Are you my future girlfriend too? Chapter 203
After paying respects to my mother, my uncle didn't take us directly back. Instead, he drove us to the First People's Hospital, saying he wanted to take us to see someone.
I was a little puzzled, wondering if a relative was sick?
[When I followed them into the ward, I discovered that the person lying on top of me was my dad, the guy who kept saying he was going on a two-month trip.]
[The funniest thing is, when we walked in, this guy was playing a game on his phone.]
[I was absolutely furious, but I didn't want to argue with him. My uncle even glanced at the hospital report on the bedside table, which said it was something about angina and a heart stent. I was even more afraid to lose my temper in front of him, lest I worsen his condition.]
Upon seeing this, Xia Jinshu also showed a shocked expression. She hadn't expected that Uncle Song was pretending to go on vacation, but in reality, he had gone to the hospital for surgery, and it was heart surgery, which looked quite serious.
This made Xia Jinshu's heart tighten. She thought that Song Yunshen had already lost his mother, and if something happened to his father as well— Xia Jinshu didn't dare to think about it.
She felt even more sorry for Song Yunshen and understood his state of mind even more.
No wonder he seemed particularly sullen in the afternoon.
If it were Xia Jinshu, Xia Jinshu felt she would be extremely angry if she found out that her mother had secretly gone to the hospital for surgery without telling them.
Xia Jinshu could completely empathize with him on this point, and also felt that Uncle Song had done something wrong; how could he keep it from his family?
Although Uncle Song had promised her a 1,000 yuan bonus for every 10 points she could raise Song Yunshen's score, Xia Jinshu would still choose to side with Song Yunshen Song Yunshen this matter, since it was a matter of principle.
Family is about mutual support and reliance; that's what makes someone a family.
Otherwise, they would just be strangers with blood ties.
However, Xia Jinshu did not expect that this matter would have such a big impact on Song Yunshen's emotions; he seemed genuinely angry.
But since Uncle Song's surgery was successful and he's alright, there shouldn't be any reason for him to be that angry, right?
[Actually, if he had kept other things from me, I wouldn't be so angry.]
[Or rather, I'm not simply angry; I have a psychological trauma related to this kind of thing.]
When my mother passed away, I wasn't able to see her one last time. When I rushed to the hospital and saw my mother with her eyes closed, my mind went completely blank.
[Whenever I think about this, I feel a tightness in my chest. I always wonder, if I could have seen my mother one last time, what would I have said to her? And what would she have said to me?]
But time can't be turned back. I can never go back to the moment before she passed away, nor can I know what she wanted to say to me before she left.
[This incident affected me for a long time. Later, my uncle tried his best to comfort me, taking me on trips and playing video games with me. When he learned that I was always thinking about this, he suggested that I try writing a diary.]
He said he would write whatever came to mind, as long as it was something related to him.
Then, every now and then, I would burn the diary for my mother so that she could read it when she had nothing to do in heaven.
Since then, my feelings about my mother's death have gradually calmed down, and I have slowly accepted the fact that she has passed away.
I wanted her to know that I was doing well, so I made a conscious effort to write in my diary every day, recording all the interesting things that happened to me, and then burning them for her to see every now and then.
So, the fact that my father kept his illness from me is something I absolutely cannot accept. He thinks he's doing the right thing, carrying such a serious illness on his own shoulders as if he's some kind of great person.
[But I never actually considered whether I, as his son, needed his greatness.]
I would rather be the person my dad needs and can rely on, than a child who can only ever accept his protection.
[But he clearly doesn't understand this, and he still treats me like a child. Whenever something big happens, he chooses to keep it from me, only informing me with a smile after it's completely resolved, and then acting as if nothing happened, pretending it's just a small matter.]
I cannot accept this.
When Xia Jinshu saw this, she felt a tightness in her chest. The thought that the usually humorous and witty Song Yunshen had such a secret hidden deep in his heart made her feel even more heartbroken.
No wonder he was so angry; it turns out it was related to his mother's death.
In that case, it's actually quite understandable.
Xia Jinshu pursed her lips and subconsciously clenched the diary in her hand. She thought that she was already so upset just by reading the diary, so how upset must Song Yunshen be right now, having just finished writing this entry?
[When I got home in the afternoon, I just wanted to lie in bed and have some peace and quiet, but I accidentally fell asleep and had a nightmare.]
