Wouldn't that mean Fan Cang has collected the memories of countless God-Favored?
No wonder those God-Favored are so easily driven to madness.
No wonder Fan Cang said, "We are the same."
This "we" refers not only to her, but to all those God-Favored.
Song Xiaozhu felt a buzzing in her head as a jumble of chaotic images flooded her mind. She didn't have the memories of the other God-Favored, only those of Fan Cang. But even just Fan Cang's memories were enough to throw her into confusion.
The eldest son born in the Upper District of Ink City.
The only son of the head of the Fan Clan business empire.
A pampered young master.
They lived an extremely comfortable life in this post-apocalyptic wasteland civilization.
What does Fan Cang do every day?
They indulged in excessive eating, drinking, and merrymaking, living a life of extravagance.
The entire Upper District revolved around him; everyone coaxed and pampered him, giving him everything unconditionally and willingly letting him do as he pleased.
Song Xiaozhu felt her heart pounding...
They are so alike; Fan Cang's fragmented memories and Li Siyuan's are as if they were carved from the same mold.
What made Song Xiaozhu even more bewildered was that the Upper District of Ink City was almost exactly the same as the Upper District of Holy City, the headquarters of the Fan Clan was exactly the same as the headquarters of Han-Tang, and even the " Clouds " where Li Siyuan lived was exactly the same as the "Airship" of Fan Cang.
If I had to point out a difference, one is more feminine, and the other is more masculine.
Fan Cang? Li Siyuan?
Who is she?!
Song Xiaozhu suddenly understood Fan Cang's state of mind.
No wonder he was so obsessed with "truth," and no wonder he despised falsehood and lies.
It wasn't just a simple experience of " The Truman Show "; rather, after stepping out of the isolation zone, he saw countless versions of himself, countless similar memories, and experienced many " The Truman Show."
What is true, and what is false?
Different yet similar memories tangled wildly in my mind.
Song Xiaozhu only had two memories in her mind— Li Siyuan and Fan Cang —and she couldn't even tell which was which.
Fan Cang killed so many of the God-Favored; even if half of God-Favored similar memories, it would be enough to confuse him.
Which is true and which is false?
Or is it all a lie from beginning to end?
He was a fake from birth, everything around him was fake, he was a real person, but he played a ridiculous role, and as he grew up, he replicated similar lives.
Fan Clan does not exist...
The Feng Clan does not exist...
Gao Clan does not exist...
Did the Li Clan of the Han-Tang exist?
In fact, is there any truth left in this absurd world?
Break this damn world, and rebuild a real world.
This is Fan Cang's ideal, and the driving force behind his determination to win the battle for the God-Favored.
He had long sensed something fishy going on and knew that the person manipulating the entire battle for God-Favored was the mastermind behind it all.
All those God-Favored are merely pieces on a chessboard, black or white, manipulated at will by the one who moves the pieces.
What can we do?
What can a piece in a game of chess do?
Fan Cang chose to break with tradition.
He wants to capture all the pieces, break the entire board, and confront the player who holds the pieces.
The last piece of memory was deliberately left behind by Fan Cang before his death...
He knew that Song Xiaozhu would acquire his Heart of the Creator, and that she would see parts of his memories, so he left her "a letter" in this way.
Perhaps Song Xiaozhu will see it, perhaps she won't.
After all, fragmented memories are chaotic and disjointed, but fortunately, Song Xiaozhu was able to see them.
Fan Cang told her, "... Mu Qing didn't betray you. He was grateful to you for saving so many people. Even though he knew you were God-Favored, he wouldn't tell anyone... It was I who used the Soul Search Technique on him."
" Mu Qing was once an 'actor' too. When he was in the Upper City, he tried to rescue me when I was young. After he was discovered, his memories were altered, and he truly became Mu Qing, a ' Logger ' who ended up in the logging camp."
" Song Xiaozhu," Fan Cang said to her in a soliloquy, "Even memories can be fake, do you think there's anything 'real' left in this world?"
After saying this, a slight smile appeared on his lips, a hint of relief amidst his usual sarcasm.
He was tired.
I'm exhausted.
Fan Cang's consciousness plummeted into a pitch-black abyss.
Song Xiaozhu opened her eyes, her whole body drenched in sweat, as if she had been pulled out of the water.
" Xiao He."
"Um."
"I am Song Xiaozhu."
"Yes, you are Song Xiaozhu."
Hearing her voice, Song Xiaozhu's chaotic thoughts settled down, no longer a jumbled mess.
She is neither Li Siyuan nor Fan Cang. No matter how similar the memories are, they are not her memories. Just remembering this is enough.
Song Xiaozhu's memories were different from theirs; they had no resemblance whatsoever.
She's from another world, she... Song Xiaozhu paused, her mind suddenly going Blank.
What was she like before?
She remembers having parents and family, friends and colleagues, and even people with whom she had developed feelings.
But now everything is blurry, and I can't see it clearly no matter what I do.
" Xiaozhu!"
"..."
"You in the past defined you in the present, and you in the present are defining you in the future."
It took Song Xiaozhu a while to come to her senses. "I understand."
Xiao He's words calmed her down.
If I can't remember, I can't remember.
Clinging to the past can lead you astray.
These were not things she forgot on her own; rather, something interfered with them.
Just as Mu Qing's memories could be altered, her memories may have become blurred.
Having figured all this out, Song Xiaozhu was no longer confused—knowing it was a trap, she simply wouldn't fall into it.