Can a Thousand Lives Beat Honkai?
Chapter 471

I Will Give Myself an Answer, and Give Him One Too.

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While Fu Hua was caught in a dilemma, Eden on the other side was not entirely unaware of it.

As is widely known, Su Qing'an and Fu Hua's date vlog has consistently garnered significant online attention.

However, the core reason for this result is not due to the former's fame.

Due to the blurred perception of [Tibet], among the main characters in the date, only Fu Hua's face can be retained in the mind for a long time. Su Qing'an's appearance seems normal, but upon careful recollection, it is impossible to piece together her true appearance.

These preconditions meant that Su Qing'an's previously publicized popularity could not be fully translated into this series of vlogs. According to normal market operation principles, the popularity and number of likes of a video are determined to some extent by luck and the accumulation of fans over time, but the quality of the video itself can also play a role.

The vlog, created by someone who edited Prometheus's records purely out of interest, was thoughtfully edited with subtitles, background information, and character descriptions, while also incorporating her personal style and providing professional commentary.

However, compared to the mature industry chain and numerous excellent works on the market, it is clearly not enough to stand out from the crowd.

This vlog series stood out entirely because it capitalized on Eden's popularity in its own way.

Eden's studio and company have accounts on major video websites that were well-established before the Great Honkai.

Rather, it's more accurate to say that she owns shares in almost all of those websites.

It's easy to imagine the strange and unpredictable storm that would ensue if that person used Eden's account, which had been virtually inactive since the Seventh Herrscher incident, to collectively retweet this vlog.

Eden was not at all surprised by Elysia's actions. To use the other person's words, she enjoyed sharing her candy and happiness and didn't worry at all that they would lose their sweetness when shared.

The starlight will not be dimmed by shining on more people.

If asked about their reasons for doing such a thing, this highly personal statement would likely be their answer.

Although... it was a bit of an off-topic answer.

In short, this strange connection gave her a certain impression of the vlog's protagonist.

Even the fact that Fu Hua was Fusion Warrior was known beforehand because of Elysia's strange request.

She recalled the request she made after being swayed by that person while he held her arm after she had been drinking. A hint of helplessness crept into her usually indifferent expression, and her lowered eyes lifted slightly to meet his gaze.

The little girl's lips moved slightly, as if she wanted to say something but hesitated.

Immediately, a stream of shimmering blue data fell like a rain of light, and the outlines of figures slowly emerged from their fixed seats.

This signifies the official commencement of preparations for the meeting regarding this Rank A mission, with all soldiers capable of attending the main city's conference room now present.

Fu Hua abruptly withdrew her gaze from Eden, composed herself, and looked around at the rapidly overlapping virtual images of different locations, preparing to deliver her statement.

The meeting ended half an hour later.

Although some people might disagree with the captain's role in coordinating and assigning tasks, the initial Fusion Warrior were all outstanding soldiers selected from within the Moth to Fire. Obeying discipline was their duty and habit, and even if they had some opinions, they would not choose to disobey orders when carrying out missions and following routine commands.

So the meeting went very smoothly.

After all, this wasn't a mission involving their own life or death. As the only being who had some contact with the target, it wasn't unreasonable for Fu Hua to assign their respective areas and tasks based on Prometheus's calculations and her own judgment.

As for Shiyu Qiluo and Elysia's request, the two might have had the intention to fulfill it before the mission was explained, but after the missionary's harm and past crimes were made public, they had no further thoughts after entering their respective states.

Therefore, their interactions, apart from assigning tasks, were limited to the initial stages.

Having no idea about this yet, Shiyu Qiluo obviously had no way to accuse someone of their inaction.

However, since both are Fusion Warrior in the Australian region, they will temporarily team up as a team based on rational consideration.

In this situation, exchanging contact information is a perfectly normal and basic practice.

After a few more encounters, Shiyu Qiluo's wish was still fulfilled.

Inside Prometheus's mainframe, within a single mustard seed left behind in the Sea of Quantum.

"Settings complete. Is this your favorite scenery?"

Su Qing'an stood at the edge of the coastline, walking towards the distant reefs, his shadow stretched long and far by the afterglow of the twilight.

The sea is nearby.

A warm sea.

The boy waded through the shallow, surging tides, with a sea of clouds constantly drawing closer ahead. They pressed down on the shimmering surface like castles, as if in a gentle hymn.

He smiled and said softly:

"Yes, that's good."

"Mei, Prometheus, this is the gentlest place in my memory."

"St. Freya Academy, the seaside at dusk."

Mei's shadow fell on the shallow waters of the coastline, her leather boots treading on the soft, golden sand, as if one could sense the scattered warmth and beauty within that person's heart.

