I'm Not Him! Qian Renxue Goes Mad in Despair!

A locked room.

Additional meals.

A living, breathing person was simply erased from all the official records of the Spirit Hall for an entire year.

Qian Renxue's breathing began to become rapid and hot.

She was almost trembling as she continued searching.

When Qian Renxue found the records about Bibi Dong again.

It has been a full year since then.

That record was chillingly brief.

"Bibi Dong reappeared before the world, her personality drastically changed, becoming cold, tyrannical, and completely different from before."

At the end of that record was a date.

That date was less than half a month apart from Qian Renxue's birth date!

An underground chamber!

Disappeared for a year!

A complete change in temperament!

My own birth!

These clues, like needles coated with deadly poison, pierced Qian Renxue's brain!

No logic was needed to connect them; they themselves pieced together in her mind a picture of the most filthy hell!

Boom--!

Yesterday, at the restaurant entrance, her grandfather Qian Daoliu's face, filled with grief, indignation, pain, and self-reproach, suddenly appeared before her eyes.

That curse-like phrase exploded in her ears!

"... You're not even as good as an animal!"

They're worse than animals...

Why?!

Why did she initially think that statement was slander?!

Everything is connected.

That deliberately buried, unseen darkness no longer needs any direct description in words.

It crawled out of hell itself!

From Qian Renxue's throat came a short, mournful cry that was neither human nor human, somewhere between a sob and a roar.

The papers in his hand fluttered and scattered all over the ground.

Her father, whom she had been proud of for twenty years.

That hero who died fighting for the glory of the Spirit Hall.

That was the greatest and most sacred idol in her heart.

It turns out...

He actually did something to his own students that... something even an animal wouldn't do!

He imprisoned her in a dark, sunless underground!

He forcibly defiled her!

He ruined her future!

He ruined everything she had!

Then...

And then, I came to be.

This bastard child of mine... carrying that other person's bloodline!

"Vomit--"

A wave of intense nausea surged up from her stomach, and Qian Renxue grabbed a nearby pillar and began to gag violently.

She vomited nothing, only sour bile burning her throat with a fiery pain.

"Ha... haha... hahahaha..."

Qian Renxue smiled.

She slowly slumped down, leaning against the cold wall, laughing until tears streamed down her face.

The laughter was hollow and desperate, echoing in the deathly silent corridor like the wailing of a vengeful ghost.

She finally understood.

She understood everything!

Now I understand why Bibi Dong hated herself so much!

For her, knowing her own existence was a constant reminder, a bloody scar that would never heal!

Now I understand why that man in the Maple Dye Pavilion said her understanding of the truth was too narrow!

Now I understand why that man said that if she were in that situation, her fate might be even worse Bibi Dong's!

Yes.

Unbearable.

It's more than just unbearable!

If it were me, I probably would have gone mad long ago! I would have committed suicide in that dark and sunless underground prison!

And that woman, she actually... pulled through.

What kind of overwhelming hatred could have driven her to get to where she is today?!

"Why..."

Qian Renxue hugged her arms tightly, her body trembling violently from immense grief and self-loathing.

Why...?

Her pride, her glory, her bloodline and dignity as a descendant of angels.

At this moment, this cruel truth shattered everything, turning everything into dust!

She wanted to cry.

I want to cry out loud, to release all the grievances and misunderstandings I've endured over the past twenty years, along with the truth that's crushing my soul.

But she couldn't cry.

That pride, deeply ingrained in her bones and inherited from the Qian Family and Bibi Dong, was like an invisible shackle, tightly gripping her throat.

She just smiled.

His shoulders trembled with laughter, he laughed almost maniacally.

He laughed at himself for being such a huge fool.

She laughed at herself for having once harbored resentment towards her mother for not loving her.

She laughed at herself for using the cruelest, most hurtful words to tear open her bloodiest wounds in the restaurant yesterday.

"... a young, unmarried woman."

At that moment, Qian Renxue finally understood.

Yesterday at the restaurant, in order to embarrass her and make her back down, I casually uttered the words "young maiden," how vicious that was!

What a cruel and insidious attack!

This is proof of her sin, this product born of defilement, who personally mocks her mother as a "withered flower."

There is probably no knife in this world more cruel and vicious than this.

In a daze, Lin Feng's indifferent voice echoed in Qian Renxue's mind again.

"Before you sincerely apologize to the other person and obtain her forgiveness..."

"You are not permitted to dine at this establishment."

Apologize...

Forgive...

Qian Renxue's lips curled into a smile that was more painful than tears.

Such a filthy version of myself.

To think that I could utter such vicious words.

Is there really... any chance of being forgiven?

She didn't even need to put herself in his shoes.

She only needed to look at those files, at the figure of a girl struggling desperately in a dark, secret room behind those lines of cold text, and she would know the answer.

If it were me...

She's probably gone mad long ago, and would personally sever all traces of that nightmare in the world.

Including this bastard child that shouldn't have been born!

How can there be any talk of forgiveness?

That's the most ridiculous wish in the world.

Let's end it like this...

Qian Renxue slowly closed her eyes, a sense of relief quietly growing in her heart.

But.

Just moments before she was about to succumb to endless darkness.

Another figure suddenly appeared in her mind.

That was yesterday, when Bibi Dong staggered out of the hotel, her eyes red with tears, filled with endless sorrow and despair.

"Why do you, the Qian Family, always want to destroy me?"

"Always trying to stop me... from my path to happiness?"

That question, choked with sobs, was like a red-hot iron, searing Qian Renxue's heart, making her tremble and abruptly open her eyes!

Yes.

She ruined herself too.

Yesterday, I destroyed with my own hands the sliver of "happiness" that she had so painstakingly grasped.

What difference is there between myself and that beastly father?

No!

No!!!

A crazy idea, like a lightning bolt tearing through the darkness, exploded deep within her soul!

I can't change the past!

I cannot change the fact that I am proof of that sin!

But!

But!!!

I can prove that I am not him!

I am not something that is even worse than an animal!

Qian Renxue suddenly opened her eyes.

In those once dull and lifeless golden eyes, all the confusion, all the pain, and all the self-loathing ignited at this moment!

Ultimately, it burned into an unprecedented, pure, and fanatical obsession!

Her father gave her life.

But it also burdened her with a lifetime of sins.

Her life should never have existed!

Since that's the case!

"Oh..."

Qian Renxue let out a very soft, almost inaudible laugh.

There was no more despair in that laughter.

Only one kind of chilling, resolute relief remains.

She stood up shakily, her gaze falling on the gleaming knight's armor lying in the corridor beside her.

Her pale, distorted face was reflected on the chest of her armor, as well as the Six-Winged Angel statue behind her, a symbol of glory.

"A bloodline of sin... Martial Soul of glory..."

Qian Renxue suddenly raised her hand, without any Soul Power added, and slammed her fist hard into the distorted face on the armor!

Clang!

The chest of her steel armor caved in instantly, and blood gushed from the back of her fair fist.

The excruciating pain brought her a sliver of morbid clarity.

"Today!"

"I am Qian Renxue!"

"I will use this life that should never have existed in the first place! I will use this Angel Bloodline inherited from the Qian Family!"

"I'll go and reclaim the right to pursue happiness that I myself shattered!"