Marvel: With Black Widow by My Side, I Sweep Across the Universe
Chapter 104

Laying Their Hearts Bare

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Within the city, a new order is being established smoothly. Coulson, Hill, Hawkeye, and other agents who have weathered the darkness and remained true to their principles are deeply rooted in the new system, diligently building defenses and filling all the voids left by the collapse of the old era. Tony remains as carefree as ever, but he devotes most of his energy to the technological iteration and system improvement of the SSC. The three upgraded Helicarrier patrol the skies year-round, becoming the most solid aerial barrier for Earth.

Beyond the city, the rural farm presents a completely different, tranquil scene. Steve, Bucky, Sam have completely shed their heroic aura, bidding farewell to endless missions and battles, and returning to the simplest of ordinary lives. By day, they cultivate the land, tend to the yard, and manage the farm work; by evening, they chat about the past and quietly admire the twilight over the mountains and fields. Decades of toil and burdens finally dissipate at this moment. Their lives, once filled with war, conspiracy, and separation, are now gently filled with the peaceful tranquility of everyday life. They no longer bear the weight of the world, but simply tend to their small yard, quietly awaiting the world's call, their original intentions unchanged, their lives peaceful and serene.

As everyone else went their separate ways to find their place and reflect on themselves, Lynn took Natasha away from all the crowds and noise, heading to a more tranquil and pure place in the distance.

After bidding farewell to the vast starry sky of the uninhabited plateau region, the two traveled westward, crossing the sea, and finally settled at Látrabjarg in Iceland's Westfjords.

This is the most remote, desolate, and yet most healing secret place in the world. Located at the edge of the world, embraced by the vast North Atlantic Ocean, its long fjords meander and twist, and its cold, black basalt cliffs, weathered by millions of years of sea winds and waves, bear a deep and weathered texture. There are no bustling crowds, no urban traffic and lights, and even few houses. As far as the eye can see, there is only the extreme vastness and serene solitude of the sky and sea embracing each other.

A biting sea breeze blows along the coast year-round, carrying the faint, crisp scent of the sea. The surging white waves repeatedly crash against the rocks, producing a continuous, gentle rumble—the sole, underlying sound of this world. By day, clear sunlight blankets the sea, turning the deep blue waters a translucent hue. Distant mountains are covered in a thin layer of snow, both serene and gentle. At night, free from light pollution, a sky full of stars spills down, and occasionally, the pale green aurora can be seen streaking across the sky—ethereal and dreamlike, enough to soothe all worldly anxieties and wounds.

Lynn deliberately chose a spot by the sea to set up his tent. The custom-made tent from Stark was warm and thick, protecting him from the biting sea breeze. Unzipping it revealed the vast expanse of blue water and the endless evening breeze.

They stayed here for a long time, living a completely secluded and extremely relaxed slow life.

Without the urging of mission alarms, without the weariness of lurking and disguise, without the tug-of-war of calculating interests, their days are filled with mountains and seas, evening breezes, warm sunshine, and gentle, subtle moments of tenderness. Every morning, as dawn breaks, the two stroll side by side along the coastline, their feet crunching on the cool rocks, listening to the waves crashing on the shore, watching the sunrise slowly rise from the sea, painting the entire ocean red. The misty, gentle morning fog by the sea stretches their shadows long, and they walk together in silence, peaceful and serene.

Natasha had long since shed all the sharpness and guardedness of the Black Widow. She used to be constantly on edge, every move exuding the vigilance and restraint of a secret agent, even her breath carrying a calculated intensity. But in this undisturbed fjord, beside Lynn, she could finally relax completely.

She would relax to the rhythm of the sea breeze, sit quietly by the rocks watching seabirds soar across the sky, no longer pursuing perfection in everything, and no longer forcing herself to be flawless at all times.

Lynn remained as gentle as ever, never using passionate love to coerce her partner, but instead hiding all her affection in the mundane details of daily life, subtly nurturing her without ever making a fuss.

After returning from his morning stroll, he would prepare a warm breakfast in advance, consisting of simple, light, and stomach-friendly dishes, perfect for the slightly cool seaside climate. In the afternoon, when the sunlight was just right, he would sit outside the tent reading, his gaze always gently falling on Natasha, who was quietly watching the sea not far away, his eyes gentle and clear.

The temperature difference between day and night at the seaside is extreme, and the evening wind is biting cold. Whenever Natasha sits quietly watching the sea, oblivious to the chill, Lynn would quietly drape a warm coat over her and hand her a cup of warm fruit tea. With the most natural gesture, he would shield her from all the harshness of the world.

In their spare time, the two would prepare dinner together, shedding all the coldness and distance. Natasha would wash the vegetables and prepare the ingredients with swift and meticulous movements, while Lynn would cook with calm and skillful hands, transforming simple ingredients into warm and delicious meals. In the small space, there were only the soft clattering of kitchen utensils and the crackling of burning firewood, a gentle atmosphere enveloping them and washing away all the coldness and gloom that Natasha had accumulated in her life.

