Possibly I Really Am a Monster (Six Thousand Words)

Mister Ye's words stunned Yang Jia, leaving her speechless and even finding them somewhat absurd.

Indigenous people, strangers...

Once you wake up, aren't you just a stranger in a strange land?

She didn't even understand why Mister Ye would say such strange things. After all, she had never found Xiao Xiao to be any different from others... Except that he would occasionally do something she couldn't understand, and she would sometimes think that he had some mental health problems. However, this phenomenon was common among strangers, especially since she was the one who discovered Xiao Xiao and brought him into this world.

What problems could there be with someone you personally brought in, guided, and watched grow up?

Before this, everyone thought that those who had awakened were strangers.

Seemingly understanding Yang Jia's doubts, Mister Ye said softly, "That's because no one has ever encountered this situation before."

"But can you recall what it felt like when you first awakened?"

"..."

Yang Jia fell silent for a moment, then immediately recalled the various details from back then.

No stranger can forget that wonderful feeling.

"Like waking from a deep dream, I suddenly realized how different I was from others, how false this world was, and even developed a severe sense of rejection. From the moment of awakening, the feeling of being out of place has always been there. The loneliness of being a stranger in a foreign land has penetrated my soul, until I met my own kind, until I learned to interact with the natives with a false facade, only then did it ease up a little..."

"..."

"That's probably the problem."

Mister Ye's gentle electronic voice slowly explained, "We rarely doubt our own cognition. Even if there are people in the Dante Organization like the Deity School who understand the world from the perspective of the indigenous people, they are only trying to find some loopholes. The ultimate goal of their doctrine is actually to falsify it. They just want to prove the falsehood of this world from the perspective of the indigenous people."

"But what if this is actually because our perception has been distorted?"

"What if there is another kind of person, someone who truly entered this foreign land from the perspective of an indigenous person, who can see the same things as us, feel the city's pulse, and utilize Enhancement Element, but who has always remained an indigenous person?"

"All strangers are awakened because they were chosen by Mysterious Source."

"But what if there were people who entered our world while maintaining their own will?"

"..."

Yang Jia has always been a very steadfast and rational figure.

But listening to Mister Ye's words, she couldn't help but frown, and suddenly interrupted, saying, "What exactly are you trying to say?"

"I want to tell you how he's different from us."

Mister Ye said, "He is fundamentally different from the strangers."

"With my current understanding of the City Will and the outsiders, I can't clearly explain where the difference lies, but I can feel a sense of crisis. I don't know what he will bring, but when I saw the Mysterious Guidepost help him awaken and was sent into our circle, I realized that perhaps the fate of Black Gate City is different from what we thought."

"..."

Yang Jia suddenly realized the key point. "You recognized him as soon as you saw him, which means you already knew about him?"

Mister Ye paused for a moment. "I knew about him when the Black Forest Pioneer Project was launched."

"..."

Yang Jia's expression changed drastically in an instant.

If Mister Ye was referring to the four years before Xiao Xiao started having headaches, then the problem was even more terrible than he had imagined.

Four years ago, the Old Chairman was still alive, and he hadn't even awakened to the truth yet.

And since Mister Ye is so loyal to the Old Chairman, it means that Mister Ye knew about this plan four years ago and knew that Xiao Xiao was involved in it. Therefore, the Old Chairman, the one he respected the most, must also have known about these things.

She didn't even realize that her voice was trembling slightly. "What exactly does the Old Chairman want to do?"

"Just as you know."

Mister Ye said, "The Old Chairman has always wanted to build a Noah's Ark and take everyone out with him."

"He thought this way four years ago, and he still thinks this way four years later. However, when the Old Chairman found the Mysterious Guidepost a year ago and learned more about the truth of this world, I think he must have discovered something that shook him. But before he could tell me or adjust his plans, he was forced to self-destruct by the Hell Group."

"It is precisely because he concealed some secrets that, even though he left behind a complete plan after his death, we cannot carry it out in his place. We can only wait, wait for the Mysterious Guidepost to bring us a new chairman..."

"But I discovered that this new president is the product of the Old Chairman's most regrettable incident back then."

"..."

After saying all this in one breath, Mister Ye paused slightly, his electronic voice seemingly tinged with regret.

"This is what I wanted to tell you."

