Chapter 585

Because.

Because...

Because I feel lonely.

So the world is like a harsh winter, cold and biting.

Volume Four Does This Count as a Magical Girl??: Chapter 93 Haihara Lily Chou

Haihara never really liked her name.

Because of her plain and uninteresting appearance, and her gloomy and inconspicuous presence in a crowd, yet she has such a princess-like name, people occasionally mock her for it.

It's so hard to talk about.

Haihara has always liked her name since she was little.

To be honest, this name is quite cute, like a princess's name, right?

Her parents named her that way because they considered her a princess and a gift from heaven.

If I were a prettier or more adorable person, having such a special name would surely make me very happy.

However, at some point, no one knew this name anymore.

Actually, she knew when it started.

"Mom, what kind of life will I have in the future?"

There's a tone of voice that Haihara has forgotten, a naive and innocent way of speaking like a little girl, or perhaps that's just how she always was, full of childish coquetry.

The woman who always had a gentle smile would look at her with doting eyes, reaching out to gently stroke her cheek, gliding over her soft, delicate skin.

"Has Lily never thought about what kind of life she wants to live?"

Back then, time always seemed to pass very slowly, everything moved at a leisurely pace, like being able to patiently listen to an entire lullaby.

As a child, Lily Chou would think with some melancholy and worry:

"I'm lazy and clumsy, I can't do anything right, I don't get along with people, and I'm not very pretty either. I'm so lonely at school. Will I always be lonely?"

As a child, Haihara was indeed a very bad kid.

Being alone always seems to be like this.

To say how lonely I was, it was just ordinary unpopularity; the loneliness wasn't particularly intense.

"Don't you have Mom and Dad? We'll always Lily you, Lily. We'll stay with you and make sure you don't feel lonely."

Those words made Lily Chou feel a little more relaxed and happy.

Will Mom and Dad always be by my side?

But she said something that put her mother in a difficult position.

The beautiful and gentle woman looked slightly troubled, pondering carefully how to answer.

In the end, the other party just smiled somewhat helplessly:

"... Well, we can't do that, can we? We can't be with you forever. One day, Mom and Dad will get old."

"Then what?"

"And then... we'll die? We'll never see each other again, the world will go completely black, we'll go to another world, or maybe nothing will happen."

Birth, aging, illness, and death are all perfectly normal things.

That Linglu, along with his eight children, knew from a young age that nothing in this world lasts forever.

But she didn't want to accept it:

"Why?"

Lily Chou said with dissatisfaction, revealing an angry expression.

"Lily?" The woman blinked in surprise.

"Why, why, why? Why?"

She couldn't understand at all, repeatedly asking why, and then, like any child throwing a tantrum, stubbornly making unrealistic demands and asking unmet questions:

"Why can't you stay with me forever? Why do you all grow old? Why do you leave me? Are you abandoning me? This is too much."

"I don't want to live alone. I might as well die when you all grow old."

She threw a tantrum and said things in a fit of pique.

But Lily Chou didn't see it as her being willful.

This world is too capricious.

Why go to such lengths? Why can't she have all the happiness in the world? Why can't her parents be with her forever?

This world is just too unreasonable.

At that moment, the woman who was always by Lily Chou's side, a woman with a pale complexion, wore an expression that was both amusing, joyful, and sorrowful.

She smiled gently, and that smile remained the most beautiful in Lily Chou's memory until later; nothing could replace it.

Even if we're gone, Lily won't be lonely.

That woman wouldn't use naive lies to deceive a child, because lies will always be exposed eventually.

"You're lying, you're all gone, and nobody will ever love me again."

Lily Chou felt so wronged she almost cried.

She was a very, very selfish little girl.

She only ever cries for her own sake, rarely showing pity or considering others. However, whenever she is in pain or hurt, she cries her heart out.

It's always been like this since I was a child.

The woman simply raised her hand, cradling the little girl's delicate, fragile, and adorable face, her eyes overflowing with tenderness, and said in a very, very gentle voice:

"Yes, it will, it definitely will."

"There will be someone who loves you, even when we're not here, even when you're Lily and terrible, even Lily you always make mistakes, even when Lily sometimes hurt others, there will always be someone who loves you."

