The Beginning of the Fall, Part Three

The year was 1153 in the League calendar.

October 5th.

I haven't written in my diary for a long time. Since being brought here, I haven't had the heart to record my life. This humiliating and shameful life for me has no reason to be recorded. But now, I've picked up my pen again and am recording everything that's happened to me. I don't know what kind of change has occurred in my mindset, but it doesn't seem to be a good thing for me. I've tried praying, but it has no effect. My body is becoming less and less like my own body, and more like some kind of alien entity.

Although I didn't want it to be this way, I still picked up my pen and started recording what was happening around me again. At least this way, I wouldn't have time to think about strange things anymore. I never thought such a reaction was normal... But why couldn't I refuse? I am a saintess of the Temple, and I, like other girls my age, once fantasized about having someone I loved. Herbert is the man I love; he is so strong, gentle, and considerate. We both know that a saintess can only marry a guardian knight. Although I strongly opposed it, Herbert persevered and finally obtained the position. He put in so much effort and went through so many dangers to get to where he is today. I also fantasized about what kind of happy times we would have afterward.

But now, it's all over. I'm no longer pure. My body has undergone such a terrible swap that I dare not even think about it. It's the first time I've ever known that I could be treated like this. Although I was a saint, I had imagined what kind of treatment I would receive if something terrible happened to me. But what I'm seeing now is far beyond my imagination. It's not something a human would come up with; it's a terrifying technique that only a devil would devise. Although I've been trying my best to resist this terrible corruption, its power far exceeds my expectations.

Angela —I have never seen a more beautiful girl, nor a more terrifying woman. Her crimson eyes sent shivers down my spine; something terrifying seemed to burn within them. I didn't know what it was, but it was clearly not a human emotion. She was filled with an intense desire to conquer that I had never seen before, an emotion so strong that it made me utterly kneel at her feet, so undisguised. She was like a queen reigning supreme, allowing no one to resist. I didn't know what she was thinking, why she had to treat me this way. Perhaps, to her, I was merely a form of entertainment, nothing more.

As for that evil sorcerer, I don't know what to say. He's clearly the center of it all, but he doesn't seem to really want me. It's strange; I noticed his eyes didn't burn with the unpleasant lust of other men. So why would he do this to me? He doesn't like me, and doesn't seem particularly interested in my body, yet he did it. I don't understand why. If they are followers of an evil god, they seem somewhat different.

But these are all insignificant matters; I don't have the strength to leave right now. And the omnipotent gods refuse to answer my prayers. Does this mean I've lost the right to communicate with them? I dare not think so. I have always been a devout believer in the great, one and only god; my faith has never wavered, and I have always been proud of it. So why are the gods unwilling to answer my call now? Is this also a test for me? Only by overcoming this obstacle can I regain the gods' trust?

I don't know what to say... but I think I'd better keep praying. What that woman did to my body, I'm only now beginning to feel it. It's a strange feeling, and I can't bear to think about it anymore. I must pray and hope that God will forgive me.

October 6th.

Today I wasn't treated like that again, and I wasn't locked in the dungeon anymore. Instead, I was taken to a luxurious room. It was far more extravagant and magnificent than I had imagined. Even my room in Dideyasi Castle paled in comparison. It was so comfortable, so warm. This made me very happy... although I knew it didn't necessarily mean anything good, and that this might be the beginning of another nightmare. But I still seized the time to recover my strength. My divine power was recovering very slowly; the torment day after day had left me with insufficient time and energy to regain my strength. But now was an opportunity. I had never given up on escaping, although I knew very well that with my current strength, I couldn't defeat those two evil and terrifying beings. But this was just the beginning. I did not yield, and I would never yield... If they thought they could force me to submit in this way, they were sorely mistaken.

I continued to pray, yearning for a divine response. But I received nothing. I understood that my current behavior was utterly unbecoming of a saint; I had actually spread my legs in front of others, committing such a shameful act... At that moment, I almost wanted to end it all. However, I still did not choose death. No matter what, I would not compromise and give up my life. Although their methods were cruel and terrifying, I gradually developed resistance. I was no longer as agitated and angry as I had been at the beginning. I had to control my emotions to thwart their conspiracy.

