On Whether Lu Xun and Zhou Shuren Are Two Different People?

108. Are Lu Xun and Zhou Shuren two different people? 3k4 "Dinner... just drink more water..." The girl touched her now flat stomach, feeling so weak that she could barely speak to herself. The feeling of hunger was truly despairing. I don't understand (Shanghai accent). Why is everyone talking about not liking this or that, as if even the most basic vegetables have become rats to be avoided?... I want to eat rice, I want to eat meat, I want to eat noodles, I want to eat Xia Yan... The confusion didn't last long; a resolute glint flashed in her eyes. It's okay... there's Thirteen Spices and the bean sprouts she grew herself. These two days will be enough for a batch of bean sprouts to grow, which she can then harvest and eat to fill her stomach. Bean sprouts, plus some leftover cabbage from the market, and the remaining half-pack of noodles mixed with Lao Gan Ma sauce and chili sauce, will be enough to last a week! The main thing is to stay home and avoid exercise to reduce energy expenditure, and sleep 15 hours a day. Just make it to next week! "Just hold on until next week and I can withdraw money and eat all kinds of noodles!" Entering a new month, the small amount of money in her live-streaming account would finally turn into warm cash in her bank account. She earned almost a thousand yuan in December alone! That's definitely enough for her January living expenses if she's careful with her spending... but she still needs to save some. She'd already bought all her New Year's supplies, so she wouldn't starve, thirst, or freeze to death this winter; she could even have a good meal! "Gurgle..." Her stomach rumbled untimely, expressing its dissatisfaction with its full belly of cabbage soup (two cabbages, a pot of water, and a little bit of Thirteen Spices and salt). After the initial delight came the compromise with reality. Hua Xin sat somewhat dejectedly in front of the computer screen, looking at the live-streaming software with a frustrated expression. The mouse hovered over "Start Streaming," but she hesitated to click it. Normally, she would be happy to stream and earn some money, but... because Xia Yan knew, and even accurately found her streaming alias, the thought of Xia Yan watching her stream made her resolutely give up. Hua Xin fell silent, a familiar yet plausible scene involuntarily surfacing in her mind. Although she didn't know why Xia Yan had discovered her streaming, given his obnoxious behavior... [In a room alone at night, Xia Yan lay on the bed covered by a smelly blanket, listening to her "reward" sounds through headphones, the blanket rising and falling, accompanied by sounds of something being moistened by liquid...] The girl's face instantly went expressionless. A strange emotion spread through her. It wasn't disgust, anger, or even shock. It was... Hua Xin calmly closed the streaming app. However, her slightly closed legs and curled feet revealed her current thoughts. Well, for someone like her who used to enjoy the Fuli Ji of men at night, doing what men are supposed to do, Xia Yan's behavior was understandable. After all, they were both men, and satisfying normal physiological needs was perfectly normal. (She used to do it every day.) But... him doing it to her... it was just too shameful!!! The thought of Xia Yan looking at her photos and listening to her voice while doing that kind of thing made Hua Xin feel an overwhelming sense of shame, almost coalescing into a bulging penis. The thought of her becoming Xia Yan's object of fantasy... The girl covered her face, a faint pink blush creeping up her cheeks, and a sense of panic and strangeness spreading through her. Okay, it was still a bit... Kimo. Forget it, she'd just focus on her work for now, and secretly start livestreaming to earn money after Xia Yan's attention had shifted. Hua Xin turned off her computer and trembled as she hid under her double blankets. It's not safe to use Small Sun heater yet; we have to wait until a few minutes before bedtime. Otherwise, the electricity bill would be too high! This high-powered device is almost as expensive as an air conditioner. The girl curled herself into a spring roll, her hair loose, and lay peacefully on the bed with her eyes closed. It was already midnight. She should go to bed early tonight... Xia Yan should be recovering well, right? Her thoughts drifted, unconsciously focusing on Xia Yan. Thinking of this, Hua Xin felt a little down. After sending a message to Xia Fen using Xia Yan's phone, the girl handed over her shift to her the next morning. During their brief exchange, she really wanted to mention that she had paid for Xia Yan's medical expenses, but... how could she! In a way, she was the one who caused Xia Yan to become like this (feeling guilty). If she hadn't acted that way, putting her hand on his collar and pulling him, he probably wouldn't have overworked so much... (Waaaaah... my four thousand yuan savings?!) Thinking of this, her heart ached even more. But at the same time, she couldn't help but think of her interactions with Xia Yan over the past two days. The girl sighed softly. Perhaps it was because of what she said at the barbecue restaurant that she went too far, or perhaps she had hurt Xia Yan's feelings, that this had led to this outcome. After Xia Yan woke up, he only let her know he was safe, and then he hadn't spoken to her again. A whole day had passed. A whole day had passed!!! The only message she could hear was Xia Yan's faint, "Don't worry, it's nothing serious." The girl opened her eyes, her beautiful eyes filled with confusion. Was the friendship she had finally gained going to disappear like this? Would Xia Yan develop a dislike for her because of this? She only wanted Xia Yan to be less tired and to be able to recover. She really hadn't intended to hurt Xia Yan. Hua Xin pulled the blanket over her head, letting out soft sobs. How should she tell Xia Yan ... Would he accept her apology? They shouldn't break up, right? Xia Yan would still be as gentle and sunny as usual, and they could continue being friends, right? "Xia Yan, if you break up with me, I'll kill you... Waaaaah..." The girl seemed to already see herself being hurt and conflicted by Xia Yan saying, "Let's not be friends anymore," before resolutely turning and leaving. Oh, the tonic!!! ..."Buzz." Just as Hua Xin's mood was extremely heavy, her phone, which was lying beside her, vibrated slightly. Her arm, clad in a thin long-sleeved shirt, instantly emerged from her spring roll, and the phone screen illuminated her serious face. "Wife, I'm so Lao Shui, waaaah..." "I collapsed from overwork and was hospitalized the day before yesterday, and you didn't even care about me...?" ... Hua Xin's lips twitched, and her fingers paused involuntarily. "No, you have time but don't message your buddies first, you message a woman first, right??" Just as the girl was about to retort to Xia Yan in her usual style, she remembered what she had said to him before. She had repeatedly denied "Gu Xin Hua," implying to Xia Yan she didn't like him at all and wanted him to give up. But should she still be so cold to him now?