Childhood Trauma

Qin Yiguan did not understand.

Why did I suddenly recall memories from when I was 5 years old?

Before...

Qin Yiguan frowned.

Suddenly, I realized that all I had in my mind before were some vague fragments of my childhood, which I couldn't piece together into any complete memory.

He only remembered his adoptive parents, killing his adoptive parents, the orphanage, Boss Meng, Shangguan Xiaotao, and other things... that seemed to be it.

He couldn't even remember who the other members of the ' Strongest Five-Person Group ' were or what they looked like.

This is truly a somewhat terrifying thing.

I had no childhood, but I was completely unaware of it.

--This is like Qin Yiguan's life suddenly starting when he was 15 years old.

Immediately.

Qin Yiguan turned around and looked into the depths of the woods.

"I remember, I ran like crazy that night."

"I can't even tell which way is north, south, east, or west; I'm very panicked."

"Then, I walked through the bushes in front of me."

I saw a small lake.

He tried hard to recall, then took a step forward and pushed aside the bushes in front of him.

really.

Under the cool moonlight.

A lake as smooth as a mirror came into view.

The lake was surrounded by jagged, dark, and eerie bushes.

Whether it was a frog or some other animal, it caused ripples to spread across the lake's surface from time to time.

Qin Yiguan frowned. "Then, my foot slipped, and I fell into a dirt hole near the lake. The hole was full of slippery mud. I tried desperately to climb out, but I couldn't, and I didn't dare to call for help."

Qin Yiguan walked a few steps forward and discovered a hole covered by weeds.

The burrow is 2 meters deep but less than 1 meter in diameter, forming a narrow cylindrical shape.

The bottom was covered in mud and water, and the side walls were also very slippery.

"This earthen cave is very close to the lake, separated only by a layer of mud walls."

"I was terrified at the time, so I frantically dug at the walls of the earthen cave."

"As a result, lake water flooded in."

"Then..."

Qin Yiguan's eyes twitched as a deeper memory resurfaced. "The scene that shattered my childhood heart has appeared!"

"A body dressed in white drifted into the earthen cave with the lake water! At that moment, the body's posture... it was as if it had pounced on me, pinning me down!"

"Its body was stiff and cold, colder than the lake water!"

now.

Qin Yiguan took a step back and looked at the distant lake.

But then, a white object was seen swaying slightly among the weeds by the lake. It was floating on the water, but seemed to be caught on a branch of a tree on the shore.

suddenly.

The branch broke, and the white object drifted towards the center of the lake.

Qin Yiguan's Pupil suddenly contracted!

That's it!

It was a corpse dressed in a white robe, floating face down on the water. Its feet and hands were swollen and white, and the skin on its left wrist was torn open, with flesh ripped open and white fat exposed!

Qin Yiguan was breathing slightly heavily.

"At the time, I was 5 years old and trapped in that pit, with that corpse... I spent 6 hours there."

"The pit is too small."

"The corpse was right next to me; it seemed to be coiled around me, and I couldn't even turn around."

"It was a suffocating terror!"

Countless times I felt that the corpse came back to life, grabbed me, tore me apart, dragged me into the water to drown me, or strangled me with its long hair!

"I still can't bear to look at the face of that corpse!"

"I don't know what it looks like, but I've imagined it countless times. It has a hideous face, swollen skin, fat sliding off its skull, and it's missing an eyeball, with black leeches crawling in its eye sockets..."

"Those six hours were terrifying!"

As Qin Yiguan recalled that scene, cold sweat unknowingly appeared on his forehead.

"The most terrifying moments are when the wind blows through the weeds at the cave entrance, letting in a sliver of moonlight, or when a firefly flies in..."

"The corpse in the dim light was hazy... terrifying... chilling, and mind-bending!"

"I dare not look at it, but I have no choice but to look at it!"

"I stared at it with wide eyes, afraid it would come to life, afraid it would see me, lock onto me, and pounce on me!"

"I'm so scared..."

"I'm so scared..."

"I think it's starting to breathe..."