Night had fallen, and after a day of prayer, I felt utterly exhausted. But... for some reason, my body felt strange. A fire seemed to burn within me, preventing me from sleeping peacefully; I could only toss and turn in bed... I got up again and wrote down my current state. Although I had secretly used holy magic to examine my body, I found nothing amiss. Had Angela's terrible methods truly left an unforgettable mark on my body? No, pull yourself together, Catherine! You are the first princess of Dideyasi, the saintess of the Temple, and you are even more... (omitted). Remember your name, the honor of sharing it with Catherine, one of the legendary Five Heroes, who destroyed an evil Magic Empire and remained unfazed even in the face of hundreds upon hundreds of evil mages. How could you lose to her? Know that you are facing only one evil mage! If you lose, you will tarnish the name of your ancestors!!!

October 7th.

I... I don't know what to say. I actually became addicted to those shameful and wicked actions, experiencing that pleasurable, wicked feeling! How did I become like this? I actually willingly performed those lewd acts for them to see. Is this still me? Is this really me? What am I thinking? Why did I do that? I don't know, I don't even know my own thoughts. I don't understand my own body anymore. Is this still my body? It's so sensitive, so... addictive. I have to admit, it feels really good, although the realization that they're watching makes me very sad, but... I always feel like there's some other, inexplicable emotion stirring deep within me. I don't seem to mind others seeing my body? How is that possible? No, this is some kind of illusion. As evil sorcerers, they must have countless ways to tempt me. Catherine, you absolutely cannot give up now. This is just their trick; you absolutely cannot lose... They only intend to use you and control you. Today's actions weren't a temptation; yes, it was merely a compromise. Since they didn't put me in jail, a few concessions to express gratitude are necessary.

Yes, this was just a concession, a statement of attitude, not a compromise... Almighty God above, I really can't imagine what Herbert's reaction would be if he saw me like that. It would surely make me die of shame! If I had a knife, I would definitely kill myself!

Calm down, Catherine. These are all illusions. You can overcome this. You absolutely can overcome this. You cannot lose. You cannot give up hope...

October 8th.

Today was truly exhausting. Miss Angela seems to know my body inside and out; even a gentle touch sends me into a state of blissful ecstasy from which I can't escape. I sensed something was amiss. I had thought my willpower would be stronger. But as I reached that trance-like state again and again under Miss Angela's caresses, I felt myself becoming somewhat accustomed to, even expecting, this treatment. I will never admit to this, not even as I write it down... After all, I only love one person, I only want my body exposed to that person, and I could never expect someone to touch my body like this, absolutely not!!

But then, an opportunity arose.

As I left, I overheard Miss Angela's conversation with the evil sorcerer. They seemed to have something to do, and the priest who always accompanied me was also being sent away. This was a good sign. These past few days, I had been diligently observing my surroundings; the security here didn't seem as tight as I had imagined. Besides the four of them, I hadn't seen a single guard. Could it be that they were the only inhabitants here? In any case, I wouldn't give up this opportunity. I had already devised a plan and was just waiting for the moment to execute it. If it succeeded, I could regain my freedom. Even if I failed, it wouldn't matter. Even being killed or eaten by wild beasts would be far better than this. If things continued like this, I couldn't guarantee that my soul wouldn't fall into the Abyss of evil. Almighty God, I beg for your help, I beg for your mercy, your most faithful subject...

(The handwriting here begins to become blurry)

My escape attempt failed.

I don't know if Miss Angela did it intentionally or unintentionally, but it's clear my escape plan has failed. I think perhaps she's been watching me all along; it couldn't be a coincidence... I don't know what to say, but I've lost all hope now. Maybe I should consider... No, no, no, I absolutely won't consider it. I still have hope, I will never give up hope, even if my body betrays my will, I myself haven't betrayed it! There's still time, I still have time, I will never give up!!

