Extra: If Xia Yan Became a Girl 30

Even if Hua Xin racked his brains, he would never have imagined that he could see it with his own eyes... no, actually, he should say personally experience a scene that seems to only exist in anime and novels.

Whether it was fantasy or wishful thinking, he never imagined that a shut-in like himself would one day experience things that only popular, handsome guys could have.

Whether it's whispering "I love you" to a beautiful girl who wants to never leave her, or taking that most intimate step between a man and a woman.

These are all things that Hua Xin could never obtain.

As the saying goes, a sewer rat should stay in the sewer.

This is not a statement with a strong derogatory meaning.

Because rats that live in the sewers year-round are safe, without natural predators on the ground or many unknown and sudden accidents such as cars suddenly driving by, pedestrians who hate rats, or Hachimi who has been lying in wait for a long time.

This is closely related to their survival rules, because apart from the necessary foraging to sustain life, they no longer need to have much contact with the outside world, which greatly reduces the danger and increases the probability of survival.

Similarly, this also applies to Hua Xin.

Although Xia Yan's plan and guidance have changed him a lot compared to before, making him much more handsome, he is no longer as afraid of the outside world as if he were facing a flood or a beast. In fact, girls have been asking for his contact information and secretly praising him for being handsome.

But the sewer rat belonging to "Hua Xin" remained unchanged in its heart.

No matter how handsome or popular he is, the lingering shadow will always affect him.

Just like no matter how beautiful a pheasant is, it can never truly become a phoenix.

Hua Xin wasn't resigned to being a sewer rat for life, nor was she indifferent to the many things she had gained after the change, it's just...

He feared that the real Hua Xin would overturn everything.

Hua Xin lacked the courage and confidence to continue being a handsome guy like Xia Yan, a successful and popular person. She didn't even know when the slander and ridicule from certain people would wipe out all the self-esteem she had painstakingly built up.

He once wanted Xia Yan to forget him.

Because he and Xia Yan were essentially from two completely different worlds. Xia Yan possessed a handsome appearance, a muscular physique, an excellent personality, and the drive to accomplish many things...

Everyone likes her and relies on her; no one would feel annoyed by her.

And Hua Xin, and him.

She's just a stinky rat hiding at home, unwilling to face anything, wanting only to escape reality and live in her own world.

Even if he were to die any moment, probably no one would remember him. He would only be discovered when his body rotted and began to stink, and then he would simply be disposed of and disappear without a trace.

But Xia Yan did not give up on him because of this, even though they were at opposite ends of the spectrum at that time.

Xia Yan is just as her name suggests; she is a person who exists with warmth like the sun.

Hua Xin had already rotted and was unable to bloom again, nor could she escape the devastating cold.

This is why Hua Xin is still in this world.

Because he still has bonds he can cherish.

Even sending him short videos, playing games with him, or chatting with him makes Hua Xin feel that he is still a person living in this world, rather than some ghost or resentment.

It was only after the bizarre events that happened to Xia Yan that Hua Xin realized with astonishment that she was also Xia Yan's only friend.

What the heck...

It turns out that even those who appear glamorous and well-liked are actually just as lonely as he was.

At that moment, Hua Xin couldn't quite find the words to express her feelings.

It could be joy, it could be emotion, or it could be a feeling of empathy, like when they were children and supported each other for warmth.

He knew that Xia Yan had never given up on him.

For Hua Xin, the fact that she was the first person he thought of in this situation was already a tremendous affirmation and the highest recognition of their friendship.

So what if I become a girl?

Hua Xin thought to herself, "Protecting her like this is probably better than me dying a pathetic Zisha."

Since he hasn't forgotten Xia Yan, it means that this might be an opportunity given to him by fate to repay Xia Yan for her care and help from childhood to the present.

Hua Xin neither knew nor could empathize with Xia Yan's feelings and consider whether she would fall in love with someone else in the future or want to live alone. All he could do was to make Xia Yan as strong as before and have the confidence to live on.

He never seriously considered becoming that person.

However, Hua Xin was willing to make changes for the sake of this friendship, at least that would make Xia Yan happier.

Therefore, he was willing to take that step to accept the outside world, and was willing to follow Xia Yan's instructions and plans to grow step by step, even in the face of many things he was afraid of.

For example, going to school, or talking to strangers.

Not long ago, Xia Yan said that she actually liked herself very much.

It could be the liking between friends for their personalities and how they get along, or it could be the romantic liking between a man and a woman.

Xia Yan appeared very resolute, as if he had already made a major decision in his mind, and he did not hesitate at all when faced with this matter, showing great decisiveness.

In a way, this is very Xia Yan.

She is always so decisive and willing to take action. Just like when they were kids, when several people bullied them, she dared to go up and punch them twice.

Was it to comfort her? Or was it because the appearance of Lin Qingyu or other girls made her feel uneasy?

Because Hua Xin was also afraid that Xia Yan would give up on becoming friends with her, she naturally noticed this as well.

Hua Xin was unaware of, and had no time to consider, these aspects.

A soft body, smooth skin, a voice suppressed to the point of whispering, and an unwavering effort to dominate—the union of body and soul left only the sound of panting in the room.

Even though she's now a woman, she's still just as assertive.

Before Hua Xin could even savor this delightful feeling, her body, along with the girl on top of her, became tired and limp.

He wanted to respond to her.

She also wanted to tell her that even if this hadn't happened, Hua Xin would have always been there for Xia Yan.

I like you too.

Hua Xin whispered in the girl's ear.