[I dreamt that my dad's surgery failed and he couldn't be saved. My uncle rushed home and asked me to go to the hospital to see him one last time, but in the end, I still couldn't see him.]
The whole world was dark.
I feel like a drowning person, constantly trying to grab onto something, but unable to grasp anything at all.
[I was completely startled awake, and when I woke up, I realized that I had been holding Xia Jinshu's hand the whole time.]
[This was one of the few pleasant surprises I had today. The moment I saw Xia Jinshu, I truly felt a sense of redemption.]
[Saving someone might be a bit of an exaggeration, but when I first woke up, I was indeed reluctant to let go of her hand. I pretended I hadn't quite come to my senses and secretly held on for a little longer.]
I hope she doesn't think I'm deliberately taking advantage of her.
"How could that be? It won't hurt if you hold on a little longer," Xia Jinshu thought to herself.
If it could make Song Yunshen feel a little better, I'd hold his hand for as long as I wanted.
Sigh... Thinking of this, Xia Jinshu couldn't help but sigh softly. She thought that if it could cheer Song Yunshen up, she wouldn't mind letting him fantasize about her and secretly take flight once.
Anyway, it's happened so many times already, one more time wouldn't matter, as long as Song Yunshen can get out of this negative mood, then she...
A small sacrifice is acceptable.
[After seeing Xia Jinshu off in the evening, I wasn't very hungry. I played games with Lao Xu others until after 8 p. m. When I started to feel hungry, I took out the bamboo shoot and pork stew that Nuonuo had made for lunch, reheated it, and ate it.]
[When my mom ate it this afternoon, I don't know if she thought it was good or not, but I thought it was pretty good.]
I'm starting to feel like playing the piano.
The diary entry ended, and the last sentence made Xia Jinshu pause for a moment, not quite understanding it.
She vaguely remembered asking Song Yunshen if he could play the piano before, but Song Yunshen's answer at the time was no.
Considering the context, Xia Jinshu, a top student, quickly guessed that playing the piano might be related to Song Yunshen's mother.
Perhaps Song Yunshen didn't want to mention his mother to her, which is why he said he couldn't play the piano?
Thinking of this, Xia Jinshu pursed her lips, took a deep breath, and reread the entire diary.
After reading it again, Xia Jinshu suddenly felt an impulse, and her heart began to beat faster.
If you have an idea, just do it.
So she immediately stood up, went to her desk, put the diary back in the drawer, glanced at Xia Yunuo on the upper bunk, and seeing that she wasn't paying much attention to her, she pretended to go to the bathroom and left the bedroom.
After leaving the bedroom and closing the door, Xia Jinshu walked through the living room and heard Xia Kening humming a song while taking a shower. She then looked at Yan Zhenxia, who was still sitting at the dining table typing on her keyboard after finishing her shower. After thinking for a moment, she went into the kitchen, took out the leftover birthday cake from the refrigerator, and secretly placed it by the door.
After getting ready, she returned to the living room, leaned close to Yan Zhenxia's ear, and whispered, "Mom, I can't sleep a bit. I'm going out for a walk and just wanted to let you know."
Yan Zhenxia responded at first, then realized what was happening and glanced at the time; it was already close to 10 o'clock.
"Why are you going out at this hour? Isn't it too late?"
"I can't sleep well lately if I don't go for a walk in the evening," Xia Jinshu lied without batting an eye.
Yan Zhenxia trusted her eldest daughter, so seeing her say that, she could only nod in agreement. "Then don't stay out for too long, and remember to come back early."
"Mmm." Xia Jinshu nodded, immediately turned and walked towards the door. After changing her shoes and opening the door, she took advantage of Yan Zhenxia's inattention, bent down, picked up the birthday cake, and slipped out the door.
After entering the elevator, Xia Jinshu took out her phone and sent a message to Song Yunshen.
[ Xia Jinshu ]: Are you there?
Song Yunshen was at a loss for what to do at the moment and did not reply to Xia Jinshu immediately.
She didn't receive a message from Song Yunshen until she walked out of the gate of the Tangning New Residence East District.
[ Song Yunshen ]: What's wrong, Teacher Xia?
[ Xia Jinshu ]: You should be at home right now, right?
[ Song Yunshen ]: Yeah, where else could I be at this hour?
[ Xia Jinshu ]: Yeah, it's so late at night, where else could I be? Guess where I am right now?
[ Song Yunshen ]: If that's the case, then you're definitely not at home.