Before me lies the twilight where the sea meets the sky.

The sea reflects the light, carrying the thick and soft clouds. Continuous arcs of light illuminate everything, spreading out at the edge of the horizon. The wind whispers its secrets, as if conveying the trivialities of the future and the past.

She tossed aside her swaying black hair and asked:

"Is this the place where you and Miss Fu went to see the sea?"

The boy's upper body was already submerged in the Seawater, his soaked clothes heavy and cool. He gazed at the clouds that seemed within reach and whispered:

"Um."

"It wasn't a long time, yet it seems to have become somewhat unforgettable."

Mei watched his retreating figure and replied:

"Beautiful things are better when they become unforgettable."

She was silent for a moment:

"May I ask why Mr. Su agreed to leave his personal imprint?"

Su Qing'an replied:

"For me, leaving my own mark on this era is not a bad thing."

Mei shook her head:

"But it's not a good thing either. To replicate all memories and personality here, one would normally worry about losing any concealment or secrets, and having all the self-analysis laid bare before the eyes of those who come after or even before oneself. It can hardly be considered pleasant."

The boy turned to look at the slender figure. His eyes, gleaming golden in the sunlight and splashing Seawater, were vibrant and striking. He smiled and said:

"Dr. Mei, you have a flaw."

"You always categorize everyone else except Kevin into a different group, and you feel that no one else has any reason to, and would not, give you genuine trust."

"This is a bad habit."

Mei responded:

A person who remains absolutely rational under all circumstances will not gain genuine trust.

"They will be intimidated by this inhuman quality, which will lead to alienation and apprehension."

"Moreover, trust is always a two-way choice. Those who are always cautious and tread carefully cannot easily give their trust to others, and the consequences are predictable."

"But thank you for your suggestion anyway, I will consider making improvements."

Su Qing'an asked another question:

"Mei, have the events on the Mu Continent changed the internal state of humanity?"

The girl fell silent for a moment upon hearing this, her clothes fluttering in the wind, her eyes gazing straight ahead, seemingly reflecting a sky full of stars, possessing a vastness that encompasses all things.

"Mr. Su, the Mu Continent is both complex and pure."

"Its disappearance brought no good, not even any benefit in any sense."

Su Qing'an asked:

"Do you need my help?"

Mei shook her head and said seriously:

"Human beings have always been complex, even within the Moth to Fire there is much darkness. I don't want you to see that, Mr. Su."

"This is my atonement on behalf of humanity of this era for everything you suffered in the Canghai City incident."

The smile on Su Qing'an's lips was mixed with more complex emotions. He naturally knew that there was a reason why his initial special characteristics would allow him to live a uneventful life outside of the time spent fighting the Honkai, which was why he asked that question.

"That's none of your business, Mei."

She responded upon hearing this:

"This world has nothing to do with you. You just need to watch it decline and perish, find a way to go into hibernation, and wait for that era to arrive."

But you didn't do that.

"Even if this civilization triumphs, the civilization you know will never be born."

"Gentle and noble people never think about whether their actions will be rewarded, but bystanders who know everything may still do something within their power."

Su Qing'an was silent for a moment, then he said softly:

"This is also true for me."

"In my eyes, you and Kevin are both like this. You make people think, 'Oh, there are people like this in the world.' You make people wonder if it's too lonely for them to walk such a difficult path alone. You can't help but want to see how far these people can go. In the end, you feel that it would be good to be able to help them in any way you can."

"Dr. Mei, I am neither gentle nor noble."

"I often wonder if this era will become worse because of my arrival. Even though I have prevented the spread of Honkai several times, I cannot be sure whether the changes and butterfly effects I have caused will drown out more important things and erase more crucial opportunities."

"So in the end, in order to prevent the world from becoming worse because of me, I am destined to have no choice but to move forward."

"After Fuxi appeared, I wondered if her existence was a qualitative change resulting from the accumulation of all the distorted, subtle events I had caused?"

"If things really come to the worst, and I can't stop such a being even for a second, no matter how hard I try, everyone will die because of my arrival."

"I don't want anyone to die because of me. I loathe the continuation of tragedy and the arrival of the end times. I wish I could personally rectify this twisted mistake, but now I can only let you take responsibility and sacrifice for it."

The boy lowered his eyes and said:

"I'm sorry, Mei."

Mei reflected on his words and realized that although she had considered Su Qing'an's opinion of Fuxi, she had not taken into account that, given his personality, he would indeed see Fuxi's appearance as his responsibility.

If she had known beforehand, she might not have revealed her insights about Fuxi during the conversation.

Following this logic, the previous dialogue turned into a declaration of guilt.

The young female doctor calmly said:

"This is none of your business, Mr. Su."

