Hearing this extremely sober self-awareness, the doubts in Bo Saixi's eyes deepened. "Since you know everything, since you know that it is your actions that have led to the current situation where everyone in the world is the enemy, then why do you continue to do this?"
"Why?"
Nan Feng seemed to have heard some extremely innocent joke. He asked Bo Saixi with a deep sense of powerlessness in his tone, "High Priest, after you have lived for so long, do you still think... that if you 'know', you will definitely be able to 'change'?"
"Do you think that as long as you stand up and show your heart to others, misunderstandings can be easily clarified?"
"Do you think that as long as you bow your head and admit your mistakes, the mistakes you have made can be smoothed over and corrected?"
"Do you think that 'acknowledging your mistakes and being able to correct them' can really win forgiveness and readmission from others?"
"Obviously not."
"I have never been a person who cares about face. In fact, as long as I give up my so-called dignity, I can really solve the problem and get a way out. I can kneel in front of anyone without hesitation and without any psychological burden."
"But the reality is not so naive. The reality is... once you are labeled as a 'monster' or a 'liar' in others' minds, anything you do will only deepen this prejudice!"
"If I choose to remain silent, they will think that I am very deep and secretly brewing a more terrifying conspiracy; but if I choose to cut my belly open and explain my original intention to them with all my heart..."
Nan Feng pointed at himself with great ridicule. "Then my final fate will be to become a miserable clown who is trampled on and laughed at for his weakness!"
"So, what else can I do?"
Nan Feng spread his hands, "I can only follow the 'monster' image in their eyes and go all the way to the dark side. I can only make mistakes again and again, using more terrifying means and more bottomless calculations than they imagined, to force them to surrender!"
"It's not that I don't want to look back, it's not that I haven't tried to look back."
"But this fucking reality doesn't give me a way to turn back! Even if I do turn around, no one will care, and it won't be of any use!"
Having said this, Nan Feng suddenly took a step forward, "Just like now."
"I have made it clear to you the purpose of my coming to Sea God Island. But, the high priest..."
"Do you really believe me now?"
Facing Nan Feng's questioning, Bo Saixi looked at him quietly.
The pair of deep eyes that were originally full of scrutiny and alertness were surprisingly calm at the moment.
The only sound left in the hall was the slight whimpering of the wind blowing through the stone pillars. After a moment of silence, Bo Saixi opened her red lips and uttered one word:
"Letter."
The air seemed to have completely frozen for a few seconds at this moment.
Nan Feng had originally prepared a lot of suggestions and ridicules to refute, but this light word was stuck in his throat. He looked at Bo Saixi blankly, and his infallible brain seemed to have experienced an extremely rare and brief downtime.
The next second, he subconsciously reached out and touched Bo Saixi's forehead.
Feeling the sudden warm touch of a man on his forehead, Bo Saixi also froze suddenly, and then subconsciously took a few steps back as if he was electrocuted!
A trace of surprise and embarrassment flashed across her face. She had lived for more than a hundred years, and this was the first time she had such unguarded physical contact with another member of the opposite sex!
In other words, no one in the past had the audacity to offend her, the Sea God high priest!
"You don't have a fever, do you?" Nan Feng's hand was still frozen in the air, with disbelief written all over his face, "Do you... really believe it?"
Bo Saixi took a deep breath, suppressed the strange ripples in his heart, and asked coldly, "Isn't it possible?"
"I believe that what you just said about loneliness and failure is true. I also believe that your core purpose of coming here Sea God Island is to be resurrected. But..."
Bo Saixi changed the topic, but his eyes were still sharp. "I also believe that under this truth, you must have something that you haven't told me in full."
Hearing this, Nan Feng suddenly laughed.
It was an extremely incomprehensible, even somewhat funny smile.
When people are struck by huge contrasts and don't know how to express the extremely complex, absurd and helpless emotions in their hearts, they often laugh instinctively.
He had calculated everything and predicted all of Bo Saixi's anger, suspicion and temptation, but he did not expect that the other party would say the word "faith" to him so easily.
"Why?" The smile on Nan Feng's face gradually faded, his brows wrinkled slightly, and his eyes were full of doubts, "How could you... believe me like this?"
Bo Saixi looked at him worried about gains and losses, and said calmly, "If you don't need a reason to doubt someone, then you don't need a reason to believe someone either."
