Unless You Are Ye Sijin

Liu Chang'an is eighteen years old this year.

She was once the fiancée chosen by her great-grandfather.

He was learned in both ancient and modern times, and was especially skilled in traditional literature.

He had a keen eye for fine food, which made Qin Yanan feel like she had found a kindred spirit.

His calligraphy is breathtaking.

He was skilled in both literature and martial arts, and even a renowned figure in the martial arts world like Pu Shougeng had no chance of defeating him.

Liu Chang'an is eighteen years old this year.

Qin Yanan glanced at her younger cousin in front of her and shook her head. She had been mentally and physically exhausted lately, and her physical and mental state was somewhat disordered. However, she felt much more at ease after returning to Junsha. Although she did not like the city at first, her depressed state had eased a lot since she came back.

Especially this afternoon when I was cooking, I was in a very focused and quiet state, even looking forward to Liu Chang'an's comments. The feeling of being appreciated and recognized always dispels a lot of the dark, negative, and detrimental energy that clung to me.

Thinking about it carefully, Qin Yanan was also a little puzzled by this feeling. From May to August, she had only known this little cousin for three months, and they hadn't met that many times. When she was willing to follow her great-grandfather's instructions and settle down to cultivate a simple sibling relationship, there weren't many moments when she felt particularly close to him.

But eventually their relationship improved, mainly because she developed a simple, admiring affection for him, unrelated to romantic love. It was just an appreciation for an eighteen-year-old boy, a feeling that having a younger brother like him wouldn't be bad.

That's all. But why has this not-so-deep emotional foundation become an oasis to alleviate my current chaotic and depressed emotional state?

Generally speaking, when ordinary people encounter a crisis, only their family, parents, the people they trust most, the people they love most, and the people they respect most can give them a sense of security and relief.

Liu Chang'an, this eighteen-year-old boy, is neither a family member nor a close relative. Why would he help her calm down?

Although he had torn down her defenses and confronted her secrets, causing her to panic again, she surprisingly felt no fear or worry. A trust, seemingly from nowhere, made her feel that it didn't matter if he knew her secret, the one she least wanted anyone to know.

Besides being related to Ye Sijin, Qin Yanan's recent dreams also included the figure of a man, something Liu Chang'an hadn't expected. Qin Yanan didn't know who this man was, but the gentle and easygoing impression of the man in her dreams somewhat overlapped with the young man before her.

But he was only an eighteen-year-old boy.

The man in my dream had nothing to do with me. When I dreamed of him, I was only seeing scenes of him and Ye Sijin.

He wasn't an eighteen-year-old like Liu Chang'an; some of the scenes between him and Ye Sijin were embarrassing and made people blush.

The scene where this man and Ye Sijin first appeared was in a dream. Qin Yanan thought he was her great-grandfather, but he was clearly not.

Later, she thought it was Ye Chenyu, but Ye Chenyu is Ye Sijin's older brother. How could he do those embarrassing things from her dream?

Qin Yanan absolutely refused to believe that these two seniors would disregard human ethics in such a way.

Who exactly is the man in the dream? Could Ye Sijin have a secret love affair? This is a possibility, and Qin Yanan wouldn't think it would disgrace the Qin Family, as long as it was something that happened before Ye Sijin and her great-grandfather discussed marriage.

But why does it overlap with Liu Chang'an's image...? Qin Yanan has become somewhat numb to this question, because recently she has accumulated far too many doubts and tormenting mysterious phenomena in her mind.

"That's right." Qin Yanan put down her chopsticks, looking at Liu Chang'an with a relaxed expression, as if she had finally shed all pretense and no longer needed to try to hide anything. "I think I'll disappear sooner or later, becoming someone else who has already disappeared from this world."

"There may be some mysterious phenomena about you that are hard to understand, but you will always be you, and you will never become someone else," Liu Chang'an said with great certainty.

Qin Yanan smiled wryly. Although Liu Chang'an could see the problems in her, he didn't realize how serious they were.

"I know what you're worried about." Liu Chang'an's judgment wasn't affected by Qin Yanan's reaction. "If you were Qin Yanan, you wouldn't have become Ye Sijin."

"What you didn't say is probably this: unless I am Ye Sijin in the first place." Qin Yanan knew that Liu Chang'an was probably thinking of the same thing she was worried about.

"Yes." Liu Chang'an nodded.

"I am Qin Yanan!" Qin Yanan pointed to herself, her expression excited. "I am not anyone else."

"Don't get agitated." Liu Chang'an shook his head. "I know you are Qin Yanan. Ultimately, only you can decide who you are and what kind of existence you are. The perceptions and labels from the outside world are just supplementary perceptions, but these supplementary perceptions can strengthen your presence as Qin Yanan."

"I just want to be myself, I don't want to become someone else. In your eyes, no matter what, I am still Qin Yanan, right?" Qin Yanan grabbed Liu Chang'an's hand, looking at him expectantly and nervously.

This was a pitiful person who was terrified of losing herself and her independent personality. Liu Chang'an looked at her delicate, fair hand and did not break free as he was used to.

"I don't think you'll become Ye Sijin. You're just being interfered with by the magnetic field left behind or recorded by Ye Sijin." Liu Chang'an didn't believe in reincarnation, even though the so-called magnetic field theory itself was explained using a seemingly scientific term, but in reality, it was still a deceptive explanation like "essence."

For example, many people couldn't understand why the Earth revolves around the sun in the past, but after the concept of gravity emerged, everyone took it for granted. "Because of gravity."

Before a clear understanding of the phenomenon observed in Qin Yanan is achieved, it can be easily explained by inventing a term similar to "gravity."

This is the basic operation of charlatans, but there's no other way; it's the best way to explain unknown phenomena in a seemingly scientific way.

"The magnetic field left behind or recorded by Ye Sijin?" Hearing Liu Chang'an say this, Qin Yanan's emotions calmed down considerably.

"When you last came into contact with that coffin, did you see many scenes? Those were images of you recorded by the magnetic field." Liu Chang'an pointed to the coffin behind him.

Qin Yanan nodded slowly, "But before I started having dreams about Ye Sijin, before I started sleepwalking and imitating Ye Sijin, I didn't come into contact with this coffin."

"Didn't you deliver this?" Liu Chang'an shook his head. "It doesn't necessarily require direct contact... From the moment you were in charge of transporting this coffin, it may have had an impact on you. The key question is why this coffin's impact on you is related to Ye Sijin."

"Could it be that what's inside is..." Qin Yanan thought of an unbelievable possibility.

Liu Chang'an shook his head; he knew, of course, that the person inside wasn't the one Qin Yanan had in mind.

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