Although Xie Ji found it a bit strange, he didn't quite grasp the situation while listening to Lu Xunji's story. "And then?"
"Then... they locked me in the pigsty, didn't give me food, didn't let me sleep, and told me to go tell the teacher that it was my own fault for not wanting to study, otherwise they would lock me up for life. I didn't listen, so I lived in the pigsty for more than a month."
Xie Ji stiffened and took a soft breath.
The hand gripping Lu Xunji tightened instantly, and her heart throbbed with a sharp, stabbing pain.
Although I knew Lu Xunji probably wasn't having a good time in that family, I didn't expect him to be suffering so badly.
So for that entire month, Lu Xunji ate pig swill and slept in a stinking pigsty... This wasn't just treating him badly; it was downright insulting, abusive, and eroding Lu Xunji's dignity.
That's utterly despicable!
Looking at Xie Ji's resentful and distressed gaze, Lu Xunji tilted his head, seemingly curious as to why Xie Ji would show such an expression.
He has very poor empathy, almost never cares about anyone's thoughts, and never gets emotionally involved for anyone. However, in order to appear human, he will occasionally put on an act.
"It was summer vacation, and nobody cared about my disappearance, but she did." Lu Xunji squinted. "The teacher came to my house for a home visit and saw me in a sorry state in the pigsty. She didn't mind that I was dirty or smelly. She carried me out of the pigsty, and then—then she took me back to her house, gave me clean clothes, a clean bed, and clean food."
Xie Ji whispered, "Thank goodness for her."
I spent the last month of summer vacation at her house. I started middle school, and my grades were always the best in the city. She was always very proud of me.
"But one day, she found a pile of pornographic videos I had under the bed—lots of them, a lot of them, abnormally many."
Lu Xunji's voice grew softer and softer.
"At first, she wasn't panicked. She just thought it was some budding romance in a teenage boy. She cautiously talked to me, hoping I would focus my energy on my studies."
"It's strange, studying doesn't require much effort for me to do well, and I have plenty of time to do what I want... I like the feeling of being close to death. I met a group of friends who do racing, paragliding, and skydiving. These activities are expensive, but I don't have any money, so I skip school to work and tutor. I charge high fees, but people still keep coming to me—maybe it's because I'm number one in the city?"
"She found out and strongly opposed my participation in these extreme sports, but I agreed."
"She is the most important person to me, and I will never do anything she doesn't want me to do."
"But I couldn't hold on for long. I'm a ghost, a monster, I can't be a normal person. When desire comes, I can barely control myself... so I started self-harming."
"When the pain is so intense that even breathing is difficult, you naturally don't have the strength to do these things."
"She found out, she was terrified, even panicked. She took me to see a psychologist, but it didn't work. I saw many psychologists, but nothing helped. She saw me watching pornographic movies, and she couldn't understand it. She screamed her disappointment in me."
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