"Worthy indeed of being House Attagina's daughter. Though her artistic talent may not rival that Miss Eden's, it is still enough to leave one in awe."
Boring praise.
"Oh, look, it's the eldest daughter of House Attagina. Is she playing again today? What a beautiful piece. She is as elegant as ever today."
A flavorless life.
"Big sister, big sister, can you teach me how to solve this problem?"
Tedious humans.
Tch...
The silver-haired girl wore a mask called a smile, a gown called perfection, and spoke words called elegance as she gazed coldly upon the human world.
She was a genius, but she was also a tool whose future had been decided from the moment of her birth.
So-called talent was merely a bargaining chip used to secure benefits for the family.
Attagina... Heh. In this era, not everyone had a surname, but those who did were either rich or noble.
But to her, that surname was a shackle, a prison.
No matter how talented she was, it was useless. She could not decide her own life. She had to marry someone she did not like, then live the same life as before in another prison.
Boring, flavorless, tedious.
"Oh, my dear Lilith, you are as beautiful as ever today. Even the moon's radiance could not describe your breathtaking beauty."
Ah, here he came again—Adams, her fiancé, supposedly here to cultivate their relationship...
"Oh, so it is my dear Adams. I was wondering why the sunlight seemed especially bright today. It turns out you had come." She spoke with a smile, subtly adjusting her expression to make him think she was happier to see him than usual.
"Oh, my dear Lilith, your praise truly embarrasses me. Having a fiancée like you is the greatest fortune of my life," Adams said sincerely.
How disgusting.
That was her assessment. In her eyes, the boy before her was good for nothing, utterly worthless, just like all the other people in this world.
Such days were truly... tedious.
Her life would probably have ended amid such boredom, until the thing known as Honkai, along with her prince, broke into her life and granted her new life.
Ah, Feng, my prince, my hero... When will you come and save me from this prison?
That was what she thought. She knew what would happen afterward, so all she needed to do was wait—for Honkai to come, and for her prince.
When had she fallen in love with him?
Was that important?
Come to think of it, the one who had made her realize those feelings had been a Herrscher—the Eighth Herrscher, the Herrscher of Sentience.
The Herrscher had woven a dream for her. In that dream, she and Feng lived through the life she had originally hated. It was precisely because she loathed that kind of life so deeply that she woke up and realized that, if it was with Feng, any kind of life would be fine. As long as he was by her side, she could cherish it willingly.
Thus, at the end of that dream, she personally killed "Feng."
The Herrscher asked in terror, "Why?! Isn't he the person you love most?"
She answered, "Precisely because I love him most, I have to return to reality. Because the real him is the truest him, isn't he?"
She did not need dreams, because she herself had always been living in one.
Because he was the one she loved, she did not care what kind of life they lived. Yet the Herrscher could not understand such feelings. Foolishly following its own understanding, it made her and Feng live out a conventional life in the dream, just as it had done for everyone else.
The real her craved conflict, craved upheaval, pursued war, pursued death.
But if Feng did not like it, she could abandon all of it.
He had once glimpsed all of her, but he had chosen to accept her. Amid the ruins, he had extended his hand to her, whose hands were stained with blood.
Ah, my prince, my hero...
She had always seen things clearly—clearly enough to know how many girls around Feng liked him too. But what did that matter? He was so outstanding. What was wrong with a few more girls liking him?
She liked watching him fight, liked seeing his conflicted expression after she teased him, liked the sight of his back as he carried all sins upon himself, liked...
Everything about him.
She had once believed her performance was perfect. It was only after meeting the Herrscher named Elysia that she realized someone could truly speak and act with such sincerity, that someone could truly be genuinely flawless.
How did she know all this?
Because she had always been by Feng's side. Even after The Tragedy of Binding, she had remained by Feng's side.
She recalled her conversation with Dr. Mobius.
"Doctor, is re-fusion between Fusion Warriors feasible?"
"In theory, both Yu Feng and Kosma, who fused with Vishnu, possess the ability to devour everything. Fusion Warriors are no exception. Lilith, what are you trying to say?"
"Ah, my dear Dr. Mobius, I was merely curious. After all, if I die someday, I would also hope that my power could be used by Feng."
She had not revealed her entire plan. She would not let anyone know.
There was a story: Zeus, king of the gods, swallowed Metis, the goddess of wisdom, whole. From then on, they became one. The goddess became Zeus's wisdom, and Zeus became omniscient and omnipotent as a result.
That was what she wanted to do as well.
"Hua, I'd like to borrow Feather Dust. Is that alright?"
"That requires approval from my superiors. It isn't something I can decide on my own, Lilith."
"Please, don't be so rigid~ What bad intentions could I possibly have? Just for a little while~"
"Sigh, fine. Since it's you, Lilith, there shouldn't be any problem."
"Thanks~"
All of this happened before the campaign against the Herrscher of Binding.
Elysia would never agree to let Feng carry out the second plan. Although it was clearly the most suitable option, that was exactly what she wanted. Elysia would certainly persuade the other Fusion Warriors to act ahead of schedule, and once Feng learned the news, he would surely abandon the plan at once and go save Elysia.
That would be the end of the Fallen Angels.
And at last, her wish had been fulfilled. She merged with Feng and became his wisdom.
Although Feng's own will had suddenly opposed her plan to use the soldiers' hands to kill the Twelfth Herrscher at the very end, that was Feng's own wish. It did not matter. She would follow all of Feng's wishes.
Within Feng's memories, she saw his true identity. Yes, he was not from this world. He was an Observer from beyond this world.
That was why she learned of Elysia's identity. She admired Elysia's nobility and regretted her final curtain call. Thus, before The Final Banquet, she had wanted Feng to attend. That Flawless One was worthy of such treatment. But Elysia had sent Feng an invitation in her identity as a Herrscher, allowing her to experience Feng's sorrow at feeling distrusted and his resistance. So she did not insist, and even analyzed the reasons for him.
But what, exactly, had happened?
Her soul should have vanished together with Feng. So why? Why had everything returned to the past?
She could not understand it at all, and it even drove her a little mad.
"Ah, my dear Lilith, you seem a little melancholy today?" Adams's voice broke her reverie.
She adjusted her expression once more and said with a smile, "Ah, forgive me, my dear Adams. I lost my composure for a moment. Gianna's studies have been worrying me somewhat, making me reflect on whether I have failed somewhere as her older sister."
"Oh, my dear Lilith, you are always like this. There is no need to blame yourself. It is not your fault," Adams hurriedly said.
"Ah, my dear Adams, you are always so understanding," she said.
"No, no, my dear Lilith. You are the understanding one."
Ah, how boring.
Couldn't Honkai happen already, so I could kill all of you again?
But if Feng did not exist in this reborn world, then her own existence would have no meaning.
So, Feng, come find me soon. It would be fine even if it were like the previous life. Let me see you once more, and become your wisdom once again.
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