"I have to admit, I feel extremely lost right now!"

"..."

"..."

"I really am a monster..."

Looking at his father's terrified eyes, Xiao Xiao could only manage a complex, ambiguous smile.

He had seen this look of terror on many faces, but he didn't care; in fact, he even enjoyed it. But now, it was his own father who was showing him this look, so he felt confused. He hated this expression and found the father's angry curses rather grating, but he had so much to say that he could only smile and say, "But who created a monster like me?"

"You..."

Seeing Xiao Xiao smile despite the curses, Xiao's Father became terrified.

He seemed to have lost all his spirit all at once, pleading desperately:

"No matter what, please, I'm sorry, but your brother has nothing to do with this..."

"Please, please, spare your brother..."

"..."

"Younger brother..."

Xiao Xiao felt even more frustrated, almost to the point of losing control of his expression.

Why do these situations always occur, where the two parties can't even have a proper conversation and always manage to push themselves to the brink of collapse?

He could hear himself laughing as he asked, "If I'm a monster, then why do I have a younger brother?"

"If I were a human being, why would you ask me such a question?"

"..."

What exactly do you want?

Xiao's Father also shouted, his face showing a kind of hysterical madness. "I am your father, do you really have to kill me and your brother? You killed Mingming without blinking an eye, he was also a living person, but you killed his uncle in front of your brother, you don't even treat people as human beings, and you still say you are not a monster?"

"I understand why the Black Goat Club is afraid of you..."

"They were so afraid they even wanted to expel me because you've become a monster..."

"You may still appear to be a human being on the surface, but inside you you have long since become a monster, a mad monster."

"You even wanted to kill your father, and you wanted to kill your innocent brother..."

"..."

"I haven't..."

Xiao Xiao tried his best to explain, his face still showing that confused expression. "Who can make this kind of decision so quickly?"

Why are you pressuring me to make a decision right now?

"You sold me off without even asking me, and now you're forcing me to make a decision?"

"..."

Xiao's Father was breathing heavily. Perhaps, just because he was not an observer, he could not feel Xiao Xiao's pain and confusion at this moment. In his eyes, the smile on Xiao Xiao's face, and even the pain in his eyes, was just a terrible and distorted expression. His rationality had already collapsed, and now, suddenly, he completely slid into the abyss.

He thought of his son, and even the most difficult decisions suddenly became easier.

"Monster, monster, madman, madman..."

He roared, "You're not my son! You're just a monster wearing my son's skin! You're a monster!"

He shouted those words loudly and frantically.

Then, with his eyes fixed on Xiao Xiao, he suddenly slapped a button on the top of his office drawer.

Throughout this action, his eyes remained fixed on Xiao Xiao.

A cruel pleasure can be vaguely discerned.

Xiao's Father has been in great pain lately.

Four years ago, he made that decision. Although in his understanding, he never had the right to choose, and he was uneasy and worried for a long time, he almost forgot about it because there were no consequences. He only saw that Xiao Xiao had some headaches during that period, but other than that, there seemed to be no major changes.

They took him to the Black Forest, but the other party only told him with disappointment that the medicine had no effect and the plan was canceled.

He successfully divorced, started a new family, and managed to avoid his son. Occasionally, when he heard news about him, he would only say that his son, who used to have good grades, had dropped out of school and spent his days playing games at home, and was considered a complete failure.

I don't care much, after all, I have a younger son.

Time passed by, and it seemed that everything could be diluted.

He even didn't mind seeing his eldest son on his birthday, although this meeting was only agreed to because his ex-wife kept nagging on the phone, and he also felt that not seeing his eldest son for four years was a bit too much... Of course, an even more important reason was that the Black Goat Club was asking him about the old house, and he needed to ask the mother and son about it...

They couldn't refuse the Black Goat Club's request, after all, their business and connections were now all related to them.

But it was during this meeting that he vaguely felt something was wrong.

At the beginning of the month, the eldest son seemed to be perfectly fine, except for being a little quiet and not acting like a normal person. But it wasn't until a real gun fell out of his body that he suddenly realized the danger and fear began to emerge.

Then, after the misunderstanding at the hospital, he witnessed the mysterious abilities displayed by his eldest son and learned that his eldest son killed without hesitation. Only then did he suddenly realize that some terrible change had indeed occurred, stemming from the cause four years ago.

