"Feiran!"
"Wake up, Feiran!"
Wen Feiran suddenly opened his eyes, as if he had seen the light again from the deep sea. His chest heaved violently as he gasped for breath. His gaze darted left and right, unable to find a focus, still unable to recover from the fear.
"Feiran, are you alright?"
Hearing the familiar voice, Wen Feiran felt as if she had finally found a lifeline. Her gaze fell on Gu Suian, staring straight at him. The dream she had just experienced was so real that she couldn't distinguish between dream and reality for a moment. Without hesitation, she reached out to slap herself.
But Gu Suian grasped his wrist, looking at him with concern. "Did you just have a nightmare? Don't worry, you're awake now, I'm here with you."
Gu Suian was right beside him, making a completely different choice from the one in the dream. Even though he was covered in wounds because of him, as long as she heard news of him, Gu Suian would still walk towards him step by step with determination.
Honestly, he couldn't do that.
Tears streamed uncontrollably down her cheeks. Wen Feiran instinctively moved closer, hugging Gu Suian's waist and curling up in his arms, seeking warmth and a sense of security.
He couldn't see Gu Suian's expression, but he felt a hand gently pat his back, as if he were a fragile treasure that would break at the slightest touch. Gu Suian's voice echoed in his ears, "I'm sorry."
Even though it was Gu Suian who was hurt, Gu Suian chose to apologize to him.
Wen Feiran could no longer hold on; guilt overwhelmed him like a tidal wave. He curled up in Gu Suian's arms and burst into tears.
Chapter 75 The Knight Who Protected Him
Many previously overlooked details came to his attention.
In their first meeting after their reunion, Gu Suian appeared on the set of an advertisement shoot. He initially thought Gu Suian was there to visit Song Lindi, since Song Lindi was his brand ambassador.
He should have realized this long ago. Judging from the way Song Lindi and Gu Suian interacted afterward, Gu Suian had no need to do that at all, but he was trapped in his own blind spot and never noticed this.
Now that he has regained his memories of the past three years, he belatedly realizes that Gu Suian came to find him, appearing at the most crucial moment and firmly protecting him.
He was very grateful to Gu Suian at the time and said something insignificant, which, in retrospect, was probably a thank you.
This is a normal reaction for most people after being helped, nothing special, but Gu Suian was stunned for a long time after hearing his words, his eyes filled with many emotions that he couldn't understand.
Now, he finally understood Gu Suian's feelings back then.
Before this, Gu Suian had helped him many times, but all she received was a cold response. She had never heard him say anything other than "Don't come near me, don't talk to me."
Gu Suian was deeply hurt by him, but she still couldn't help but come to the film set to see him, choosing to help him without hesitation, and was prepared to be hurt again.
But...
Wen Feiran's heart clenched uncontrollably again, pounding heavily against her sternum, an unbearable pain spreading from her chest.
Honestly, if he were in the same situation—the person he liked proposed to him, and after he agreed, suddenly became cold and abusive, or even threatened suicide—no matter how much he loved that person, he wouldn't be able to endure it for three years. During that time, he would want to give up countless times, and he wouldn't be able to help but maliciously speculate about the other person's intentions. He might even turn his love into hatred.
But Gu Suian chose the most painful path.
How could he be so stupid!
But if Gu Suian weren't stupid, he wouldn't have gotten a second chance and ended up like this with Gu Suian.
Wen Feiran felt as if he had been struck hard on the temple, his whole body trembling numbly. His breathing became faster and faster, and the cold air rushed into his body, bringing a sharp stinging sensation. But he also felt a sense of comfort from it, as if punishing himself in this way could alleviate his guilt a little.
The emotions and expressions he couldn't understand before now had answers. Wen Feiran retraced the path Gu Suian had walked, and just thinking about it caused him immense pain, let alone the fact that Gu Suian had personally experienced it.
Even so, despite his naive and foolish questioning, Gu Suian remained tight-lipped about the events of the past three years, not wanting to cause him pain and self-blame, and choosing to protect him even at this critical moment.
Wen Feiran's emotions fluctuated wildly. Memories from the past three years, containing a wealth of information, overwhelmed him like a tidal wave. Human capacity has its limits, and under the various shocks, he developed a high fever, leaving him in a daze.
In his dream, he was given a second chance; he wasn't forced to do a quick transmigration mission and spent three completely different years in the past.
He never said a word to hurt Gu Suian, nor did he do anything to hurt him. Even though they met much later in life and didn't express their feelings immediately, taking many detours before finally breaking through that barrier, he still found it all very beautiful.
But dreams always end. Wen Feiran heard a familiar voice, her eyelashes trembled slightly, and she opened her eyes blankly, her gaze flickering before settling on the empty ceiling.
The next second, Gu Suian appeared in front of him.
Wen Feiran was still not fully conscious, confusing dreams with reality. It was as if none of the pain had happened. With a loving expression, she reached out and hugged Gu Suian's neck, like a kitten sniffing him gently.
After Gu Suian noticed his movement, his tense body relaxed, and he held onto his thin shoulders so that he could lean against him more comfortably.
Wen Feiran nuzzled against his neck before pulling away, smiling at Gu Suian, but her brows furrowed when her gaze fell on his face.
Gu Suian had never looked so disheveled. Dark circles were visible under his eyes, stubble had sprouted on his beard, his hair was a mess, and his shirt looked like it hadn't been changed, full of wrinkles.