"You cannot choose whether you come into this era, or rather, if you had a choice, no one would want to come into an era that is in this stage."

"Your self-blame and guilt are meaningless; they were never something you should have been burdened with."

"Furthermore, I have also said that Fuxi is a special being."

"Her appearance doesn't necessarily mean something bad. If we can gain leverage from her, we'll have a greater chance of becoming [players] and breaking free from the root of the Honkai."

"Taking on the risks and costs for this is a natural and Equivalent Exchange."

Su Qing'an remained silent. He did not deny Mei's words and believed that they made some sense, but he still felt guilty and remorseful.

The boy knew all too well what the best outcome would be for Mei after receiving such a convergence of information: her brain would suffer deep damage that even the Black Abyss White Flower could not cure, and her weaker constitution than that of ordinary people meant that there was no possibility of self-healing.

Perhaps the other person will die within the next few years.

Meanwhile, no one knows the extent to which this massive computation will damage brain regions.

Prometheus did not conceal his prediction of the outcome of this large-scale calculation. According to the data, the fact that she could spend the last few years of her life in the best possible condition would be considered the most gentle outcome.

On the other hand, Mei might resort to extreme measures to ensure that her research is not affected after she finishes the large-scale calculations—assuming she survives.

However, this young female scientist still could not guarantee the perfection of this measure, so the technology of preserving memories and personality had already emerged.

No matter how much optimization is done, conventional operations cannot perfectly reveal its limits.

The unconventional preservation methods and the procedures required are beyond the tolerance of a frail body.

Therefore, this plan, originally intended for her, was forced to be shelved.

The reason for bringing this up again with Su Qing'an now is simply to prevent what might happen if this civilization were to be defeated.

The era that the boy experienced already foreshadowed the defeat and decay of this civilization.

While the future is not necessarily static, it does illustrate just how terrifying and unreasonable the enemy humanity will ultimately face is.

If victory cannot be achieved this time, then the remaining chips will be saved for the next time.

Su Qing'an didn't want to delve into this topic further; doing so wouldn't solve the problem, but would only make the atmosphere more heavy. He said:

"I understand, Mei."

The boy then answered the initial question:

"You asked me earlier why I agreed to this experiment."

"If I had to give a reason, it would be quite simple."

"When I first came into this world, my memories from previous generations were blurry, and it wasn't surprising that all the memories of that generation had disappeared at that time."

"Although the problem did not escalate further, and the lost memories were fortunately restored, filling in the blurry blanks to their original state, it still made me realize that sometimes, even the past that we least want to forget may not follow our will and be remembered permanently."

There will always be misfortunes and accidents in this world that don't go as planned.

"Leaving my own imprint is like replicating and preserving all the beautiful and unforgettable memories. To me, this large installation is like a treasure box."

"Well, even if I may not have the chance to open it myself in the future, it's still a way to give myself peace of mind."

Therefore, I do not object to your proposed solution.

"On the other hand, I have received help from many people along the way. The skills and martial arts I have mastered today are all accumulated bit by bit with the help of those people."

"If there's an opportunity to help the warriors who will shoulder the responsibility of fighting the Honkai in the future, then it certainly wouldn't be a bad thing."

"From beginning to end, I had no reason to refuse."

Mei felt the cool sea breeze on her face. Gazing into the distance, she whispered:

"I see, that's exactly the kind of reason Mr. Su would give."

Su Qing'an said:

"So, have you thought it through?"

"Should we meet with him before conducting the experiment?"

The girl took off her boots, dipped her bare feet into the surging shallow tide, feeling the tactile sensation of the most beautiful scenes from the other's memory, and gave her answer:

"The three thousand clones you created are complete. The data calculation mechanism was implemented a while ago, and the energy transfer and compatibility experiments between the Herrscher Core and the Sea of Quantum have also been completed."

"Just as you said, I will go see him."

"Rational thinking is a mindset I've become accustomed to since the Great Honkai. It was originally just an excellent tool I created to achieve my vision, but it seems that once I remove this mask on this path, I'll revert back to the original Mei."

"I can't be sure if I could continue to shoulder this responsibility, nor can I judge whether I would be overwhelmed by my past actions."

"I cannot collapse until humanity achieves victory and the world attains peace."

"Mr. Su, before this...this is how I convinced myself."

"But later I realized that maybe I was running away, maybe I wasn't honest enough with Kevin or with myself."

"So I will meet with him to make sure that Mei is still Mei before I can be sure."

The boy turned and walked towards the deeper sea, his eyes lowered, his lips slightly parted, and he asked with a smile:

Will you give him an answer?

Mei reached out and shattered a sliver of light, scooped up some Seawater, and whispered:

I will give myself an answer.

"... Give it to him too."

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