Shen Sixian did not refute Xie Jinghui's words; he simply lowered his brows and listened quietly.
Listen to a man who is seen as ambitious by everyone tell a ridiculous, fairytale-like story.
"I was surprised to find that my daily thoughts revolved around what he was feeling when he made that expression, and what he meant when he said those words."
"What he likes, what he dislikes, what he wants to say, and what he wants to do—these have become the things I most want to figure out and know every day."
"And so from that moment on, I began to crave his response, craved his love. I wanted him to love me, I wanted him to be special only to me."
Xie Jinghui had never even said these words to Shen Shuangjian.
These confessions are not a sign of weakness or a surrender, but rather the most sincere revelation after enduring prolonged contempt.
"I didn't love him with such fear and trepidation from the very beginning, nor did I love him to the point of losing my mind."
"I was just moved, I just wanted to hold onto that feeling of excitement that I hadn't experienced in the first half of my life, and that I would lose entirely in the second half if I missed it."
I don't even know when the love started. It seems like it was at first sight, or maybe it was at every glance.
Love falls like snowflakes; by the time I realized it, my world was already a vast expanse of white.
"I love him. I love his indifference and vulnerability, his tenderness and cruelty. I love that he will never stop, and I love his repeated push-aways of inner conflict and gentleness."
"Even in the future, he can become anything, because no matter how he changes, I will still love him. I can still love his wickedness and selfishness, his teasing and infidelity."
I love Shen Shuangjian, even though he doesn't love me.
Xie Jinghui's love was intense after he discovered it.
He realized that it was precisely because he loved Shen Shuangjian that he could not let go, no matter how painful or sensitive he was.
Because he loved Shen Shuangjian, he forgot about methods and calculations, and with only a surge of courage, he approached her recklessly and fearfully.
It was also because he loved Shen Shuangjian that he allowed her to cruelly imprison his truest, deepest self in a cage.
He allowed Shen Shuangjian swagger and dominate in his heart, capable of repeatedly destroying his world with just a few words.
Because of love, he could betray himself, stand by Shen Shuangjian's side, and coldly watch as she was battered and bruised in this love, cowering and howling.
Whether his gentleness is genuine or not is unimportant; whether his true nature is refined or like a beast, full of possessiveness and control is also unimportant.
Xie Jinghui doesn't need his true self; he doesn't need to learn to love himself before he can love Shen Shuangjian.
Because long ago, he had betrayed himself and surrendered to Shen Shuangjian.
Xie Jinghui never denied that his love was crazy, obsessive, and full of pretense.
Like a swamp covered in snow, it appears pure white on the surface, but once the snow melts, anyone standing on it will be swept away and sink into endless mud.
In this love, the ice and snow once softened, when the undercurrents of the swamp surged, and there was a tentative clamor.
But Xie Jinghui would never allow the heavy snow to make the land muddy and the withered grass to fall.
He will prove to Shen Shuangjian, and to everyone else, that the world after the snow melts will not be muddy and dirty.
After the snow melts, it should be a sunny spring day.
As for the disarray he endured before spring arrived, only he himself knew that, and that was enough.
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Shen Sixian listened to Shen Sixian Xie Jinghui's words, but if you were to ask how much of them he believed...
He would tell you that he doesn't believe a single word of it.
I have absolutely no interest in what kind of love you have.
Shen Sixian remained unmoved and dismissive of Xie Jinghui's confession and emotions. He propped himself up, his expression cold and indifferent.
"Since my intervention taught Zhizhi to keep secrets, then I won't stop her."
Shen Sixian turned his gaze to him, with his own considerations in mind.
"But I won't allow anyone to know about your relationship. You can't go public with it, and you can't show it in public."
Shen Sixian knew, of course, that things that are hard to obtain always seem more precious.
His Zhizhi young and wants to experience love, which is perfectly normal.
Some things don't need to be explicitly stated by others; they will naturally become clear in the details of how you interact with each other.
How long can Xie Jinghui keep up the act? And how long can Shen Shuangjian maintain her interest and curiosity in him?
Once the initial passion of their relationship fades, Shen Shuangjian she will eventually want to leave him.
Shen Sixian only needed to ensure that no one knew about their relationship and that Xie Jinghui wouldn't have a chance to entangle or interfere; that was enough.
"Of course, this doesn't mean I agree with you or support you. It's just that since you're already together, forcing you to break up Zhizhi make you unhappy."
Whether Shen Sixian believed in his love or not was completely unimportant to Xie Jinghui.
"It's good that Mr. Shen thinks that way."
Xie Jinghui lowered her eyes and stood up, having regained her initial calm and composure. "Mr. Shen, please rest well. I'll be leaving now."
There's a lot of commotion at home, so Xie Jinghui needs to deal with it first. After that, he'll go to Shen Residence to be with his bewildered lover who just woke up.
Just thinking about this made Xie Jinghui's lips curl into a happy smile, and even the gloomy weather outside seemed exceptionally sunny and pleasant to him.
When Shen Shuangjian returned to the Shen Residence, she found it in complete chaos.
The iron gate to the tree-lined avenue was open and appeared slightly bent, but this disarray became even more apparent upon returning to the Shen Residence.
"Make way! Let Shen Shuangjian out! I want to see Shen Shuangjian!"
"Get out of my way! I don't have time to waste on your nonsense!"
Xie Qingchi's voice was a little hoarse. Surrounded by a group of servants, he lost his composure. Given his status, the security guards, without their master's orders, looked at each other, stopped him, but dared not actually make a move.
" Shen Shuangjian? Shen Shuangjian!"
The stopped car caught his attention. As if he had thought of something, he pushed through the surrounding crowd and opened the previously closed car door.
The person sitting in the car was the very person he had been thinking about all along.
" Shen Shuangjian..." he murmured, lost in thought.
"I've finally met you. I have something I want to tell you, something I want to ask you..."
Xie Qingchi paused, her expression complex, but finally she spoke, "Are you with my uncle?"
He had wanted to ask this question ever since he saw Shen Shuangjian and Xie Jinghui kissing.
He left in a hurry, in a daze, and returned to China in a rush, where he was sent home by Xie Jinghui's men.
He was very dissatisfied and couldn't understand why Shen Shuangjian would rather like his uncle than give him a chance.
But when Xie Qingchi realized what was happening and wanted to find Shen Shuangjian to get to the bottom of things, he discovered that Xie Jinghui had already taken him into custody at home.
And soon he will be sent abroad.