Ch. 21What Was Going On, Mom? Were They Calling It Quits Again?
Plot points and events
- Lu Bochen, burdened by guilt over pushing his twin sister Lu Jiaoyue, secretly cuts his arm as self-punishment. He stops before the injury becomes worse because his therapist has warned him not to hurt himself, then treats the wound and hides the scars beneath his sleeve.
- The next morning, Lu Xiaoxiao finds her parents, Song Zhilan and Lu Yuan, in a tense mood. Lu Yuan leaves without breakfast, and Song Zhilan sits down visibly upset.
- The chapter explains the misunderstanding behind their argument. Years earlier, when Lu Yuan’s company was in danger, Song Zhilan’s family refused to help and urged her to divorce him. She chose to stay with him, but never told him she had asked her uncle for support and been rejected.
- After reading Lu Yuan’s book the previous night, Song Zhilan had hoped to draw closer to him. But when she was already in his arms, Lu Yuan assumed her affection was an attempt to win his favor for her nephew’s company. Hurt, she turned away, and their renewed closeness collapsed.
Character developments and interactions
- Lu Bochen is painfully self-conscious beside Jiaoyue, whom he sees as the lively, socially adept version of himself that his parents might have wanted. His guilt and emotional distress lead him to self-harm, though he also shows some restraint by remembering his therapist’s guidance.
- Song Zhilan recognizes that Lu Yuan struggles to express affection and wants to approach him gently. Her effort fails because his comment makes her feel that he still doubts her motives.
- Lu Yuan is shown as capable and devoted in his own way, but emotionally inept. His lingering resentment toward the Song Family causes him to misread his wife’s intentions.
- Lu Xiaoxiao observes the strained breakfast and, through her thoughts, worries that her parents are “calling it quits” again. Her inner commentary also reveals her sympathy for her father’s devotion to Song Zhilan.
Significant themes
- Miscommunication in marriage: The couple’s affection is undermined by unspoken history and assumptions.
- Loyalty and resentment: Song Zhilan stood by Lu Yuan when her own family rejected him, while Lu Yuan’s resentment has obscured that sacrifice.
- Guilt and self-punishment: Bochen responds to a mistake by hurting himself, illustrating the severity of his self-blame.
- Emotional isolation and self-image: Bochen compares himself unfavorably with Jiaoyue and wonders whether he can ever become “normal.”