He began to feel afraid and hid in the Black Goat Club, where he began to understand his eldest son's fears. He learned that his eldest son, who hadn't left the house for four years, had, in a very short time, gone from a dockworker to a member of the underground underworld and even rose to a high-ranking position in the gang. He disregarded the law, killed indiscriminately, and even unknowingly became a high-ranking member of that mysterious organization.

This fear accumulated in my heart day and night.

The Black Goat Club was his last refuge of security. After the staff of the Black Forest made it clear that they were completely unable to protect him, the promises of the Black Goat Club remained his last hope. Until, the owner behind the Black Goat Club, with a hint of schadenfreude, suddenly kicked him out, leaving him to face this terrible monster alone.

He knew that his eldest son had sent many people to look for him, and he was powerless to hide.

Therefore, he had no choice but to make preparations.

He had no other choice but to confront someone whom neither the Black Forest nor the Black Goat Club could contend with.

All she could think about was protecting her youngest son.

Therefore, his preparations consisted of placing a bomb in his drawer and using what he had learned at the Black Goat Club, along with some small items, placing some devices next to the bomb that could disrupt electromagnetic waves to avoid being discovered.

He doesn't actually mind detonating it.

Because he was at the Black Goat Club, he heard a lot about these people.

If they fall into their hands, death will be the quickest and most painless outcome.

Anyway, this madman won't let me off the hook, so in order to protect my child, this result is already perfect, right?

The moment the bomb was detonated, Xiao Xiao saw the look in his father's eyes.

As an observer, he saw fear, determination, and overwhelming paternal love in those eyes.

Of course, the last emotion has nothing to do with you.

The Eye of the Seer had already seen the bomb the moment his father pressed the button, and saw the rapidly flashing numbers on it. He immediately understood his father's intention, and an unimaginable sense of absurdity welled up in his heart...

What did this long-awaited conversation tell me?

There's a reason behind telling yourself that you've become a stranger in a foreign land.

Even from the perspective of the indigenous people, there is a reasonable logic to telling oneself that one has become a stranger in a foreign land.

So, does the reality represent what the indigenous people see, or what the outsiders see?

The bomb flew rapidly toward the point of explosion, but Xiao Xiao entered a state of Mind Burst.

Everything seemed to have frozen, including the numbers bouncing on the bomb and the father's roar.

During this pause, Xiao Xiao pondered silently:

According to Yang Jia and the others, this world has always been fake, just a pile of meaningless flesh and blood. They could have completely ignored it, but sometimes they couldn't control their emotions. They were good to their mother because their mother was good to them. Their father wasn't good to them, but why did they still feel empty inside at this moment?

Whether it's real or fake, it doesn't seem to matter...

He listened to the bomb's slow, intermittent buzzing sound, and silently felt a sense of relief.

If everything I've experienced was just a collective fantasy of madmen, then in reality I'm powerless to change the logic of reality. With this bomb exploding so close to me, there's no doubt I'll die.

After all, the power of fantasy can corrupt others, but it cannot change reality.

But if the world of strangers is the real one, then everything in that world is merely an extension of flesh and blood.

Then I can survive.

Because that means that both this room and this bomb are essentially just flesh and blood, living matter.

"Call..."

Xiao Xiao slowly exhaled, his eyes becoming unfocused, as he began to take in the feeling of the city.

When the Hell Organization began its attack on Black Gate City, the city granted him a privilege: as its lord, he could briefly become the city's center, allowing the flesh and blood beneath his feet to shift and transform, transporting him to another location. Now, less than two hours after the Hell Organization's retreat, this privilege still exists, and he still retains the ability to teleport himself.

So, in a state of Mind Burst, after thinking for a long time, he made use of this ability.

In the normal flow of time, the floor beneath Xiao Xiao's feet and the surrounding walls suddenly began to melt.

Everything in reality turned into writhing flesh and blood. The laws of physics could be easily broken in the face of the essence of flesh and blood. Xiao Xiao sat still, but the flesh and blood beneath his feet had the ability to carry him out of the office.

This also shows that, to him, the city is nothing more than a lump of flesh and blood.

The indigenous people are just puppets; everything they think and do is essentially meaningless.

