi Ye's efforts were overturned at once, and everything returned to the starting point.
Shen Zhiyi started to feel dazed again.
While eating, while watching TV, on the way out in the car, in the office. She ignored everyone in a way that resisted communication, and no one could say anything.
Chi Ye did not follow Shen Zhiyi too closely, but followed her at a distance that she could see when she turned around.
But the longer Shen Zhiyi looked at the window sill, the more Chi Ye felt uneasy.
Shen Zhiyi received a call a week later from Hao Qiulan. Every day after she met Shen Zhiyi, her mind was boiling, and there was always a voice calling her in her heart.
"Bully her and step her down. Isn't your current life depressing enough? None of your bosses or your work is satisfactory. Shen Zhiyi is the one who should bear this!"
Shen Zhiyi licked her slightly dry lips. When she heard the familiar voice, her eyes instantly froze in one direction.
The corners of her mouth moved slightly, as if she was mocking or sneering.
"Hao Qiulan, you still can't help it." Her voice was cold and elegant, which made Hao Qiulan hold on firmly despite his lack of confidence.
"Shen Zhiyi, what are you waiting for me to do? Or do you want to feel what it was like back then?"
Shen Zhiyi had no intention of talking nonsense to her. Meeting Hao Qiulan was an accident, but some things were planned for a long time.
Hao Qiulan mentioned a place, and the two arranged to meet there.
Chi Ye was dismissed by Shen Zhiyi. Her reason was very simple. She just wanted to eat fried chicken from a popular fried chicken restaurant today. The fried chicken was wrapped in cheese powder, crispy and sweet.
It was rare that there was something Shen Zhiyi wanted to eat, so Chi Ye took the key and went out without saying a word. Shen Zhiyi was told to stay at home obediently.
Shen Zhiyi just looked at him without speaking, Chi Ye implicitly agreed.
Chi Ye doesn't seem to realize that, in fact, many times, Shen Zhiyi refuses to answer whether he has promised or not.
She will not give Chi Ye a definite promise, just like her, she doesn't know how long she can go.
Hao Qiulan thought she could easily handle Shen Zhiyi, so she didn't call her friends.
The place where the two met was an abandoned park, with a dilapidated entrance and rusty play facilities. Weeds had grown here, and some scattered iron frames were stained with soil, and some sharp corners had grown out of the wind and rain.
Hao Qiulan had a few cans of beer on hand, and she had already opened one and was drinking. Looking at Shen Zhiyi approaching, she threw the unfinished beer at Shen Zhiyi's feet.
There was a "pop!" foam spilled out of the jar, and the jar rolled to the side.
"Hiss" Hao Qiulan felt a little regretful, but the smile on her face was obvious, and there was a hint of pride and fun in her eyes, just looking at Shen Zhiyi.
"As soon as I saw you, I wanted to smash this thing out, Shen Zhiyi, you shouldn't blame me."
Shen Zhiyi stared at the can of beer, the same routine as in high school, something that could be hit at any time and anywhere. He bumped into her shoulder regardless of the occasion, and then apologized with a smile.
The evil in her eyes was blatantly directed at Shen Zhiyi, and Shen Zhiyi knew these tricks very well. Hao Qiulan would not succeed every time, but next time she would treat Shen Zhiyi even harder.
Shen Zhiyi bent down and picked up the beer can. There was still some liquid in it, and the beer didn't smell that good.
Chi Ye sometimes socializes, but at that time he always frowns and complains along with Shen Zhiyi
"Shen Zhiyi, those people are so annoying. What's so good about that wine, and it's not as good as the wine in my collection. When we talk about cooperation, we talk about cooperation. Why do we have to drink every time."
He grumbled, hugged Shen Zhiyi and went out. Then when he came back, he smelled of alcohol and he didn't dare to get close to Shen Zhiyi. He didn't dare to go near Shen Zhiyi until he ran upstairs to take a shower and change clothes, then he ran downstairs and hugged Shen Zhiyi.
"Shen Zhiyi, I stink. The smell you left on me has faded. If it doesn't work, I need to hug you more."
He has this reason every time to hold on to Shen Zhiyi. Besides the smell of fuel, Shen Zhiyi also smells of wood. I don't know what kind of smell Chi Ye wants to get, it's like holding on to a bone.
"Hao Qiulan, I thought it would be okay to let you go, but you disappoint me."
As she took a step closer, Hao Qiulan's smile diminished.
"You haven't made any progress in these years." The thrown beer can was thrown towards Hao Qiulan in the same way. The liquid from the bottom of the rotating can was spilled on Hao Qiulan's face and then hit her feet.
Just like what she did to Shen Zhiyi just now.