"Because our baby is wonderful, in my eyes no one deserves to be loved more Lily."

"Wait patiently, never give up, and always believe."

Do you trust your mother?

The woman's soft, delicate fingers, conveying an incredible warmth, wiped away the tears from Lily Chou's eyes, and her face gently pressed against Lily Chou's, the foreheads of mother and child touching.

When the child felt that warmth, he calmed down a little, his face flushed slightly, and he responded with a soft hum.

"Hmm... I believe you."

The woman smiled happily and gently embraced Lily Chou, using her adult warmth to soothe Lily Chou's unease and confusion.

At the same time, she lovingly rubbed her face against the child's soft hair, inhaling the child's clean fragrance, and gradually felt at ease.

"And tell me, Lily, what's your full name?"

Lily said, not quite understanding:

"Haihara Lily Chou?"

"Hmm, with such a lovely, princess-like name, how could no one love you?"

Haihara Lily Chou.

Regardless, her name is Haihara Lily Chou.

It seems there are many other stories from the past.

It seems there's still so much to say, so many little things to recount; if we were to cherish those memories, we could never finish counting them all.

However, thinking about all of this seems to be enough.

Because even if it doesn't last forever, it's still okay.

That person said this to himself.

"We hope you live a life where you are loved and love others in return."

"I must, I absolutely must, live a happy and peaceful life."

A simple, happy life, filled with love.

It may be insignificant to some, but it is a luxury for others.

That's enough.

So, what kind of life have you led?

Whose voice is that?

His voice was low and aloof, like a snake's, but unlike himself, it could be described as melodious.

When Haihara looked ahead, she saw a pair of cold, Snake Eyes. For a long time, she had been afraid to see such eyes in the mirror.

She looked at the person with a calm expression, who was somewhat similar to her, yet completely different.

The world was almost pure white, like a blank White Paper without any wrinkles. The ground beneath my feet was as ethereal and clear as the sky, rippling with tiny waves and ripples.

The light was so bright it was almost blinding.

On the other side of Haihara Lily Chou is a woman with jet-black Feather Wing and a beautiful face that words cannot adequately describe. She has long, flowing silver-gray hair and deep purple eyes as dark as the Milky Way. She often sees this face in the mirror.

The ripples beneath their feet churned and distorted each other.

After hearing the question, Haihara Lily Chou thought about it carefully for a while before giving her answer.

"It seems my life wasn't as ordinary as you imagined. There were many ups and downs, and a lot of regrets. Sometimes I felt dissatisfied with everything, and in the end, I did something very similar to you."

"Although I received a lot of love, I was still insatiably craving more."

She gently rested her chin on her hand, as if summarizing her life, which had already begun some time ago.

In every sense of the word, it's a real pity that I didn't live the ordinary life I had hoped for.

Although for a long time in the first half of my life I was truly trapped by mediocrity.

I have also missed out on things that could never be recovered because of my ordinary powerlessness.

But, in the end, that's probably how it will be.

Everything must pass away, but it doesn't matter. She's not anyone special; at worst, she'll pass away one day along with them.

"Like?"

The silver-haired Witch, Lilith, looked puzzled.

"Yes, love, you've had plenty of it in the past, haven't you? But why do you still feel lonely?"

Haihara Lily Chou explained it as a matter of course.

There is no doubt that Lilith was loved. Whether Lilith needed it or not, and no matter how Lilith felt, if someone needed warmth, someone would offer it to them.

Lilith was certainly aware of this as well.

There seem to be many reasons.

Perhaps it would take a lot of words to explain, perhaps there are many feelings after such a long journey, but in the end she only said, as if in a dream:

I feel very sad.

"I still can't understand or accept it, and I still miss it terribly."

Everyone will die, everyone will betray me, everyone will leave me.

"A frail, ignorant life, like a bubble, will leave my side if I'm not careful."

Even Silver Feather is the same.

"She eventually left me too, and there will definitely be others in the future... but I'm tired."

That woman, until the very end, acted like a spoiled child, throwing tantrums and complaining.

Unable to accept the departure of others, and unable to accept the existence of regrets, that's why they did what they did.