Ch. 181Some Notes: Why the Protagonist Valued the Swarm More Despite Once Being Human
Chapter Summary
1. Key Plot Points and Events
- The author pauses after the story reaches 500,000 words and 18 volumes to explain Morien’s changing attitude toward insects and humanity.
- Morien originally began as an ordinary human, and each version of him across different worlds was effectively one of his “splits.”
- His early transmigration experiences repeatedly exposed him to the worst aspects of humanity:
- Iron Morien was confined with a decomposing corpse.
- Cursed Morien encountered grotesquely transformed humans.
- Mystery Morien witnessed ordinary people committing violence and indulging their darkest desires.
- His abilities allowed him to perceive people’s hidden wishes, further revealing human ugliness.
- These experiences gradually produced a strong aversion to human beings while Morien still technically regarded himself as human.
- After extended isolation and exposure to corpses, Morien’s perception of human beauty deteriorated. He began looking for a new emotional and aesthetic anchor in butterflies, moths, and eventually all insects.
- The first insect brood, Fortune-Collecting, was created as a relatively beautiful butterfly. Morien slowly became emotionally attached to her because of her dependence, sincerity, and childlike innocence.
- As his confinement continued for months, Morien created increasingly diverse and unconventional insect broods. The Swarm became his primary source of companionship and comfort.
- By the current stage, Morien no longer distinguishes living creatures according to human standards of beauty. He mainly divides the world into “family” and “outsiders,” with his insect brood occupying the former category.
2. Character Developments
- Morien’s view of humanity: He shifts from seeing himself as an ordinary human to becoming deeply alienated from humanity after repeatedly witnessing its violence, desire, decay, and hypocrisy.
- Morien’s aesthetic sense: His preferences move from normal human standards, to butterflies and moths, and finally to accepting any insect as beautiful or adorable simply because it belongs to his Swarm.
- Morien’s emotional attachments: The Swarm begins as a collection of abilities or “special effects,” but gradually becomes Morien’s family. His bond with Fortune-Collecting marks the point where he begins openly returning the Swarm’s affection.
- Morien’s psychological condition: Prolonged isolation and the demands of the Path of Propagation reshape his emotional needs. Because he can communicate only with insects for extended periods, he becomes increasingly dependent on and comfortable with them.
- Morien’s identity: Although he maintains a human body, this is largely habitual and connected to respect for the body his parents gave him. His sense of self is no longer fundamentally tied to being human.
- Morien as a parent: He becomes protective and accepting of his insect children, encouraging them to become whatever they wish and pursue their own goals. This explains readers’ description of him as a “male mom.”
3. Significant Themes
- Trauma and alienation: Repeated exposure to human cruelty and death causes Morien to emotionally detach from humanity.
- Nature of beauty: Beauty is shown to be subjective and shaped by experience. Morien’s standards change as his worldview changes.
- Family through creation and dependence: The Swarm becomes Morien’s family because its members depend on him sincerely, while he in turn provides love, protection, and acceptance.
- Isolation and psychological transformation: Long-term confinement and loneliness distort Morien’s values and deepen his reliance on the Swarm.
- Humanity versus personhood: Morien’s continued human appearance does not mean he still identifies primarily with humanity. His loyalties and emotional bonds matter more than his physical form.
- Unconditional love and acceptance: Morien values the Swarm not for its appearance but because it is “his.” Familial belonging replaces aesthetic judgment.
4. Character Interactions
- Morien and Fortune-Collecting: Their relationship changes from creator and creation to parent and child. Fortune-Collecting’s wholehearted dependence and sincerity awaken Morien’s capacity for reciprocal love.
- Morien and the Swarm: The insects provide companionship during his imprisonment, respond to his emotions, and become the only beings with whom he feels truly at ease.
- Morien and his insect children: He offers them freedom of identity and choice, demonstrating a supportive, parental relationship rather than treating them merely as tools.
- Morien and humanity: His interactions with humans—or his observations of them—are dominated by disgust, disappointment, and emotional distance because he associates them with violence, corruption, decay, and selfish desire.
- The author and readers: The author addresses readers’ questions directly, particularly their observation that Morien has become a “male mom,” and confirms that this reflects a genuine change in his emotional development.