Thinking back on the danger just now, I still felt a little shaken-
That saying really was true. Anyone who survived long in the Lord of Mysteries World was a fucking scheming bastard!
That Demoness had been all smiles and jokes with me, acting mischievous, but she'd secretly dug a pit to kill me long ago. If I hadn't had a few special tricks, I might really have died there.
But she attacked the moment she heard me say "Lilith." Was that because she had a grudge against Lilith, or because they were close?
I need to find a way to make sure.
If she's an enemy, that's fine. But if she's a friend, am I supposed to just forget the "grudge" of her nearly killing me?
No matter how I look at it, that pisses me off. I can't accept it!
He suddenly jolted upright, his brows tightly knitted on his small face, his fingers tapping rapidly against his thigh. "No, judging by what I said and did tonight, my earlier assessment might have been wrong. The effect Bernadette's memories had on me... probably wasn't rebelliousness."
Compared to before,
My emotions are more easily influenced. I act on whatever pops into my head and do irrational things. My happiness and anger show more readily, and I don't consider the consequences...
The more Edward thought about it, the darker his expression became. "How is that rebelliousness? It's plain childishness! No, I was acting like an actual child just now!"
"..."
Fuck!
The only good news is that I'm not always in this "childish" state. Under normal circumstances, I can still think and judge as calmly and rationally as before.
But does that mean anything?
*When something actually happens and the childishness kicks in, I'll definitely go, "Fuck thinking and judging,"