There was no unnecessary conversation, no deliberate flirtation, just side by side, silently keeping each other company. The dim light and shadow fell on their profiles, tender and affectionate, enough to dispel all loneliness.

Throughout their long time together, Lynn never questioned her choices or touched upon her past memories. He simply stayed by her side quietly, patiently waiting and giving her ample security and room to maneuver.

The gentler and more tolerant she was, the more she cherished him silently, the more intense Natasha's inner turmoil and guilt became.

Having spent half her life wandering and half her life killing, she had long been accustomed to the coldness of human relationships and the hypocrisy and scheming of others. Never before had anyone treated her so selflessly and without any ulterior motives.

Lynn's gentleness was not a fleeting, perfunctory gesture, but a daily, steady stream of affection and tolerance. This pure and clean warmth gradually melted her heart, which had been frozen for decades, and slowly gave rise to longing and expectation in her long-dormant soul.

But what followed was a deep-seated inferiority complex and cowardice.

She had seen the light, yet she always felt unworthy to embrace it. She craved this security, but knew deep down that she was scarred and incomplete, and dared not venture forth openly.

On countless quiet, still nights, while Lynn slept soundly, Natasha would come alone to the tent, gazing at the vast, dark sea, her mind churning and struggling with her inner turmoil.

She knew her heart had already been captivated by Lynn's gentle companionship day after day. She just didn't dare to confess, didn't dare to commit, fearing that her incomplete life was unworthy of Lynn's clean and gentle remaining years.

After much struggle and hesitation, Natasha finally made up her mind. She didn't want to run away anymore; she wanted to lay bare her most unbearable, most secret past and regrets before Lynn. No matter the outcome, she didn't want to betray this rare tenderness by creating a barrier between them.

That night, the Westfjords were bathed in exceptionally gentle light.

The night was deep, the Milky Way filled the sky, and the scattered starlight was reflected on the calm sea, shimmering. The evening breeze was gentle, the daytime chill gone, leaving only a tender coolness. The portable heater flickered with fire, its orange glow gently filling the room, and the warmth dispelled all the chill.

A simple yet elegant dinner was laid out on the table, with a few light side dishes and two glasses of warm water, creating a warm and inviting atmosphere.

But the atmosphere tonight is exceptionally different.

Natasha, who is usually calm and composed and can remain unfazed even after countless life-or-death chess games, is unusually unsettled at this moment. Her fingertips are slightly clenched, and the tension in her heart is surging, making it almost impossible for her to breathe.

Having gone undercover, faced formidable enemies, endured gunfire, and found herself in Extremis, she never showed the slightest fear or panic.

The Red Room's most brutal training, the most grueling interrogations, and the coldest brainwashing had never instilled any fear in her. But tonight, simply sitting next to someone familiar, simply wanting to confess a part of her past, made her more nervous than ever before. Her heart pounded wildly, and even her breathing became cautious.

She held the cutlery with her head down, her fingertips slightly white. Several times she wanted to speak, but each time she swallowed her words back. In her heart, she rehearsed and prepared herself repeatedly, her courage rising and falling time and time again.

Lynn keenly noticed her unusual behavior.

Natasha's quietness was not her usual relaxed and serene demeanor, but rather tinged with tension, restraint, and unease, her brows furrowed with unresolved anxiety. He didn't press her for answers, nor did he deliberately break the atmosphere; he simply slowed his movements, his expression softening, quietly staying by her side, giving her ample time and space to prepare.

After a long silence, Natasha finally took a deep breath, raised her eyes, and looked at the gentle and calm young man opposite her. The thoughts that had been building up for many years finally began to flow slowly from her lips.

" Lynn, there's something I've wanted to tell you for a long time."

Her voice was soft, with a slight, almost imperceptible tremor, devoid of any agent's composure and toughness, leaving only her most authentic and vulnerable self.

"You should know a little about my past. I was brought into the Red Room as a child, I had no childhood, no relatives, no ordinary joys and sorrows. My life was set from the very beginning. Training, special training, brainwashing, killing, to become a weapon without emotion, without self, born only for missions."

"For a long time, I thought my life would be nothing but endless tasks and battles, never ending, never finding peace."

She looked down at the table, her tone calm, yet it held the weight and vicissitudes of half a lifetime, gently revealing those past experiences she had never shared with anyone.

When I first met you, I didn't have a good impression of you.

She paused slightly, a self-deprecating smile flashing in her eyes, and continued softly, "You seemed too carefree, too easygoing. You appeared gentle and tactful, unconcerned with details, always seeming nonchalant and cynical. Back then, I thought you were frivolous, unreliable, and full of empty talk. You seemed kind to everyone, but in reality, you were distant from everyone, always acting as if it was none of your business."

"I've seen too many people like that—seemingly gentle and harmless on the surface, but actually extremely cunning and calculating. I thought you were the same; all your gentleness was a facade, all your kindness was ulterior motives. Back then, I was always on high alert towards you, habitually scrutinizing, guarding against, and testing you, never daring to have even a shred of sincerity towards you."

