I Don't Want to Choose

If Kiana is willing to tell her in advance.

This is a good thing.

Yomi, who had this idea, quickly fell into deep doubt.

Kiana hesitated for a long while, then pulled away slightly, looking at the photos on the wall, and said, "ARuan... ARuan just now..."

What happened to Ruan Mei?

Yomi didn't interrupt her, and listened attentively to what Kiana wanted to say.

Kiana took a deep breath.

The anxiety in her heart was indescribable, but she had to take the plunge. She forced herself to speak quickly, "I don't want to hide it from you, I just kissed ARuan."

I don't want to hide it... from Ruan Mei...

Kiss?

Just one short sentence.

Yomi had to try and understand the meaning of the sentence several times before he could barely grasp it.

Just as Kiana had predicted, Yomi's expression turned extremely ugly in an instant.

She should praise Kiana for being honest.

Or should we say Kiana is daring?

How dare you say something like this to her?

With a grim expression, Yomi pinned Kiana against the wall, staring at the guilty look on her face, and reached out to rub her lips.

"She kissed you?"

Ruan Mei's special care for Kiana was actually based on the same kind of affection she had for her, rather than...

Yomi was in a very bad mood.

Kiana nodded stiffly. There were worse things to come, and she didn't know if Yomi could accept them.

"Why?"

Strong reason restrained the impulse.

Yomi took a deep breath. Now she was more interested in knowing Kiana's reaction back then, and what she was thinking now.

Kiana's feelings towards Ruan Mei...

Yomi's heart sank to the bottom.

Kiana is somewhat special to Ruan Mei is undoubtedly the same to Kiana.

During the time he couldn't be by Kiana's side, during the period when Kiana lost her Remembrance, he spent all his time with Ruan Mei.

The weight Ruan Mei held in her heart...

Yomi dared not guess.

"... Does Mei want to hear the truth?"

Yomi's heart sank to the bottom. She didn't need to listen any further; she had already guessed a certain possibility.

She didn't want to listen, but Kiana's next words were something she had no choice but to hear. She could only suppress her emotions and say calmly, "Speak."

"I can't refuse ARuan."

"She is very important to me."

Yomi stared at her with deep, dark eyes. "Is it just because you couldn't refuse?"

"... No."

Kiana didn't dare look Yomi in the eye, and whispered, "I've always had feelings for her, ever since I first met her."

Have you always had feelings for him?

Starting from... the very first page?

Yomi tightened his grip on her shoulder, his breathing becoming heavier, his voice carrying a barely perceptible madness. "Are you telling me all this to tell me that you've discovered you like Ruan Mei more?!"

Kiana has fallen for someone else?

Others?

Yomi could not accept this.

She had nothing left. In the faded world before her, only Kiana retained her color. Kiana was her only remaining treasure, lost and then regained.

She absolutely cannot let go!

A sharp pain shot through Kiana's shoulder as she endured the pain, anxiously explaining, "It's not like that! Mei, listen to me, you're the most special and important person to me!"

104

Chapter 104 I Don't Want to Make a Choice

What does it mean to say I like you and she too?

What kind of adding fuel to the fire is this?

Kiana felt as if the blood in her body was about to freeze in that instant, and a chill ran straight to the top of her head.

She even forgot to breathe, looking at Yomi, whose expression froze completely after hearing her words, with a guilty conscience.

Oh no, oh no.

This time I'm really doomed!

Kiana licked the wound from Yomi's bite during their kiss and cursed herself for talking nonsense.

Is this something I should say?

Yomi didn't fly into a rage as she expected, losing her composure over a single sentence. Instead, she stared intently at Kiana with her beautiful eyes. "... What did you just say?"

It was only six words, and it didn't carry the same anger as before, but the sense of oppression it exuded was no less, much like the calm before a storm.

It's mainly because they feel guilty.

After all, she is not innocent.

Hearing Yomi's voice, Kiana's heart skipped a beat, and she whispered, her confidence completely gone, "That's not what I meant."

Yomi pretended not to hear her words.

I didn't really mean it that way when she said that; I just wanted to make sure she wasn't angry.

Do you like Ruan Mei?

Yomi looked at the guilty Kiana and asked in a deep voice.

"I..."

"To be honest."

Yomi stared intently at her. "Your next answer will determine my attitude towards this matter."

She needs a stance.

Having just vented all his emotions, Yomi now appears calm, at least on the surface.

To be honest?

Kiana remained silent.

Does she like Ruan Mei?

She didn't need to spend time thinking about this question, because she already had the answer in her heart.

"Like."

Kiana's voice wasn't loud, but it was clear and firm.

"... I think I must like her."

Kiana sighed; this was the reason she returned to confront Yomi after doing all this.

She liked Ruan Mei. During the time she lost her memory, she fell in love with Ruan Mei while spending every day with her. However, she was unsure whether Ruan Mei reciprocated those feelings.

She liked Mei, and she also liked Ruan Mei.

Both of them were people she didn't want to give up.

Trying to have your cake and eat it too will inevitably lead to a terrible end; deceiving someone will lead to an even worse end.

Very well, they've admitted it directly.

Yomi closed her eyes for a moment, lost in thought, before opening them again and asking Kiana a question, "Between me and Ruan Mei, who do you like more?"

Who do you like more?

This is not a good question to answer.

Now ask who you like more.

The next question, should we ask her who she chooses?

"Mei... I don't want to have to choose between two options."

Kiana's eyes darted away, her voice pleading.

What does it mean to not want to choose between the two?

Yomi pinched the bridge of his nose, his eyes filled with complex emotions. "You don't want to choose one of the two?"

"Yes, I don't want to. I know it's wrong, but you all mean special things to me, and I don't want to be separated from any of you."

It was indeed because of the time she wasn't by Kiana's side that Ruan Mei took advantage of the situation and occupied an important place in Kiana's heart.

"I'm very angry, and you know that saying these things makes me very angry."

"Kiana, I know you won't change your mind, so I won't say anything pointless."

"I'll just ask you one question: have you ever considered that even if I could accept it..."

Where is she?

Yomi placed his hand on Kiana's shoulder again, staring at her as he spoke slowly and deliberately, "She's a genius from the Genius Club. Even if you persuade me to give in, can she accept it?"

Intelligent people are often more arrogant, with their own pride and bottom line; such people would never compromise.

Such is fate.

Ruan Mei is not some random passerby; she is someone who has met Lord of Wisdom, a genius from the Genius Club.

"Accept, accept what?"

Kiana paused slightly, feeling a little embarrassed that the thought had just crossed her mind, but still felt a bit awkward having it aloud. "I think maintaining the status quo is fine."

She shamefully chickened out.

Just as Yomi had said, she didn't have the confidence to make two envoys of that Emanator submit.

But she didn't want to make a choice.

Choosing means giving up.

Mei is someone she could never give up, while Ruan Mei...

"..."

Maintain the status quo?

What does "maintaining the status quo" mean?

You can play dumb when things aren't out in the open, but once things are out in the open, it means there's no turning back.

Is that really what Kiana thinks?

Maintain the status quo?

"I think you should understand one thing. People like us can't be content with the status quo, neither can she nor I."

Even if she were willing.

Ruan Mei would absolutely not allow the status quo to continue.