My Illness

"I experienced everything in the Ghost City with Benefactor Qin, so of course it exists."

The young monk Shitian looked on with a smile, "However, that Ghost City is not a physical entity; it seems to be built into your memory. Before, for some reason, I and Benefactor Qin returned to your memory when you were 5 years old."

"How is that possible?"

Qin Yiguan was slightly taken aback.

But in the next instant, Qin Yiguan seemed to understand.

Because he saw the Boundless One's paper-thin figure separate from his body, walk away into the distance without looking back or saying a word, becoming thinner and thinner until it finally dissipated.

Qin Yiguan suddenly realized.

So that's what it was...

The Boundless One truly has no boundaries; they can even travel back and forth between memories?!

Moreover, they brought not only me, but also Shitian?

Why is that?

Why would it do that?!

Whenever Qin Yiguan had doubts about his abilities, he would think of one person— Dr. House.

He immediately turned on his communicator and described his entire experience of the ' Ghost City ' to Dr. House.

Dr. House listened to every word and remained silent for a long time.

"The personality we develop is formed under certain specific circumstances."

"For example, like ' Black Calamity,' which underwent tremendous stimulation."

"When it split off from your primary personality, it also took those memories with it."

"From a certain perspective, your dominant personality is unwilling to face those things and wants to escape them, so it allows that personality to be born and lets it take away those bad memories."

"It's a bit like selective amnesia."

"Yiguan, you have 12 personalities, which means you have 'forgotten' at least 12 memories."

"These memories are all bad, even truths you can't accept."

"They were all taken away by your other personalities."

"Of course, those memories you never knew also had a huge impact on them, causing them to suffer from certain psychological illnesses. In the Experimental Zone, these illnesses transformed into incredible abilities."

Qin Yiguan listened quietly.

Only then did I understand why my past was incomplete.

"And what about your experience in the Ghost City?"

Dr. House said slowly, "Simply put, this is a process of self-repair and self-redemption."

"The 5-year-old ' Black Calamity ' will always live in your heart."

"It yearns for redemption, longs to escape the shadows, and so it sent ' Smoke Black Calamity ' to seek your help."

"Boundless One also lives in your heart."

"After all, they are all your personalities."

"The Boundless One takes you back to the past, unlocking the long-sealed memories in your heart."

"And you, with the mindset of an adult and the experience of these years, calmly faced that white-clad corpse."

When you let go of your worries, the heavy Shitou in your heart will naturally crumble.

"You don't even need to explain much, because the five-year-old you and the current you are the same person."

"If you accept the truth, then he accepts the truth."

"Now, you've accepted yourself at age 5, and you, at age 5, have accepted yourself."

"Your ' Black Calamity ' personality should have been cured."

Qin Yiguan's eyes widened slightly as he looked at his empty palm, recalling the little boy's face. "It's... healed?!"

"As for the ' Child ' personality in the wardrobe."

"I think that it, as another personality of yours, must have formed around the time you were 5 years old, and it's also somewhat related to that wardrobe, which is why it appeared in the wardrobe at the same time."

"As for the reason why you became a ' Child,' I cannot know; it must be another long-forgotten memory of yours."

Dr. House spoke slowly, "And why the Ghost City could materialize, and why you could return to such a realistic past, is all thanks to the Gemini Superbrain. After all, it was it that amplified the potential of human consciousness Infinity, transforming human consciousness into all sorts of abilities, allowing human consciousness to create everything! The principles behind this are beyond the comprehension of a mere psychiatrist like myself."

Qin Yiguan remained silent for a moment.

However, Dr. House seemed quite interested; Qin Yiguan, this special patient, had clearly piqued his interest.

Dr. House continued, "After going through this, I seem to have gained a deeper understanding of you, that is, your current personality."

Qin Yiguan asked, puzzled, "Dr. House, please explain."

Didn't you have a question before?

"That is, each of your personalities has a special ability, but what exactly is your own ability?"

Dr. House spoke slowly.

This question instantly piqued Qin Yiguan's curiosity.

Dr. House said, "Your twelve personalities each took away your memories, so you should be called the Forgetter."

"Wow..."

Qin Yiguan's eyes widened slightly. "Such terrible ability."

Don't be so arbitrary!

What's wrong with forgetting?

"At the very least, it will give you a sound mind and normal behavior."

Dr. House joked, "Didn't you always insist that you weren't sick? Now it seems you really aren't sick; those illnesses are all other people's!"

"..."

Qin Yiguan clicked his tongue. "Why am I not happy?"

"Things have two sides."

Dr. House continued, "The opposite of forgetting is remembering. Through the ' Black Calamity ' incident, you should realize your mission: to redeem the other personalities. The process of healing them is also healing yourself. Saving others is saving yourself!"

"Furthermore, your childhood clearly conceals an unbelievable experience."

Don't you want to know about your past?

Don't you want to know why so many personalities split off?

Don't you want to know the truth about your adoptive parents' deaths?

"As long as you keep healing your personality and keep facing the truth, you will be able to piece together your past completely!"