[ Xia Jinshu ]: You're quite clever. So, where do you think it is?
[ Song Yunshen ]: In my heart.
[ Xia Jinshu ]:?
Upon seeing Song Yunshen's reply, Xia Jinshu blushed and felt a sudden fluster, wondering what kind of answers this guy was giving.
I meant to tease him, but he ended up teasing me instead.
However, seeing that he still had the mind to be silly, Xia Jinshu felt a little relieved, and her previously hurried pace slowed down slightly.
Soon, Xia Jinshu arrived at Song Yunshen's building, took the elevator to the 18th floor, and stood at his door.
[ Song Yunshen ]: So where is Teacher Xia now?
[ Xia Jinshu ]: You'll know if you come to the door and take a look.
[ Song Yunshen ]:?
Xia Jinshu vaguely heard hurried footsteps coming from inside the door. She chuckled softly, feeling slightly nervous again. But when the door opened and Xia Jinshu saw Song Yunshen's surprised face, her initial tension eased a little.
She tilted her head and smiled slightly, saying to Song Yunshen, "Good evening."
Song Yunshen Shen looked at Xia Jinshu, who had come to him in her pajamas, with a surprised expression, still somewhat bewildered.
"Senior, what's wrong with you—"
Xia Jinshu blushed slightly, held up the birthday cake in her hand, and said to Song Yunshen, "Didn't I tell you before? Today is my mother's birthday, and there are still some birthday cakes left, so I thought I'd bring them over for you to try."
"Oh, oh." Song Yunshen realized what was happening and quickly moved aside to invite her in to sit down.
Xia Jinshu changed into her beige slippers and followed Song Yunshen into the house, where they sat down on the sofa in the living room.
She placed the birthday cake on the coffee table, opened the packaging, and then remembered that she hadn't brought any disposable cutlery. So she got up and went into the kitchen, familiarly took out bowls and chopsticks from the cupboard, returned to the sofa, Song Yunshen, and handed it to him.
Song Yunshen took the cake, genuinely believing that Xia Jinshu had only come to bring him a cake, and began to savor it.
Because the portion of braised pork with bamboo shoots for dinner was not large, he was quite hungry at this point. After eating one piece, he ate another piece before feeling a little full.
Xia Jinshu sat beside him, elbows resting on her knees, chin in her hand, turning her head to look at him gently. Noticing his lips were a little dry, she got up and went to the refrigerator to get a bottle of Mizone: "Eat slowly, there's more if you're not full."
Song Yunshen nodded, and without standing on ceremony, ate his third piece.
At this moment, Xia Jinshu quietly shifted her position, moving closer to Song Yunshen until they were almost touching, before she Song Yunshen asked him, "Are you in a bad mood today?"
Upon hearing this, Song Yunshen paused slightly in his cake-eating motion.
He wanted to deny it, but then he thought about how Xia Jinshu had brought him a birthday cake so late at night, so he hesitated for a moment before nodding and admitting, "Yeah, a little."
"Can you tell me about it?" Xia Jinshu asked gently.
Having already calmed himself down, Song Yunshen was no longer as angry as he had been in the afternoon. When Xia Jinshu asked him about it, he didn't hide it from her any longer and simply told her about going to pay respects to his mother and being deceived by his father.
Xia Jinshu nodded in understanding. After he finished the third piece of cake and put the bowl and chopsticks on the coffee table, she stretched out a hand, just like the one she had held when he had a nightmare that afternoon.
"Did you dream about something related to this when you had a nightmare this afternoon?"
"I suppose so." Song Yunshen was suddenly grabbed by her hand, and he stiffened slightly. He took a deep breath, surprised that Xia Jinshu still remembered this.
The next second, Xia Jinshu suddenly raised her other hand, hugged the back of Song Yunshen's head, gently pressed his head against her chest, and tenderly stroked it.
"Senior sister----" Song Yunshen was stunned by her actions, his whole body stiffening in her arms, not knowing what to do for a moment.
" Yunshen, may I call you that?" Xia Jinshu asked softly.
"----Hmm." Song Yunshen responded blankly in her arms.
"If before my birthday this year I only saw you as your tutor, after my birthday I've come to see you as my best friend," Xia Jinshu continued. "I never like seeing my friends sad, so next time, if something makes you sad, you must tell me, okay?"
Song Yunshen never expected that Xia Jinshu would say such a thing when she came to see him in the middle of the night.
