P. S.: Please be aware that this is a pure love story. I won't do anything that wouldn't pass censorship. The fact that I wrote something so ambiguous is simply because I have a problem with myself. I'm shameless and despicable.
The afternoon sun on the coast was abundant, and the sunlight shone through the glass, but when it tried to shine into the house, it was completely blocked by the heavy blackout curtains.
Even in the dim light, without the lights on, the entangled figures could still be seen through a small gap.
The sobbing in the bedroom was very soft, as if it were leaking from a concealed place; it was muffled, intermittent, and quite pitiful.
"Um... thank you... for the Jinghui."
Shen Shuangjian sank into the bed, his mind in disarray, he weakly bit his knuckles. In his outstretched palm on the other side, a sapphire ring lay silently.
Shen Shuangjian that she couldn't even remember how she had agreed to allow Xie Jinghui to continue treating her this way.
All he remembered Xie Jinghui looking down at him with her eyes and posture, her dark pupils filled with tender devotion and lingering love, mixed with an indescribable depth, as she spoke words that made his head spin, and then leaned in to kiss him.
The ring that belonged to Xie Jinghui became a shackle and collar restricting her, and also a cage for Shen Shuangjian to use to protect herself when she was lost and helpless.
Xie Jinghui felt it wasn't the right time to do anything more outrageous to Shen Shuangjian.
For Shen Shuangjian now, even kisses and touches are enough to make him feel impotent.
He feared that if he took too big a step, Shen Shuangjian might become afraid of it.
He will proceed gradually, letting Shen Shuangjian slowly get used to his touch, and then slowly understand that between true lovers, there is more than just endless sweet words and kisses.
Normally, Shen Shuangjian would feel guilty and unable to lie, but at this moment, she spoke fluently, repeating over and over that she felt uncomfortable, didn't want to, and couldn't bear it.
But clearly, her body language tells a completely different story.
"It's okay to end it now. Wouldn't it be even more painful to Zhizhi stop halfway through?"
"No... I feel unwell."
Shen Shuangjian he hadn't heard a single word; he was afraid of this comfortable feeling that completely churned his brain.
"I need to... wait a minute, I... I'm tired."
Shen Shuangjian's words made Xie Jinghui stop his upper body movements. In the dim light, one of them was dressed impeccably, while the other was curled up in loose clothes, trembling slightly.
"All right."
Shen Shuangjian's eyes trembled, and he curled himself up even tighter in helplessness, mimicking his body's previous reactions to pain, trying his best to endure it.
He waited, waiting for himself to slowly return to normal.
Just wait, and you'll get through it eventually.
Shen Shuangjian uttered two syllables in a near-collapse, and tears that had been welling up for a long time fell through his eyes.
" Xie Jinghui, you're... bullying me again."
Xie Jinghui's hand was around his waist. Hearing this, she slowly moved closer to Shen Shuangjian's ear, pleading for mercy in a helpless yet gentle voice.
"I'm innocent! I didn't bully you! I wouldn't dare!"
Shen Shuangjian's reaction was already very tense; if it dragged on any longer, it would be exhausting.
So Xie Jinghui slowly bit Shen Shuangjian's earlobe and whispered in his ear, "Ten minutes later, help me put on the ring."
The only ray of light in the room fell precisely on Shen Shuangjian's outstretched hand.
He held the ring in his palm the whole time, sometimes opening it, sometimes clenching it tightly, and for a moment, it even rolled off the bed because of Shen Shuangjian's struggle to escape.
However, in the end, Xie Jinghui and put them back into Shen Shuangjian's hands.
Xie Jinghui said it would be ten minutes, and it would be exactly ten minutes, not a minute more or less. Just a few seconds before Shen Shuangjian, who was already weak and exhausted, was lifted off the bed by him.
After several encounters, Xie Jinghui had clearly understood Shen Shuangjian's limits and tolerance.
He will maintain that balance well, but at the same time, Xie Jinghui is also troubled and helpless about that balance.
He didn't know what Shen Shuangjian would do if he did more than just kiss and touch her someday in the future.
Xie Jing recalled that Shen Shuang would probably cry and beg to go home as soon as she saw her.
You can't stop them, and you can't coax them.