"I think what you just said about yourself is credible, so I believe it. There is no reason why."
Nan Feng was completely silent.
He didn't know how to describe his current mood. In his perfect prediction, Bo Saixi should sneer at his words, should continue to be suspicious, and even fight him for 300 rounds. It is common sense.
In the end, she just... believed it so openly?
This feeling of punching Cotton, not only not being bounced back, but being accepted by Cotton with great tolerance, made him, a "monster" accustomed to calculating people's hearts, feel at an unprecedented loss.
Looking at Nan Feng who fell into a strange silence, Bo Saixi did not continue to press him.
She straightened out the priest's robes that were slightly messy due to the previous actions, and her expression regained the solemnity and solemnity of a high priest. "If you have gone through so much trouble, your real purpose is to reshape your body and obtain resurrection..."
"I can go and try to contact Lord Sea God for you now."
"Of course," Bo Saixi turned around and walked out of the hall, "The premise is that Lord Sea God is willing to answer my prayer."
After that, Bo Saixi left the room and walked towards the central hall, which is the core of Sea God Temple.
There, the statue of Poseidon is enshrined, as well as the artifact that symbolizes the absolute authority of the sea - Sea God Trident. It is also the absolute holy place where she listens to God's will and prays devoutly.
The next morning, the first ray of morning light filtered through the towering dome skylight of Sea God Temple and fell on the cold white jade floor like broken gold.
Bo Saixi After a night of prayer, he returned to this place Side Hall in the dim light of morning.
She originally thought that with this man's lawless character, even if he was forced to stay here, he would never be peaceful that night. He would turn Side Hall upside down and look for loopholes everywhere. However, when Bo Saixi opened the heavy palace door, the scene in front of her was completely beyond her expectation.
Nan Feng didn't run around or cause any damage.
He just quietly bent one leg and squatted in the deepest corner of the room very casually. His long dark purple hair hung slightly messily, covering most of his face. His double eyes of different colors, which were always full of aggression, calculation and unruliness, had completely lost focus at this moment, staring blankly at a seam of stone slabs on the ground. His whole person fell into an extremely deep daze, as if he was completely isolated from the whole world.
Seeing Nan Feng's quiet and even dazed look with all its spikes and disguises removed, Bo Saixi's eyes moved slightly and he stopped.
Looking at the lonely figure in the corner, the vague speculation in Bo Saixi's heart became more intense at this moment.
She suddenly felt that this "monster" who was full of arrogance and regarded the whole world as his enemy might be just a man who had been hurt too many times and suffered too many betrayals, so he had completely sealed himself in a thick layer of defense. He is just a pitiful person who is under preparedness. The more he uses the worst and most rogue means to push others away, the more he can't hide the feeling of bewilderment and confusion engraved in his bones when faced with an extremely unexpected but extremely pure "trust".
However, Bo Saixi did not open his mouth to pierce the window paper.
She has lived for more than a hundred years and is very aware of the complexity of human nature. For such an extremely sensitive and proud soul, once the last disguise he used to protect himself is exposed, it will only arouse his extremely strong defensive instinct and crazy backlash. She plans to continue to observe and see how honest this man really is.
Bo Saixi stepped lightly and walked slowly to Nan Feng.
It wasn't until the shadow of the high priest enveloped him that Nan Feng's dilated pupils gradually refocused.
"Lord Sea God... did not respond to me."
Bo Saixi did not say any comforting nonsense, but simply informed Nan Feng of the final result of the night of prayer.
"Oh."
Hearing this result, Nan Feng's eyes were not disappointed. After all, he had not expected it from the beginning.
"But..." Bo Saixi paused.
"If you really want to try to use the power of Sea God to reshape your flesh and blood body, maybe there is another way you can try."
Nan Feng raised his eyebrows slightly, changed into a more comfortable position against the cold wall, and raised his eyes to look at her. "What way?"
"Sacred Pillar Trial of Sea God Island."
Bo Saixi said, "This is the test for Lord Sea God to stay in the world. As long as you can successfully start the assessment through Sacred Pillar's approval, you can directly bathe in the real Sea God's Light."
"In that baptism of pure divine power... perhaps you can find an opportunity to reshape your body and be completely resurrected."