Memories of the Past

She was always an awkward girl, growing up in an orphanage and surviving in this world through her own efforts. Those annoying guys always said she was like a hedgehog.

To say she's like a hedgehog is because everyone who tries to get close to her gets pricked. A beautiful girl from an orphanage, powerless and vulnerable, is always a target of malice. She has to protect herself with her quills. The orphanage she first stayed in wasn't much better; everyone wore a mask of falsehood. The kind and gentle director was only interested in the benefits her looks could bring, and those who frequented the place coveted her future. So she escaped the orphanage and wandered the world, her quills growing ever sharper.

It was during this time that she wandered to her current orphanage. The old director took her in and provided her with a place to live. She became the oldest child in the orphanage. The needles on her body, besides protecting herself, would also hurt other children who wanted to get close to her...

She didn't want it to be like this; she also wanted to be a good older sister in the eyes of the children. However, the thorns that had long covered her body were preventing her from getting close to other people.

Then one day, when she woke up from her dream, it was almost dusk. The children around her said that she had been very gentle that day, played many games with them, and helped the old director clean the orphanage.

Does she have it? Why does she have absolutely no recollection of it?

After many twists and turns, she finally discovered another "her" inside her, the one who, in her eyes, was weak, easily bullied, and silent... unexpectedly popular with the children...

Or perhaps, "her" personality, her behavior... were just like the image I had once imagined...

That's not bad either. Whether it's "she" or "she" in the end, they're both "seele," and occasionally "she" will become firm, forcing herself to tell stories and play games with the children...

Although she always says at that time, "A bunch of childish guys playing boring games," why do those little brats look like they're used to it when she says that?! What exactly does the other her do while she's asleep?!

That's what they say, and if life continues like this, it's not so bad...

However, fate is always prone to unexpected twists and turns. This was something she heard from a certain dead man when she was still a god. At that time, he was reading a book and seemed to be deeply moved by these words... Yes, at that time, he had already lost his comrade-in-arms with whom he had spent every day, that shameless woman with silver hair was also dead, and he himself had lost the right to sleep, and could only pass the time by reading every night...

Fate... what a hateful thing.

In one night, everyone in an orphanage, except for her, died in the disaster known as the "Sixth Great Honkai." As a survivor, she had no choice but to accept the arrangements of the rescue workers and go to another unfamiliar city to start a new life in an unfamiliar environment.

The other "she" seemed to have something to tell her, but in the end, "she" said nothing. She just spoke less and less, and her voice became less and less outward. "She" became more and more silent.

Of course, "she" had such a weak personality, she was definitely more unable to accept the death of others than herself. At that time, she did not know what "she" was carrying for her.

She thought she was protecting "her" and felt that she could handle the unfamiliar environment, so she didn't ask any more questions about what had happened.

Then she encountered that weirdo who called himself a "disaster victim investigator." What a strange person! The first time they met, she thought he was a thug and slapped him across the face. A normal person would either be furious or walk away. But this guy just stood there trying to reason with her.

She spoke at this moment, "He is a kind older brother."

What a load of rubbish, it's just a piece of wood.

Later, this guy helped her fight off the thugs who came to cause trouble. Because her personality was incompatible with the other students in the class, some girl with a fragile self-esteem found thugs to "teach her a lesson." In the end, the thugs failed to teach her a lesson and instead got beaten up by the guy who was unarmed.

That guy... he's also an arrogant guy, and there will be even more trouble later... she thought to herself at the time, and couldn't help but feel a little resentful towards this meddlesome guy. Moreover, wasn't the timing of his appearance too inconvenient? Was he following her?

"Consider this an apology for my impetuousness during our first meeting. I will resolve this matter completely," he said.

"Are you stalking me?"

"Don't do that, this older brother is a good person," another version of her thought to herself.

"Shut up. Haven't you been quieter lately? Why are you talking so much again when you're with this person?" she thought to herself, starting to feel a little annoyed, and then "she" fell silent again.

"If that's what you think, then so be it. As a victim of the disaster, my task now is to observe whether your life has been significantly affected." The guy said without any regard for his nasty attitude. "Let me make this clear beforehand: I have a girl I like, so I won't have those kinds of feelings for you. If you hate it, I only have this one week. After that, I'll leave this city. And, I'm not just observing you."

"Suit yourself, you busybody!"

As she said this, she turned to leave for her own quarters. After taking a few steps, she wondered if the man was still standing there, and whether her words had been a bit too harsh. She couldn't sense any malice or pity from him... What a strange person.

She turned to chase the guy away, since he'd said he wasn't just observing her... and then, before she knew it, he was already gone...

At that moment, she felt like she wanted to say something, but didn't know what to say. She wondered why he walked away so fast, but then she thought, isn't this exactly what she wanted him to do?

So annoying! So annoying!

Later, the two met a few more times, and she got to know this simpleton better. Although he was quite annoying in his daily life, she didn't dislike this kind of life.

But this kind of life only lasted for a week... Moreover, "she" became more and more silent. Before, I could chat with "her" for a while at night, but soon "she" would only come out when that guy appeared.

"You like him, don't you?"

"Actually, you like him too, don't you, my other self?"

"Who would like this guy!" she thought to herself, jumping up and down in frustration.