October 9th.

Today, that evil sorcerer finally took over Angela's job and started dealing with me personally. I... I'm angry, but useless. I just... again and again, it felt so good that I couldn't resist. I even felt my soul completely melt into my body. It was such a wonderful experience. Do all women have this experience? Was I too stupid before? If this is really a reaction every woman has, was my attitude a bit too extreme? Could it be that the girls I met in the Temple... did they do this too? They seemed innocent and naive on the surface, but in private, did they also, like me, touch their own bodies naked to obtain pleasure? Could it be that what I've seen all along isn't their true nature? Or are all women in the world like this...?

What's wrong with me? Why am I thinking about these things? But then again, I feel like it's no big deal. I pray every day, but I haven't received any response from the gods. This would have been absolutely impossible before, but now it's a reality—I've been abandoned by the gods. My future is completely uncertain. I don't know what to do. I don't know if I should continue like this... Perhaps, I should continue like this?

No, no, no, no, absolutely not, Catherine, you absolutely cannot give up! You still have a chance, you still have time, you cannot give up! For your sake, and for that hero's honor, you must persevere... keep going! You absolutely cannot lose...

But that feeling was truly intoxicating...

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"Cough cough... cough...!!"

Cathe suddenly turned her head and forcefully vomited the white liquid in her mouth. She gasped for breath, trying to get some fresh air.

"Useless."

Angela, frowned slightly.

"Is that all? This is only the beginning... How useless. You've wasted so much time. There's a limit to how much trash you can use."

"But, this..."

Staring at the horrifying object before her, Catherine was at a loss for words. It was the first time she had observed a male phallus so closely, making her incredibly embarrassed and ashamed. And Angela was actually asking her to serve this hideously ugly thing with her mouth— Catherine was utterly speechless. Although she ultimately obeyed Angela's demands with all her might, her reluctance and complete unfamiliarity with the procedure resulted in rather poor technique. However, Li Lin quickly taught her in a simpler and more direct way—he roughly pressed Catherine 'Catherine head down, forcefully thrusting back and forth, finally ejaculating in her mouth. This caused Catherine immense discomfort, almost suffocating her.

"Useless woman, it seems my training must continue."

Angela coldly stared at Catherine, who was sprawled on the ground, barely able to stand, and snorted icily. Catherine, at that moment, didn't even have the strength to argue; she could only gasp for fresh air. In any case, that terrifying feeling was definitely not a pleasant experience for Catherine. She couldn't understand why she had suddenly entered such a horrifying "tutorial" today.

"I'm nowhere near as good as you."

After straightening his clothes, Li Lin coldly stared at the girl in front of him and spoke to Angela.

"However, her efforts are still commendable."

"Then please, Master, do as you please. I assure you, she will satisfy you."

Angela's lips curled into a mocking and excited smile as she gazed at Catherine, who lay sprawled on the ground. Li Lin said nothing more, and soon, at his summons, the dark tentacles reappeared, tightly binding Catherine's body and once again restricting her freedom.

"Waaah... waaah..."

Slippery, foul-smelling, and jet-black tentacles easily breached Catherine's defenses, penetrating deep into her mouth. At this moment, Catherine had completely given up on resisting; she merely twisted her body, emitting indistinct moans, seemingly trying to say something. Facing Catherine like this, Angela sneered and casually swung her long whip.

"Smack!!!"

With a crisp crack of the whip, a clear welt immediately appeared on Catherine's snow-white body.

"Struggling is useless. Just practice your skills here. When you can satisfy these tentacles, then you will be qualified."

"Waaaaah..."

Catherine said nothing more. Her body stopped writhing, and then Catherine closed her eyes and began to concentrate on doing as Angela. She knew very well that resistance was pointless; at this moment, cooperation was her only option.

I have been abandoned by the gods.

Licking the repulsive behemoth in the air with fervor, Catherine opened her eyes, gazing hopelessly at the man standing before her.

Is this really all my future can become?