"I think it opened its eyes..."

"I feel like its face is right in front of me!"

Fluttering!

In the distant woods, a large black bird suddenly flapped its wings and flew into the sky.

The sudden noise sent a chill down Qin Yiguan, snapping him out of his childhood nightmare.

There was a long silence.

His breathing gradually stabilized.

Looking at the corpse on the water, as if guided by some unseen force, the corpse drifted to the shore not far from him.

"Since that's the case."

"Then I'm determined to see your true colors today!"

Qin Yiguan gritted his teeth, then strode forward, splashing as he stepped into the lake under the dim moonlight!

The corpse was dressed in a white robe, and although it was face down, its black hair, like seaweed, floated in the lake.

It should be a woman.

"Just a corpse!"

"I've seen more corpses than some people have seen living people!"

"I am not afraid!"

But then Qin Yiguan reached into the lake with both hands, picked up the female corpse, and walked step by step to the shore!

He placed the body on the ground.

By the moonlight, I looked at her face. She was a very beautiful woman, about thirty years old, wearing a white gauze dress. Her face was neither swollen nor grotesque, but rather somewhat pale.

There was a deep ligature mark on her neck, which had cut open the skin and exposed the neck muscles, which were bloodless from prolonged soaking.

Qin Yiguan suddenly sat down on the ground, lost in thought for a long time, and finally chuckled.

He suddenly relaxed.

It was as if a huge rock that had been weighing on my heart for many years had been removed.

"It really was just a corpse."

"And your appearance."

Qin Yiguan looked at her, "More beautiful than any corpse I've ever handled... I'm certain that neither you in the past nor you now would ever harm anyone."

He stared at her.

Qin Yiguan suddenly felt that the corpse seemed familiar, and had a strange sense of déjà vu.

However, this place is, after all, a memory from when I was 5 years old.

He had at least had a brief encounter with this corpse.

now.

Qin Yiguan gazed at the distant lake, where the faint reflection of the silver moon could be seen.

How many corpses have I handled?

"100? 200? Or 500?"

"Too many to remember."

"In short, it's like an ordinary person walking down the street, brushing past all sorts of strangers, not making a point of remembering anyone, because it's very likely they'll never meet again in this lifetime."

The image of the child in the wardrobe flashed through my mind.

Qin Yiguan sighed softly.

"I can understand; I was only 5 years old, so young."

"Spending a night with a corpse under such circumstances—that's an absolute nightmare, an unforgettable childhood trauma!"

"This caused him to imagine countless demons whenever he saw a glimmer of light in the darkness."

"Now, looking back..."

My heart is truly unmoved.

"Have I grown up?"

"Or has it been that over the years, my heart has amplified that fear countless times?"

"Shitian is right. What truly plagues the heart is the inner demon; it is this demon that allows that vague and ethereal fear to grow unchecked!"

Immediately.

Qin Yiguan stood up and dug into the soil beside him with his bare hands, burying the woman.

He didn't know the woman's name.

All they could do was erect a blank wooden stake in front of her grave; this served as her nameless tombstone.

But during the burial process...

Qin Yiguan noticed that she was holding a metal plaque with half an 'S' engraved on it. It was clear that the plaque had been cut in the middle and was now only half left.

Qin Yiguan gripped the plaque, then looked at the blank tombstone. "You were murdered. I've memorized your face. If I have the chance, I will find your killer and avenge you!"

Immediately.

Qin Yiguan glanced at the gloomy surroundings and smiled faintly, "Let this childhood trauma dissipate."

The next moment.

Qin Yiguan's figure disappeared.

But the surrounding environment did not dissipate.

The lake was serene.

An unmarked tombstone stands in the wind.

A figure slowly emerged from the woods. He had the same face as Qin Yiguan, but his expression was calm and serene. He carried a lantern in his hand, from which ten shimmering figures were visible.

He approached the tombstone, his lantern illuminating the blank surface.

He finally remembered some things from his childhood, but he couldn't remember who you were.

Don't worry, don't be anxious.

He will remember everything, little by little.