The next time they met, this guy was talking to his teacher Daniel. She had walked right behind him, but he didn't seem to notice and was still chatting with Daniel.

"We should have greeted him first. He was chatting with the teacher, so it was hard for him to observe other places."

Why should I greet that guy! He's been out gallivanting somewhere yesterday, and he only has a week left; he doesn't even know where he's gone!

I put down my backpack and walked to the window in the corridor. I should still be able to hear them talking there.

"... Is that when a girl's period comes around every month?"

You're the one who just got your period! That bastard definitely doesn't have a girlfriend!

Calm down, calm down, calm down, or the older brother will find out we're eavesdropping.

"Maybe... By the way, Mr. Feng, have you ever been in a relationship?"

"No..." he seemed quite speechless about this, "But I have a girl I like."

"Is he/she your colleague?"

"... is my boss."

This guy likes girls older than him? I knew he wasn't a normal guy!

Her first thought about that guy's boss was that he was an old woman, since most of the high-ranking people she had met were older.

That guy didn't show up all day, and she didn't pay much attention to her studies anyway, since her grades were always excellent. That night, she returned to her apartment and saw that guy, who hadn't appeared all day, standing at her apartment door.

"Hey, busy man, what are you doing here?" The tone became sarcastic. "You haven't finally revealed your perverted nature and are planning to steal my things, have you?"

But we were all clearly very happy.

I didn't!

Then, her gaze fell on the cake that the guy had placed in front of his door. That stubborn, blockhead-like man never disappointed.

It was a cake he gave himself. He thought she needed to go to class in the morning and he couldn't disturb her studies, so he came over in the evening. She subconsciously asked him to take the cake away. Birthdays and such... she hadn't celebrated one in a long time... because she didn't need to.

Moreover, she saw it: when he spoke of the girl he liked, his eyes were incredibly firm, and his tone became remarkably gentle... He genuinely liked that girl...

"I'm so lucky..." she thought to herself unconsciously.

"This is what I gave you, it's yours now. You can do whatever you want with it, or throw it away if you want," he said. "At least, in my opinion, a birthday should be celebrated. After all, it's your day."

The cake tasted... not bad, not too sweet.

Later, he died, and "she" also fell completely silent. It was only then that she realized that "she" had taken the brunt of the "Honkai" in her place so that she could spend more time with him as a "human".

As the waves crashing against her mental world surged forward, the girl reached out and used her will to construct one defensive barrier after another. Her memories of her previous life as a "human" ended there. In the days that followed, "she" completely disappeared. She could only fight against the Honkai waves with her own will, while also escaping the pursuit of those incomprehensible individuals.

When she could still maintain her human will, she saw him appear once again.

"SEELE is SEELE, Sixth Herrscher is the Sixth Herrscher." He said this calmly, just as he had when he spoke of the girl he liked.

But... she had already murdered many of his colleagues, including possibly the girl he liked... and at that time, she... was finding it increasingly difficult to suppress the urge to destroy everything...

She had no choice but to leave.

"I wonder which one he likes, the silver-haired one or the pink-haired one." The girl muttered to herself, looking at her left hand which was gradually becoming transparent. "The pink-haired one... that's probably unlikely. In the end, he didn't even want to look at her anymore. The silver-haired one... it should be the silver-haired one..."

She looked down at the surging waves at her feet. In her previous life, it was "she" who bought her time to get along with the person "she" liked, even though "she" could have done better than her. Isn't a girl like "she" the more popular type?

Anyway, since the main personality is himself, "she" absolutely cannot go against him this time. As long as he doesn't make a sound, it's fine. She is just a secondary personality and cannot force him to show himself.

Besides... she is the main personality, so she will definitely last longer than she did in her previous life!

Beyond the waves, she vaguely saw a blurry figure of similar build to herself—this was the same person from her previous life... like a mirror image of herself or something, appearing before her and merging into her body. She felt she was still herself, yet somehow, she also felt somewhat different...

She gradually lost the urge to destroy everything.

Beyond the world of mental images.

"Could this be considered our first experience obtaining Herrscher's body before becoming Herrscher?" Zhu Yufeng looked at Elysia and Lilith. SEELE is truly amazing, resisting the Honkai for so long with her own willpower... Himiko became the Seventh Herrscher at the same time as the Seventh Great Honkai. Himiko is a battle-hardened warrior with a strong will, so how come she couldn't withstand it? Does the personality split have a restraining effect on the Honkai?

Of the three Herrscher the Present besides SEELE, two didn't sense anything, only knowing they were Herrscher. The remaining one, which is myself, doesn't even know how I became Herrscher in the first place... It's like entering a password, and then logging in with the correct password...

But he did feel that he had forgotten the memories of when he became Herrscher... Is the Imaginary Tree really that boring?

Zhu Yufeng thought to himself, then looked at Seele, who had come over and confessed everything to him, and hesitated for a moment before saying, "Regarding this issue, we may need to find a professional. Fortunately, we happen to have one here."

For example, Mobius.

(Mobius: Do I have to work overtime again?)

Previously, Seele had come looking for him, saying he had something he needed to say to him alone. The soldier who came to deliver the message looked at him with a look that practically said, "You're really something."

It took some time to explain that everyone had memories of their past lives.