The diary continued:
"Their voices were like a ship's anchors, helping me 'fix' my position."
"I began to find the strength to resist that yearning, to resist those cries rising from deep within me. Little by little, I emerged from it, once again capable of the normal emotions of a father, a husband, and a man."
"If merely reaching Sequence 2 caused such changes, how terrifying must the madness one has to resist be at Sequence 0, at the level of a true god?"
"Perhaps they, too, need to 'fix' their positions to resist the powerful tendency toward losing control lurking within Beyonder characteristics and the depths of the collective unconscious."
"I think I'm beginning to understand why they establish churches, why they spread their faith, why they write accounts of the Saints in their factions and leave legends of the corresponding Angels..."
"But why don't they have human likenesses? Why are they represented only by symbols?"
"I can't figure it out."
"I'll ask Mr. Door next time. He knows a great deal about the realm of gods. If he hadn't been exiled back then, there might have been one more god."
"September 29. Rereading yesterday's diary, I recalled the rituals corresponding to my Sequence 4, Sequence 3, and Sequence 2. All of them clearly carried a sense of madness and cruelty, like something only a villain in a novel would perform."
"The Sequence pathways may well be roads destined to lead to madness and despair."
"And yet, these are the only roads through which humans can obtain supernatural power."
"How laughable. How ironic."
"Do we strive to save ourselves only so that we can destroy ourselves more thoroughly and completely?"
This diary page contained so much information!
After reading the diary, Sifa discovered that his fingers were trembling slightly.