Sensing these changes, Xiao Xiao felt relieved and reached out to grab his father's arm.

I still need to get him out before the bomb explodes.

But his expression suddenly turned horrified.

He grabbed his father's arm, but suddenly found that his father was unusually heavy and solid, and he couldn't move him. Even the Butcher's chainsaw, which could cut everything, was somewhat powerless when facing that perverted young master's sports car. Now, he Mingming that everything was easy, but he just couldn't move his father who was shouting wildly in front of him.

Just like a ghost can't pull a living person away.

Like a character in a fantasy, they have no influence on anything in reality.

The next moment, Xiao Xiao immediately focused his attention on the bomb, wanting to turn it into a mass of flesh and blood.

It was equally impossible to succeed; everything was proceeding according to a reality logic that was beyond one's control.

Xiao Xiao closed his eyes in pain. The next moment, he suddenly disappeared from the office and was transported outside the building by flesh and blood.

"Bang!"

A violent explosion suddenly erupted from the office. The terrifying force and shockwave tore apart the surrounding walls and desks, shattering the entire office. Huge flames burst from the windows, and even Xiao's Father, wife, and son, who were sitting anxiously in the conference room at the far end of another floor of the building, closed their eyes in terror amidst the massive tremors.

After a long while, they realized what had happened and rushed out of the conference room recklessly.

All they saw was that the office had been blown to pieces, with flames still burning, and there was no sign of life.

Outside that office, I saw Xiao Xiao sitting in a wheeled office chair, silently bowing his head.

"Old Xiao..."

"Dad..."

She and her child screamed in terror, their cries heart-wrenching. The fear in that instant almost overwhelmed their dread of Xiao Xiao. The woman actually tried to rush towards him, yelling desperately, "What have you done? You're insane! You actually killed your father... You're a devil! You monster, how could you do such a thing to your own father..."

Xiao Xiao looked up after a long while, only glancing in her direction.

The eyes are red.

His face was expressionless; he simply stared at her for a long time before suddenly revealing a strange smile and nodding slightly.

"Yes, I really am..."

"..."

The woman and child were both stunned by the smile, as if they had lost their souls.

Even the thugs who had been brought in as accomplices were terrified by Xiao Xiao's smile, and none of them dared to utter a word.

Xiao Xiao, on the other hand, seemed to have suddenly lost interest. He pursed his lips, remained silent, and didn't even look at the fat man in the Tang suit who was coming to greet him. He simply got up and went to press the down button for the elevator in front of him... The elevator did not respond, malfunctioning due to the impact of the explosion. But Xiao Xiao's expression suddenly turned angry, and he slapped the elevator button hard.

The elevator suddenly started working normally and quickly appeared in front of him.

Xiao Xiao entered the elevator and went straight down, never looking back at the scene of the explosion or at anyone else.

"He killed Xiao Zhigong?"

In a secret hideout of a club in Black Gate City, the Shepherds and the Special Investigator from the Black Forest Biological Laboratory learned of this news and were both stunned into silence. After a long while, they sighed in a horrified tone, "That's insane..."

"Does the power of the mother have such a profound influence on people?"

"..."

How could he be so cruel?

The short-haired woman in the suit spoke with fear in her voice, "How could someone like this be controlled as you wish?"

"I would even assert that he was the most unsuccessful drug test subject in the history of the Black Forest..."

"..."

"How is that possible?"

The Shepherds took a long time to react before laughing and saying, "Compared to the suffering he has endured, I think this is nothing."

"Perhaps, only someone like him could truly find his Fourth Element..."

"... To obtain higher privileges from the mother?"

"..."

"..."

"Where are you now?"

When Yang Jia called, Xiao Xiao was wandering aimlessly down the street, oblivious to the chaotic honking around him.

"I?"

He could hear the nervousness in Yang Jia's voice, but he felt powerless to care where that nervousness came from.

He answered somewhat mechanically, "I just met with my dad."

"Your father?"

Yang Jia was clearly taken aback and instinctively asked, "What did you say?"

"We just had a fight."

Xiao Xiao said woodenly, "Just like many arguments between fathers and sons, neither of them can convince the other."

Yang Jia listened to his calm tone with incomprehension. "And then?"

Xiao Xiao paused for a moment, then slowly replied, "He's dead."