Hearing Xun Er's sincere praise and affirmation, Xiao Yi Xian was briefly stunned before exchanging a smile with her. Yet beneath that smile was more of a sense of reflection.
"You really know how to comfort people, Xun Er. This so-called virtuous wife is only because my abilities can only amount to this much." Xiao Yi Xian could feel the gap in strength between herself and Xun Er. It was an absolute difference in power that could not be bridged.
"I've been stuck at the Dou Zun realm for so long. Forget breaking through to Dou Saint—even reaching nine-star Dou Zun still feels impossibly far away. Since I can't help him bear too much of the pressure on his shoulders, I can only do what I can from the rear and protect this home for him."
"Fortunately, there's still you and Qing Lin. You're strong enough to help him on the battlefield."
"Sometimes, and I hope you won't laugh at me for this, Xun Er, but deep down, I'm selfish too. He's my only lover, and my entire heart is tied to him. Of course I long for him to pour all his affection into me, for us to be like the most ordinary married couple—one life, one love."
As she said this, Xiao Yi Xian's eyes were filled with deep affection. No one had ever needed to question her devotion or feelings for Xiao Yan.
"But with a place like the Heavenly Curtain this time, full of danger at every turn... if you hadn't been by his side, helping him face life and death, I wouldn't even dare imagine how worried I would have been, all alone in Starfall Pavilion."
"Sometimes, what I think about isn't anything else. I just hope that when you're there, you can help him.