He was deeply moved; a soft spot in his heart seemed to be constantly being stirred by Xia Jinshu's voice.
At this moment, he leaned against Xia Jinshu's chest, her arms around his head and gently stroking him. In a daze, he felt as if he were leaning against his mother's arms. He felt absurd, but he was also reluctant to leave. Instead, he wanted to linger in Xia Jinshu's arms a little longer.
He responded softly, agreeing to Xia Jinshu's request.
The thoughts that were originally only recorded in his diary were gradually spoken aloud by him.
Previously, he had only simply explained that he went to pay respects to his mother and that his uncle had taken him to the hospital to see his father in the afternoon, but many of his inner feelings and thoughts were omitted.
Now that he had vented everything and had someone to confide in, Song Yunshen felt much lighter after he finished speaking. His body, which had been a little stiff, softened in Xia Jinshu's arms.
But soon, he came to his senses and realized something again.
He was leaning against Xia Jinshu's chest.
So the body, which had just softened, immediately hardened again.
This made him a little embarrassed. He finally managed to break free from Xia Jinshu's embrace, raised his head again, and subconsciously met Xia Jinshu's gaze.
As a result, both of them were a little embarrassed. Their eyes met briefly in mid-air before they turned their heads away, and the atmosphere in the living room suddenly became awkward.
"Thank you so much for today." Song Yunshen took the initiative to break the awkward atmosphere and thanked Xia Jinshu.
"It's nothing." Xia Jinshu composed herself, her heart pounding, and smiled as she gently shook her head. "These are things good friends should do."
After saying that, Xia Jinshu glanced at the time again and realized that she had been out for more than twenty minutes.
So she stood up again, repackaged the remaining quarter of the birthday cake, picked it up, and said to Song Yunshen, "It's getting late, I have to go home now."
"Let me take you back," Song Yunshen said, standing up.
"It's alright, I can go back by myself," Xia Jinshu politely declined. "It would be too much trouble for you to take me."
"It's not troublesome at all," Song Yunshen insisted, following Xia Jinshu to her front door. He then pointed to her pajamas, "Making my senior walk home dressed like this so late at night, I'd feel guilty if something happened."
Upon hearing this, Xia Jinshu looked down at her pajamas and suddenly realized what had happened, her cheeks instantly turning red.
How did I end up out in my pajamas?!
Although her pajamas were all long-sleeved and long-legged, and it wouldn't be a problem to wear them out, the thought of coming to Song Yunshen's house in her pajamas and hugging him for so long made Xia Jinshu feel her toes dig into the ground, and she was extremely embarrassed.
It's all Song Yunshen's fault!
Writing in her diary was so captivating that she forgot to change her clothes before leaving the house.
This is so embarrassing!
Seeing that she didn't refuse again, Song Yunshen followed her out to change his shoes and entered the elevator with Xia Jinshu.
After arriving on the first floor, he led Xia Jinshu toward the bicycle shed.
Seeing that he was about to ride his electric scooter, Xia Jinshu, who was following behind, looked up at the moonlight and suggested, "Why don't we skip the scooter and walk instead?"
Song Yunshen paused for a moment, then nodded. "Okay."
So instead of riding their electric bikes, the two strolled leisurely through the eastern part of Tangning New Residence together. They chatted for a while, talking about Song Yunshen's mother and Xia Jinshu's mother, and then they both condemned Song Yunshen's father's actions this time.
When Song Yunshen arrived at Xia Jinshu's building, he felt much better.
The two stopped at the same time. Xia Jinshu turned around to look at him, smiled, and waved her little hand. "That's enough for now. I'll go upstairs first. You should go home and rest early too."
Looking at Xia Jinshu's slender figure, Song Yunshen felt a strange urge to go forward and hug her tightly again.
But he held back and nodded slightly.
But the next second, Xia Jinshu stepped forward, raised her right hand, and gently patted Song Yunshen's head. "Then don't be angry anymore. Find some time next time to have a good talk with your father."
Song Yunshen stared at her blankly. After regaining his senses, he pursed his lips and nodded again. "Okay, whatever you say."
"Good girl." Xia Jinshu smiled brightly, took two steps back towards the entrance of the building, waved to him, and then turned and walked into the building.
Song Yunshen stood there, staring blankly as her figure disappeared into the elevator.
He then subconsciously raised his hand and touched his head.