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Jiang Xun's next words, however, made her even more conflicted.
"I know, I've known all along that you're not from this world, but I still won't let you go."
"What I like is you as a person. You are Song Shiwei, not the original owner of this body, nor are you just some random nobody. You're a bit scatterbrained, and you have many flaws, but I still like you very much."
"Weiwei, do you know, it's not that you can't live without me, it's that I need you so much. Your optimism and kindness deeply attract me, and almost pulled me back from the wrong path."
Jiang Xun's words were somewhat incoherent; even if he was just rambling on, it sounded like he was trying to comfort himself.
His words were childish, even somewhat naive, reminiscent of a kindergarten child.
But it is precisely this incoherent and flustered tone that makes Jiang Xun all the more remarkable.
For some reason, Song Shiwei felt that Jiang Xun must have said those words in a state of extreme panic.
Jiang Xun was always calm and composed; when had he ever been so flustered? Seeing him like this moved her deeply.
He knew that Xiang Xun had confessed his feelings to him more than once, and he could even feel his overwhelming love. He realized that the reason Xiang Xun hadn't dared to accept Jiang Xin before was because of this.
He didn't belong to this world to begin with. If he were to leave on his own one day, it would perhaps be an even bigger blow to Jiang Xun.
Therefore, she dared not admit her feelings for Jiang Xun, nor did she dare to give Jiang Xun any response. So when the day came for her to leave, perhaps Jiang Xun wouldn't be so heartbroken. After all, he was just a world-destroying villain. Even without her, he could have someone else, and he could still live a good life.
But now everything seems to have exceeded her expectations. Jiang Xun's feelings for her are so deep, even to the point of obsession.
Moreover, her feelings for Jiang Xun and the Jiang Family have exceeded her own expectations.
She knew she couldn't make a decision so quickly, and she didn't know what to do.
She was extremely conflicted about whether to leave or not.
"Jiang Xun, please let me finish speaking, okay?" Song Shiwei voice, trying to Jiang Xun. Jiang Xun was silent for a moment, swallowing back all the words he wanted to say.
But his fingers gripped Song Shiwei even tighter, as if if he let go Song Shiwei would turn into a wisp of smoke and disappear from his palm.
Song Siwei was both amused and exasperated by his actions. She gave a soft snort and whispered, "Jiang Xun, don't worry, I won't leave right now. I just wanted to tell you my true identity."
"I know you've always treated me as the eldest daughter of the Song Family, that is, your cannon fodder wife."
"But I'm not. I'm just an ordinary college student from the modern world. When I first came to this world, I was terrified. I really wanted to die. I felt like I could already see the end of my life. This feeling of waiting to die, I, a college student, had never experienced anything like it. I'm not kidding, but back then I wanted to blow up this world every day."
"But gradually I actually found this world quite interesting. You bunch of scoundrels are even worse than me. I'm having a great time watching the drama unfold every day. I'm even thinking about punishing evil and promoting good in this world. How about that? Pretty silly, right?"
Song Shiwei raised her eyes and glanced at Jiang Xun, but to her surprise, Jiang Xun's eyes showed not mockery but heartache.
A sudden thought struck her, and she quickly said, "I never imagined you could hear my thoughts. I also never expected my heroic actions to have such a good outcome. I saved Tongtong, I saved Mama Chen, and all of you wronged souls have awakened and changed your destinies. I feel very gratified. I even think this might be the reason the system transported me to this world."
"Just a few days ago, the system finally arrived, and he told me that I was shocked that you could hear my thoughts. I said, 'You lazybones, how could you awaken so easily?' But then I realized it was because you could hear my thoughts. On second thought, it makes sense. If you couldn't hear my thoughts, you might become those villainous NPCs, living out your lives miserably. We're all in this together, and my fate probably wouldn't be much better."
"The system asked me if I had ever regretted it, and I think I never have. You are all very good people; you shouldn't have lived your lives as cannon fodder according to the script."
I think it must be a major artery in the world, and my mission is probably almost complete, which is why I met someone I never expected.
Jiang Xun gripped Song Shiwei's hand tightly, immediately guessing, "You saw the original person in this body?"
"Yes, that's right. I met the original owner of the blessed body. We swapped bodies, and she's living a very happy life now. She's received a lot of love, and she's become much more cheerful. After much inner turmoil, she told me that I have a chance to go back to my own world." Song Shiwei asked me if I wanted to go back, I undoubtedly did. But now, seeing you all makes me even more conflicted.
"Jiang Xun, do you understand why I'm so conflicted?"
Song Shiwei blurted out everything she had been holding in. She was afraid that if she didn't speak now, she might never speak again in her life, and that she and Jiang Xun might never understand what the other was thinking until the day she made her decision.
"Weiwei, I know you have feelings for both of us. That's why you're conflicted."
"It is precisely because I know this that I am even more afraid. I am afraid that your feelings for us will not be able to overcome your desire to go back. I am afraid that I cannot keep you."
"But at the same time, I feel extremely guilty. I shouldn't have kept you in this world because of my own selfish desires. It's not fair to you. Who doesn't want to go back to their own world? You want to too, don't you?"