Lynn listened quietly, her eyes gentle, without interrupting, simply watching her with acceptance of all her honesty and past wariness.

Natasha slowly raised her eyes, her gaze falling earnestly on his face, the apprehension in her eyes gradually turning into certainty. "The longer we spend together, the clearer I see you."

I've slowly come to realize that all your nonchalance is just a protective shield.

"You always habitually shoulder everything alone, never uttering a word about your exhaustion and loneliness. You seem to have excellent interpersonal skills, gentle and insightful, but I can sense that you've never truly felt a sense of belonging. You live behind a mask for years, never letting anyone truly enter your heart."

Others can't understand you; they're only fooled by your gentle appearance. But I can. I can see the weariness and loneliness beneath your mask, the gentleness and kindness in your bones, and the sincerity and perseverance hidden behind your casualness.

Lynn's eyes flickered slightly, but she remained quietly listening, a gentle smile playing on her lips.

Natasha's voice choked slightly, and a thin layer of mist welled up in her eyes as she poured out her long-suppressed feelings. "I've always lived in darkness, never believing in the light, never yearning for peace. But after meeting you, for the first time I wanted to stop, for the first time I wanted to shed all my pretenses, for the first time I wanted to have a normal life."

"I've also secretly fantasized about the most ordinary yet most luxurious days. No fighting, no pretense, no scheming, no running away. Just being with the person I love, working at sunrise and resting at sunset, spending every day together, enjoying the warmth of simple companionship."

"But I can't do it."

She gently shook her head, her tone filled with endless regret, inferiority, and bitterness. Her eyes welled up with tears, and her voice trembled slightly. " The Red Room destroyed all my qualifications as an ordinary person. To completely strip us of our vulnerabilities and turn us into absolutely cold killing weapons, I... lost the right to be a mother. I have no uterus; I can't bear children."

These words were spoken softly, yet they seemed to drain the last ounce of strength from her body. She bit her lower lip tightly, and the hard shell she wore as the ' Black Widow ' shattered inch by inch at that moment.

Decades of forbearance, resilience, ruthlessness, and fearlessness crumbled at this moment. The Black Widow, who struck fear into the hearts of her enemies and was invincible, finally revealed her most vulnerable, insecure, and flawed side.

I know you treat me differently; I can feel your favoritism and your tenderness.

Natasha looked up, tears welling in her eyes, but she stubbornly refused to let them fall. Her tone was full of restraint and humility, "But I'm not good enough for you. You deserve someone pure, whole, and who can walk through life with you. And that person won't be me."

"So I want to tell you, don't focus too much on me. I just hope you can leave me a little space. As long as I can stay by your side, accompany you, and protect you, that's enough for me."

The moment she finished speaking, years of pent-up grievances, regrets, and inferiority all erupted, and crystal tears finally slid slowly down her fair cheeks, hot and bittersweet.

The atmosphere around the dining table was extremely quiet, with only the soft crackling of burning firewood, a sound both gentle and bittersweet.

Natasha hung her head, letting tears fall silently, her heart filled with desolation and unease. She had prepared herself for the worst, ready to face estrangement, ready to face boundaries, ready to continue to stay by his side in a humble manner, asking neither for recognition nor for fulfillment.

The anticipated alienation and indifference did not materialize.

Lynn quietly watched her as she wept, his eyes filled with no disgust, only endless tenderness and heartache. He didn't rush to wipe away her tears, but instead leaned forward and gently placed his warm palm on the back of her cold, trembling hand.

He spoke softly and gently, "I originally planned to tell you this only after I was fully prepared. But since you've been honest with me today, I'll tell you now."

Natasha paused slightly, her eyes blurry with tears as she looked up at him, her gaze filled with astonishment and confusion.

You should have a general idea of my capabilities.

Lynn said softly, "I've known about your past for a long time, including your physical disability."

"So I had Tony develop and build a high-precision human embryo culture chamber and regenerative adaptation system in advance."

His gaze softened as he locked onto her eyes, slowly revealing a truth that shattered all her preconceived notions. "Once I fully analyze the information, repairing your missing uterus, or even cultivating a complete set of compatible spare internal organs for you, won't take much effort. Whether you accept me or not, I intend to help you achieve a complete life from now on."

"You were never incomplete; you were just trapped in your life by the past. The fulfillment you desire, the life you want, the years you long for—I can give you all of that."

In just a few words, she tore apart the shadow that had shrouded Natasha's heart for decades.

She stood frozen, staring blankly at the gentle young man before her. The inferiority, regret, and despair that had accumulated over half a lifetime were shattered in this moment, a redemption she had never dared to hope for.

It turned out that Lynn had seen it all along and had silently paved all the way for her escape route.

She sat silently, letting her tears stream down her face, falling onto her clothes without a sound.

After a long silence, she finally spoke, her voice hoarse and soft, with a heavy nasal tone, carrying both relief and trepidation:

" Lynn... give me some more time."

Upon hearing this, Lynn's smile grew even gentler, showing no coercion, only endless tolerance and waiting.

"Okay, I'll wait for you. As long as it takes."

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